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[estranger]

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[serinance]

I'm so sorry. If you need anything you know I'm here. I'll be online in a couple of hours. *hugs* ♥~

[shahni]

It's kind of like the last burst of life, before they finally allow themselves peace in death. If that happens, you can be sure that they're going to go with ease, and that's more than what you'd want for them, right?

I don't think you were careless at all. In fact-- I think you were lucky, more than fortunate to have been able to experience that last burst of warmth yourself.

My condolences, hun.

[estranger]

I think I was wrong. I'm at my grandma's house right now and found out that he had a 104 fever. That must have been why he was so warm to the touch. He was shaking too and I asked the nurses if it was an effect of whatever drugs he was given. They were so incompetent they didn't know a thing. They didn't notice any sign that he was sick and it should have been obvious to me. I should have realized he had a fever they could have done something about it. I feel incompetent. I took obvious signs of illness as something good.

I came into the house and my uncle said to me "Your aunt didn't know you were the last to see him, she thought she was and she felt so guilty." I told him,

"It's ok, the guilt's all on me."

[okamishoujo]

Oh dear. My condolences! ;.;
If you need someone to talk with, feel free to call or IM me. ♥ -hugs-

[soul_jar]

There's no way you could've known about his condition right before his death. It's only natural to associate warmth with liveliness, and I think it's a mistake anyone would've made.

Despite how difficult it was for you to cope with, you found it in you to set that aside and care for him. I know he was thankful for that, and I'm sure he passed away peacefully because of it. To die in one's sleep seems like the best way to go.

Please try not to blame yourself. That's not what he would want. <3 And if you need me, I'm here for you! Don't hesitate to contact me.

[jacoba]

You were there for him. And despite what you have seen him gone through...he is grateful for what you have done for him what others wouldn't.