Soooooooooooooooo I feel fantastic, my little sebaticle to J-town has proven quite useful and just what i needed. I've been so stressed out, so nervous about Phil, and realized that there's truly nothing to get worked up about. I'm so happy where I am, yes it's a little stressing, but hey, what's Doug w/o stress ( Read more... )

So i dissappeared to home for a night, (jackson) thought I would see what was shakin' back here. Not a damned thing as always. So the past few days have been interesting, i've drank myself to a stouper and back to sobriety so many times that i'm surprised i'm still this coherent. I'm having a very difficult time w/ him, to be honest, i've finally ( Read more... )

Thank christ pride is finally over. The protestors, the crazy faggots, the butch dykes, it's all fucking over and done w/ after 14 hours and i can finally go to bed however i have to go ALONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Of all days why couldn't Phil just being lieing in my bed giving me one of his crazy grins and opening his arms up wide to receive me. That's ( Read more... )

absolutely exhausted, just put in my second 12 hour day in a row, and definately feeling it. Going to try to keep this one short seeing as how I have to be to the other job in less that 7 hours now. So I find myself longing for him more and more. He won't be in my bed tonight, I won't awake to he and his modesty, which right now makes awaking alone ( Read more... )

Well it appears that i've had a wee bit of competition that i never knew about. Looks like I wasn't the only one in the running for Phil's attention but it has been confirmed that i've won. lol. That's always a great feeling. So Phil has definately taken me by surprise. I truly don't know what to do w/ myself, it's been a while since i've longed ( Read more... )

Well I achieved the mid managing position at my job and got all my fun official stuff today. Did I really want/need more responsibility? Most likely not, but the money keeps coming in and even though i've no life i suppose it's some sort of bonus. On the quasi-up side, it's finally warm here in the wonderful world of Michigan but since there's no ( Read more... )

telepopmusik breathe, that's really all i have to say. I'm trying to collect the ooze which is myself that someone has so easily melted all over my floor. I'm finding it hard to collect myself, finding it hard to think clearly, and most of all finding it hard to control my body. But it's just another day, I believe, and all i have to do is "just

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Which way now? Where do you turn which path do you choose and why? Do you choose the path less worn, less lonely, the brighter path or the darker that allows your imagination forced to vibrance? I'm finally living for myself, finally choosing my own path weather it's less or more lonely, be it friends, family, lovers, or acquaintances. I'm choosing ( Read more... )

Okay so obviously I couldn't come up with a subject but that just proves the lack of focus on first impressions. I think i'm suppose to sit here and mope about me coming out of one of the most emotionally draining relationships of my life but I find focus of that really just isn't necessary. I live, I loved, and I could not live with my love. ( Read more... )