‘Hidden Desires’ Trilogy (NC-17)
When one desires another, its not always possible to get what you whant...But what if, what you want wants you back?
Author: Phoenix
Pairing: Johnny/Orli
Disclaimer: I do not own the characters or the movie so don’t sue
Notes: I was listening to Mandy Moore’s Song I wanna be with you and this came to me. Oh and I heard/read somewhere that Johnny and Keira had worked together before so If I’m wrong please don’t be mad.
Parts: 1/3
Warning: Not Nice to Keira Knightley fic! Sorry if this makes you mad or something!
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I have watched him since the day that he had came onto the set, I’ve watch him flirt with all the cast both male and female, old and young, it didn’t matter to him as long as everyone was smiling. This tenacious young man was all smiles, laughs and joy. And I fell for him after the first day of knowing him. I watched him flirt with ease with Keira and for the first time of knowing her I was jealous of her and the attention she got from the one I wanted. I watched him as they fitted us with our costumes and swords, I watched as he relearned how to fight with the sword, I watched every day and fell even more for this wonderful young man.
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I try but I can't seem to get myself to think of anything but you
Your breath on my face your warm, gentle kiss I taste the truth, I taste the
truth
We know what I came here for
So I won't ask for more
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I watched as him and Keira became more then friends and I slowly realized that I would never have a chance with my precious Orlando. He was hooked on Keira Knightley and as much as I loved her I now hated her also. She had taken the angel of the set and was getting read to debauch him. Keira was the whore of the set no matter what set she was on and Orlando was still knew nothing about those who were the whores of the movie production life. He may have had sex before but he was still a virgin to the sex life of the whore of set.
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I wanna be with you
If only for a night
To be the one who's in your arms to hold you tight
I wanna be with you
There's nothing more to say
There's nothing else I want more than to feel this way
I wanna be with you
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I dreamt of holding Orli to me, of having him under me, dreamt of him near me, touching me. I just dreamt of him. I found that no mater how much a like our features were I still enjoyed watching him do so many thing. He was beautiful to me; I just wanted to protect him from everyone. I wanted to shelter him from everything that could cause him harm. I found after the first month of pre-filming that I had fallen so hard with my new co-star and loved the way it felt.
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So I'll hold you tonight like I would if you were mine to hold forevermore
And I'll savor each touch that I've wanted so much to feel before, to feel
before
How beautiful it is
Just to be like this
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By the time that the filming had started finally Orli had started to hang around me more and more. Preferring my company then that of Keira’s maybe just maybe he liked me more then her. Even off set he chose to hang around me then with Keira, he ignored her completely whenever she came near; it made me feel like I was his entire world.
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Oh, baby
I can't fight this feeling anymore (anymore)
Drives me crazy when I try to (try too)
So call my name and take my hand
Can you make my wish, baby, your command (command)?
Yeah
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I loved him; there were no other feelings for what I felt for him...yet he didn’t love me back. I allowed myself to watch him but I was dejected that I couldn’t hold him. After another week passed I realized that Orli only hanged around with me. I questioned him about it once and his only reply was that he trusted me.
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Oh yeah
I wanna be with you
Wanna be with you, ooo, yeah
I wanna be, I wanna be,
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I aloud my self to indulge with just this friendship between ‘my’ Orli and me. For that was what he was to me in my mind he was mine. I know that I could never have him yet still I lusted after him. He was everything I ever wanted yet I couldn’t have him.
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Oh yeah
I wanna be with you
Wanna be with you
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She told me that she loved me, she told me that she couldn’t live with out me, yet when I gave her my heart she shattered it so badly. She was so bad and hurt me so deep, how do I get over this?
I thought I was in love, but is love supposed to hurt this way? She drew me in like a moth to a flame, she was amazing and I thought she was the one for me. She was heaven and she reminded me of how Viggo always talked about love and dreams and truth. Viggo once said that once you find someone that mystifies you and makes you feel like you’re in a dream its for real.
I thought she was true but she soon broke my heart. So I guess in the end Viggo was wrong for once. I thought loving her would be a dream come true but it was all a lie for I wasn’t loving an angel I was loving a devil in disguise.
I made love to her once and that’s when the mist covering my eyes was torn away, for another’s name tore from her lips as I called out hers. She destroyed my dreams of what we could have been. I waited till dawns glowing light to leave the room that held only hurt and darkness. I walked from Dawn till dusk for I wasn’t needed this day of filming. It was past 10 when I showed up to Geoffrey’s door, looking down at my feet as I knocked quietly and waited for him to answer. He took one look at me and pulled me through his door and sat me down.
“What happened young one?” He questioned me as he handed me a beer.
“She used me...” I trail off as I look down and take a long swallow of the beer.
“How do you know?” He asks me as his hands work at my tense shoulders.
“She called out someone else’s name.” Was all I said as I broke down, “I Thought I could love her ya know? I thought I would be enough.” I gasp out as I let the tears fall.
“ Did you even love her?” He questions me softly as he continues to rub my shoulders and neck.
“ I don’t know...” I trail off as I thought about it.
“Why don’t you sleep in my guest room since your apartment is on the other side of town?” He asks me softly as he hugs me. Nodding I hug him back as I murmur a thank you.
All that night I thought about what I felt and I realized that I never loved her in the first place. It wasn’t till I was at work that I realized that I was hiding what I really felt behind a mist of blindness. I wasn’t in love nor did I even like Keira in that way. I was transferring what I felt for Johnny to her. Startled I started to hang around Johnny more often totally disregarding her when I didn’t have to be ‘Will Turner who is madly in love with the girl and not the pirate’.
One day Johnny asked me why I only hanged around him while we were on set, my only reply was that I trusted him. Which was true I no longer trusted Keira after what she did. I continued to hang around with Johnny during the day and dream of him during the night. It hurt that even when I wasn’t acting as ‘Will’ I needed to pretend that I didn’t love Johnny like I did.
One day while walking around the set I over heard a conversation between Keira and Johnny that turned my world around and to the better I might add.
“Johnny, has Orli told you why he hasn’t been seeing me lately?” Keira demanded of him as they stood near the buffet table.
“Actually Keira, he hasn’t mentioned a thing about you... all he seems to talk about is life and his friends from Lord of the Rings.” He says as he leans up against a near wall his arms crossed against his chest.
“Nothing at all about me?” She purrs as she trails her hand up and down his arm. I watched intently as he pulls disgusted away from her.
“No nothing about you at all I’m afraid.” He says as his eyes darken and he glowers at her.
“What a pity he was such fun!” She grins as she moves closer.
“Just leave him alone Keira...” Johnny sighs as he glares at her.
“Why?” She questions him “Do you love him” She again demands.
“Yes I love him and you will not hurt him, for if I find out that you do you’ll live to regret it.” He snarls as his naturally warm eyes harden and he looms over her. Startled she backs up with a gasp. Nodding quickly she turns and runs away. Turning away from the scene I walk around for the longest time in a daze. Just thinking about the conversation and what it meant to me. I was walking through the town when it started to rain not really caring I continue walking from one side of the town to the other to get to my apartment.
I was startled when a hand came down onto my shoulder and the rain quit falling on me. I was so disoriented that I didn’t realize that it was an umbrella till I looked up and over my shoulder. I stared in shock at the fact that you were behind me.
“Johnny?” I question as I blink owlishly at him as I glance around.
“ Orli what are you doing out here?” He questions me as his eyes narrow in worry. “You’re soaking wet!” he states the obvious as he motions from my head to my toes.
“So I am...” I trail off as I once again start to walk. Startled he rushes to fallow me. “You’re going to catch a cold if you stay out here any longer Orli, why don’t you come back to my place to warm up and to eat something before I give you a ride home?” He asks me as he points up a little head to his apartment complex. Nodding I just followed him.
Once we were in his apartment He showed me to his room and dug through his drawers and handed me a pair of his sweat pants with a sweater. Before pointing out to me the bathroom. Smiling softly to me he moves to the balcony to hang the dripping umbrella out side. When I came out of the bathroom I looked around the room finding that Johnny wasn’t in this room so I wonder out into the living room. He wasn’t there either I decide to check the kitchen, where I found him at the stove standing over two saucepans.
“Watch ya making?” I ask him as I look over his shoulder.
“Hot chocolate to warm you right up!” He states as he looks at me. It was then that I realized how close we were, blushing lightly I move away to stand beside him.
“Yummy! When is it going to be done?” I question as I rock on the balls of my feet.
“Soon!” He says while laughing and stirring both the pots. “Now go and sit in the living room!” He tells me as he smiles wider. I walked to the living room and layed down on Johnny’s couch and was startled to find that it smelled more of him then his cloths do. I snuggled down into the warm and soft fabric of the couch, dozing softly while I wait for Johnny.
I was awoken by a soft cress to the top on my head. Opening my eyes slowly looking up I spot Johnny smiling softly and lovingly at me.
“Wakey Wakey Orli” He says softly as he places the last mug of hot chocolate down
on to the coffee table. Blinking at him I move slowly to sit up. His smile widened and he sat down before pulling me onto his lap. Startled I stare at him, before titling my head to the right a question in my eyes. He sighed and leaned his forehead against mine.
“Oh Orli. I need to tell you something and it is important to me that you do not interrupt ok?” He asks of me, as his own dark eyes look deeply into my own. Nodding silently I wait for him to continue. He watched me quietly as one of his large elegant hands cups my cheek, purring softly as I nuzzle into the touch. With a triumphant feeling deep inside as I watch his eyes widen slightly.
“Orlando since the first day that I met you I have been drawn to you like a moth to the flame. When you’re sad or hurting you make me want to hold you till the hurt goes away,” his voice floats softly into my ears as his breath tickles my face. “When you smile it makes me feel like the world is at peace, but when you smile at me it makes me feel like I am alive and free.” He sighs and closes off his beautiful eyes. I moved slowly to straddle him; my hands on his hips just above his crotch. I let out a soft purr come through as I nuzzled my head into the crook of his neck.
“I feel the same way.” I tell him softly as I punctuate each word with a lick to his soft skin. I felt him shiver and heard his gasp as his hands came up to my waist as I slowly lifted my head. His dark eyes opened slowly to look into my own dark eyes. His eyes were narrowed as a contemplative look was painted onto his handsome face.
“Please Orlando do not lie to me I couldn’t bare it if you did.” He says as he lifts one of his hands to cress my cheek.
“I wouldn’t have said anything if I didn’t feel the same.” I say as I allow him to see into my tightly guarded soul and heart. His eyes widened and he let out a whoosh or air as he swooped down to claim my lips in a soft yet possessive kiss. I moaned softly as I pressed closer. He pulled back slowly and leaned his forehead against mine, our breath slightly labored.
“We have to go slow Orli, I don’t want to rush into this.” He tells me as he lets out a deep purr of his own. Nodding I snuggle closer to him.
“Can I stay the night please?” I asked him softly as I nuzzle into his neck.
“Yes you can.” He tells me as he lifts me up and cares me back to his bedroom.
Our dates were slow, softly loving and gently...nothing like the dates I had with Keira. During the nights when I was alone all I could think about was how his arms felt around me that one night. Most of our dates were either at coffeehouses, restaurants, beach or just someplace quiet. We did go out to a club or two every now and then but not often we preferred the quiet of each other’s company. The more time I spent with him the more I fell.
“Johnny?” I asked him one night while we were cuddling up on his couch.
“Yeah Orli?” He asks me softly, as his voice was sounding slightly tentative.
“I love you” I tell him as I kiss up his neck, to his cheek in lick butterfly kisses, then finally kissing him firmly on the lips. He moans softly against my lips as he presses his lips tighter to mine in a possessive hold. I purred deeply in the back of my throat as I press closer to him. He pulls back slowly giving my lips one last lick.
“I love you to my Precious Orli” He says as he lifts his hand to cress my face. I lean into the cress before kissing his palm softly, then licking it.
“Your such a cat!” He laughs, “But you’re my sweet Kitten you know that?” He asks me as he nudges my nose with his.
“I like being you’re Kitten” I tell him as I lick his chin.
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“Johnny?” I asked him one night while we were cuddling up on his couch.
“Yeah Orli?” He asks me softly, as his voice was sounding slightly tentative.
“I love you” I tell him as I kiss up his neck, to his cheek in lick butterfly kisses, then finally kissing him firmly on the lips. He moans softly against my lips as he presses his lips tighter to mine in a possessive hold. I purred deeply in the back of my throat as I press closer to him. He pulls back slowly giving my lips one last lick.
“I love you to my Precious Orli” He says as he lifts his hand to cress my face. I lean into the cress before kissing his palm softly, then licking it.
“Your such a cat!” He laughs, “But you’re my sweet Kitten you know that?” He asks me as he nudges my nose with his.
“I like being you’re Kitten” I tell him as I lick his chin.
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I awoke in the middle of the night when Orli had pressed so close to me that his face was on my chest. I looked down and gazed lovingly at his sleeping face. This was our third sleepover yet as the two nights before nothing but cuddling happened. God I can’t believe how much this little boyo has captured my heart so readily, and so totally. I held him tightly to me as I heard him start to purr deep in his throat as he slowly started to wake. I smiled gently as I felt him stretch against my body. My Orli was such a cat, but he was mine and no one else would have him.
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I hope the man upstairs isn't mad at me
Because I have one of his angels and he's here with me
Each time I see his precious smile and he spreads his wings
He takes me to a place where love meets eternity
Oh no, I'm not letting go
I don't want to be alone in this crazy world
Oh, Lord, how I love him so
And I'll sacrifice it all to have him in my life
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I was sure that God, if their was a god that is, would be mad at me for taking such an angel away from his keep. Because I am so certain that in my arms truly is an angel, for no mater how experienced he is in life he is truly an innocent and precious to me. He is my paradise, my own secret haven and sanctuary. I don’t want to let him go...no I won’t let him go not for the life of me. For I’ve only just got him and I won’t give him up.
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I found my boy
I'll tell the world
That heaven is missing an angel
My dreams came true
When I found you
Yes, heaven is missing an angel
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Yes I found my love and I want to tell the world, he is my angel and I wont let him go no. I’ve taken one of Gods precious angels and I’m so sure that he is a dream come true and when I wake I know that all my dreams have been answered for laying in my arms is an angel. I watched with a soft smile on my face as Orli’s deep chocolate brown eyes blink open and he smiles at me.
“Hello love” I whisper to him softly as I kiss his forehead gently, as I watch him wake up totally.
“Hello melamin.” He answers me with a kiss to my chin and cheek. I blinked at him as I reach up and cress his cheek softly.
“What does that me Orli?” I ask him as I watch him yawn gently.
“It means my love in elvish.” He says as he rolls out of the bed and walks into the bathroom. Slowly I fallow him into the room only to watch as he brushes his teeth. Coming up behind him I wrap one arm around his waist as the other one reaches for my own toothbrush. Kissing his cheek I start to brush my own teeth. When we were both done that morning ritual I wrap both of my arms around his waist and kiss up his neck to his lips. He hums softly as he kisses me back softly. I sucked on his lower lip as he opened up for me. I swept Orli into another kiss that curled his toes inside his socks. He clutched helplessly at my shoulders. When I released him again, he couldn't form a coherent sentence. I laughed softly and traced a finger along Orli's jaw.
"I love you, so much." I breathe into his ear as we rock softly together as my hands cressed his stomach to the tempo that only I could hear.
“Really? I could swear that I love you so much more.” He says as he leans back heavily into me with a sigh of contentment. We moved from the bathroom back to as I have now classified it ‘our’ room to just cuddle on our day off. We were literally wrapped around each other; his left leg in between mine as his left arm was wrapped around my waist, as his head was pillow on my chest.
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Not a day goes by that I don't thank God for you
He blessed me with my angel though I don't deserve you
Before I met you, boy, lonely was my best friend
Now that you are in my life, I am stronger within
I can't wait to kiss my angel late at night
And watch him go to sleep until I see him rise
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I thoroughly explored Orlando's mouth, reacquainting myself with the feel of Orli's hot tongue sliding across my own, burning me with its contact. With Orlando's sweet habit of giving me a small kiss after each long one; and how Orlando moaned wantonly beneath me, eagerly running his fingers over my crotch. Though we have been going out for the past month we hadn’t done much, and I was nervous at the thought of Orli not truly wanting me. I pulled away from his mouth slowly with a gasp for air; his one hand is twisted in my hair at the back of my neck. I dropped my head down to his neck as I leave a wet trail from where his jaw meets neck to the hollow in his throat. I nuzzled my nose their a few times as his hands cress my shoulders and back slowly. I lowered my head to his nipple my lips trailing over its hardness. I was overpoweringly aware of the incredible softness of his skin. It felt like the softest of silk. My tongue flicked at the sensitive nub and he trembled. I raised my head and saw the wonderment in his eyes. Though his dark eyes were also filled with eagerness and the slow mounting desire. I moved my hand down to his bare belly, pressing as it stroked, made him gasp. My hand flattened between his closed thighs and his legs parted for me even as he drew breath on a little sob of anticipation.
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I found my boy
I'll tell the world
That heaven is missing an angel
My dreams came true
When I found you
Yes, heaven is missing an angel
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His body cried out for the intimate knowing invasion of my fingers. I pulled away for but a moment to grab the lube. I lubed up two of my fingers generously before gently massaging his pucker till he keened in pleasure. I took his mouth again, even as I stretched him more by corkscrewing my fingers, making him cry out. Orli gave a loud groan as I took out my fingers before lubing three to stretch him more.
“Please Johnny...now please...” He pants as he squirms and writhers down onto my fingers. The muscles of his belly rippled as the anus clamps down onto my fingers as he whines. His cries only spur me on as I thrust my fingers slowly in and out of him. My love groaned as he pushes further down on my fingers. God he was so wanton, so wanton for me... Just seeing him like this made me even harder.
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All that I do is for you
Me without you, boy, just won't do
Your love's all I want to know
Angel, don't you ever go
Life won't be the same without you
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Johnny got off of the bed and removed his ‘wife-beater’ and unzipped his sleeping pants that were tight with his arousal and let it drop to the ground. Slight relief flooded him as hid large, hard cock escaped the confining black cloth. He climbed onto the bed beside the angel and kissed him again. It was a very passionate kiss, filled with much desire. He began licking at Orlando’s jaw and slid lower down to his neck. His angel moaned. ‘His moans will be the death of me’ Johnny thought as he began kissing the hot, lithe chest. He came upon a small brown nipple and attacked it with tongue and teeth. Orli moaned louder and tried to struggle against the hands that held his wrists.
"Please! Take me now! Johnny...." He begs the man as he arches against him panting slightly.
"Are you sure you want this, love?" He leant down gave the younger man a chaste kiss. "Yes...yes..." Orlando again begs of him as he moans and writhers as Johnny’s breath ghosts against his neck. Smirking he bites down hard on the point where neck meets shoulder, his bite broke the skin and drew blood. Orlando gasped and shuddered against him when he bit him deeply, and sighed when he lapped up the blood that was pulsing from the small wound. Johnny kissed the back of Orli's hand and began to insert two of his fingers back into Orlando instead, searching out Orli's prostate. He wriggled and gasped as Johnny finds the spot and brushed it. He inserted another finger and despite Orli's protests stretched him very slowly and thoroughly. The younger man was a whimpering limp pile as Johnny finally spread the oil over his own weeping erection.
"Are you ready?" Johnny asked, lifting Orlando’s face up to meet his.
"Yes, yes!" Orli gasped as he wrapped his legs around Johnny, sure that he was
going mad with need. "Just do it! I want you! Johnny!" Orli's mouth fell open as Johnny slid into him with a quick thrust.
"Are you all right?" He asked as he nuzzled Orli's neck as he rested in my lover, giving him time to adjust to the intrusion.
"Ah! Yes!" He nodded, despite the tingling sting. His lover was well endowed and was very cautious about it, but he loved the feeling of Johnny inside him. He loved being filled and whole as he'd never been. His life had been full of loss and absences, but not with Johnny in it. Now he had someone that cared for him. He wrapped his arms around Johnny’s shoulders, holding him tightly. Johnny lifted his head and kissed his angel gently, their tongues
sliding together lazily.
While Orlando was distracted, Johnny thrust gently. He moaned softly as Johnny began to set the pace, but he wasn't satisfied with the slow drawn out torture. He wanted more.
"Love, go faster. Please." Orli pulled Johnny close, thrusting up.
"Hungry whelp," Johnny murmured as he took a firm hold of Orli and managed to roll them both over and into a sitting position. Orli stared at him from where his head rested on Johnny’s chest. "You want faster, you may set the pace." Orli sat up and set Johnny’s hands firmly on his own waist. He licked his lips and nodded as he rocked in Johnny’s lap; his eyes fluttering shut at how much deeper he pressed from this position. Johnny smiled at the blissful expression on Orli's face. Johnny rolled his hips up and drew a groan from Orlando.
Orlando rocked back on Johnny’s erection; carefully lifting himself from his lap and then sliding back down, his hips gently guided by Johnny’s hands. Despite his earlier demands for speed the angel took a few moments to savor the depth of the slow thrust and the drawn out pleasure. As soon as he was seated in Johnny’s lap he repeated the process, only speeding up as he quickly rode his new lover, moaning as Johnny let a hand slide across Orlando’s erection. He grabbed onto Johnny’s shoulders to steady himself as he threw his head back.
He moved rocking against his lover, crying out when Johnny pushed his hips up. Johnny’s hand moved slowly over his erection in a counterpoint to their motion. Orlando felt as if his senses were overloading with the hard thrusts so deep inside of him and the gentle stroking designed to send him over the edge. His fingers tightened on his lover’s shoulders as his thighs began to shake and soon he was crying out, his head tossing back as he came. Orlando tightened around Johnny and he groaned and thrust up quickly, drawing delighted whimpers from the angle as he brushed across the angel’s prostate. Johnny’s thrusts grew erratic just before he came and Orlando’s name escaped his lips as a groan while he held onto his lover tightly and filled him.
Orli melted limply against Johnny, their sweaty chests sticking together as Orli wrapped his arms around Johnny and rested his head on his shoulder. Panting to catch their breath, Johnny cradled Orlando and stroked his hair as he murmured sweet nonsensical words in his ear. Orlando nuzzled his lover and slowly Johnny shifted them so that he was stretched out on the bed and his angel was sprawled across his chest. Orlando ran his fingers through the dark curls of hair that peppered Johnny’s muscular chest. Johnny watched him with a satisfied grin.
"Happy now?" Johnny asked as his arms tighten around his beloved angel.
"Very," The angel nodded as he kisses Johnny’s chest softly.
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The next morning, we walked onto the set hand in hand, many of the cast and crew where smiling, hopping and giving us cat calls. Orlando was blushing insanely as we walked into our dressing room. Orlando tried to go and sit in his chair, it was the one farthest from me the last one actually, but in stead I pull him into my lap on my chair.
“Now where do you think you’re going?” I demanded of him as my arms held him tightly in my lap
“No where it would seem.” He sighs softly before turning slightly and kissing my sweetly. I kissed him back just as sweetly as Geoffrey and Keira walk in. Geoffrey laughed and patted me on the back as he walked to his seat. Keira on the other hand sniffed loudly and started to wail as we drew apart.
“Orlando! I thought you loved me!” Her cries her high pitched and scratchy, I watched as my angel winces at the sound. He turns to me so that your eyes connect and rolls his eyes and sighs softly before turning back to the harpy.
“Actually Keira, I only thought I loved you, any ways how could I love you when you never truly loved me?” He tells her as he again turns to me his eyes full of happiness yet sadness as well. Troubled by this I hold on to my precious angel and swore once more never to let him go.
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Author: Phoenix
Pairing: Johnny/Orli
Disclaimer: I do not own the characters or the movie so don’t sue
Notes: I was listening to Mandy Moore’s Song I wanna be with you and this came to me. Oh and I heard/read somewhere that Johnny and Keira had worked together before so If I’m wrong please don’t be mad.
Parts: 1/3
Warning: Not Nice to Keira Knightley fic! Sorry if this makes you mad or something!
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I have watched him since the day that he had came onto the set, I’ve watch him flirt with all the cast both male and female, old and young, it didn’t matter to him as long as everyone was smiling. This tenacious young man was all smiles, laughs and joy. And I fell for him after the first day of knowing him. I watched him flirt with ease with Keira and for the first time of knowing her I was jealous of her and the attention she got from the one I wanted. I watched him as they fitted us with our costumes and swords, I watched as he relearned how to fight with the sword, I watched every day and fell even more for this wonderful young man.
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I try but I can't seem to get myself to think of anything but you
Your breath on my face your warm, gentle kiss I taste the truth, I taste the
truth
We know what I came here for
So I won't ask for more
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I watched as him and Keira became more then friends and I slowly realized that I would never have a chance with my precious Orlando. He was hooked on Keira Knightley and as much as I loved her I now hated her also. She had taken the angel of the set and was getting read to debauch him. Keira was the whore of the set no matter what set she was on and Orlando was still knew nothing about those who were the whores of the movie production life. He may have had sex before but he was still a virgin to the sex life of the whore of set.
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I wanna be with you
If only for a night
To be the one who's in your arms to hold you tight
I wanna be with you
There's nothing more to say
There's nothing else I want more than to feel this way
I wanna be with you
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I dreamt of holding Orli to me, of having him under me, dreamt of him near me, touching me. I just dreamt of him. I found that no mater how much a like our features were I still enjoyed watching him do so many thing. He was beautiful to me; I just wanted to protect him from everyone. I wanted to shelter him from everything that could cause him harm. I found after the first month of pre-filming that I had fallen so hard with my new co-star and loved the way it felt.
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So I'll hold you tonight like I would if you were mine to hold forevermore
And I'll savor each touch that I've wanted so much to feel before, to feel
before
How beautiful it is
Just to be like this
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By the time that the filming had started finally Orli had started to hang around me more and more. Preferring my company then that of Keira’s maybe just maybe he liked me more then her. Even off set he chose to hang around me then with Keira, he ignored her completely whenever she came near; it made me feel like I was his entire world.
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Oh, baby
I can't fight this feeling anymore (anymore)
Drives me crazy when I try to (try too)
So call my name and take my hand
Can you make my wish, baby, your command (command)?
Yeah
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I loved him; there were no other feelings for what I felt for him...yet he didn’t love me back. I allowed myself to watch him but I was dejected that I couldn’t hold him. After another week passed I realized that Orli only hanged around with me. I questioned him about it once and his only reply was that he trusted me.
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Oh yeah
I wanna be with you
Wanna be with you, ooo, yeah
I wanna be, I wanna be,
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I aloud my self to indulge with just this friendship between ‘my’ Orli and me. For that was what he was to me in my mind he was mine. I know that I could never have him yet still I lusted after him. He was everything I ever wanted yet I couldn’t have him.
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Oh yeah
I wanna be with you
Wanna be with you
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She told me that she loved me, she told me that she couldn’t live with out me, yet when I gave her my heart she shattered it so badly. She was so bad and hurt me so deep, how do I get over this?
I thought I was in love, but is love supposed to hurt this way? She drew me in like a moth to a flame, she was amazing and I thought she was the one for me. She was heaven and she reminded me of how Viggo always talked about love and dreams and truth. Viggo once said that once you find someone that mystifies you and makes you feel like you’re in a dream its for real.
I thought she was true but she soon broke my heart. So I guess in the end Viggo was wrong for once. I thought loving her would be a dream come true but it was all a lie for I wasn’t loving an angel I was loving a devil in disguise.
I made love to her once and that’s when the mist covering my eyes was torn away, for another’s name tore from her lips as I called out hers. She destroyed my dreams of what we could have been. I waited till dawns glowing light to leave the room that held only hurt and darkness. I walked from Dawn till dusk for I wasn’t needed this day of filming. It was past 10 when I showed up to Geoffrey’s door, looking down at my feet as I knocked quietly and waited for him to answer. He took one look at me and pulled me through his door and sat me down.
“What happened young one?” He questioned me as he handed me a beer.
“She used me...” I trail off as I look down and take a long swallow of the beer.
“How do you know?” He asks me as his hands work at my tense shoulders.
“She called out someone else’s name.” Was all I said as I broke down, “I Thought I could love her ya know? I thought I would be enough.” I gasp out as I let the tears fall.
“ Did you even love her?” He questions me softly as he continues to rub my shoulders and neck.
“ I don’t know...” I trail off as I thought about it.
“Why don’t you sleep in my guest room since your apartment is on the other side of town?” He asks me softly as he hugs me. Nodding I hug him back as I murmur a thank you.
All that night I thought about what I felt and I realized that I never loved her in the first place. It wasn’t till I was at work that I realized that I was hiding what I really felt behind a mist of blindness. I wasn’t in love nor did I even like Keira in that way. I was transferring what I felt for Johnny to her. Startled I started to hang around Johnny more often totally disregarding her when I didn’t have to be ‘Will Turner who is madly in love with the girl and not the pirate’.
One day Johnny asked me why I only hanged around him while we were on set, my only reply was that I trusted him. Which was true I no longer trusted Keira after what she did. I continued to hang around with Johnny during the day and dream of him during the night. It hurt that even when I wasn’t acting as ‘Will’ I needed to pretend that I didn’t love Johnny like I did.
One day while walking around the set I over heard a conversation between Keira and Johnny that turned my world around and to the better I might add.
“Johnny, has Orli told you why he hasn’t been seeing me lately?” Keira demanded of him as they stood near the buffet table.
“Actually Keira, he hasn’t mentioned a thing about you... all he seems to talk about is life and his friends from Lord of the Rings.” He says as he leans up against a near wall his arms crossed against his chest.
“Nothing at all about me?” She purrs as she trails her hand up and down his arm. I watched intently as he pulls disgusted away from her.
“No nothing about you at all I’m afraid.” He says as his eyes darken and he glowers at her.
“What a pity he was such fun!” She grins as she moves closer.
“Just leave him alone Keira...” Johnny sighs as he glares at her.
“Why?” She questions him “Do you love him” She again demands.
“Yes I love him and you will not hurt him, for if I find out that you do you’ll live to regret it.” He snarls as his naturally warm eyes harden and he looms over her. Startled she backs up with a gasp. Nodding quickly she turns and runs away. Turning away from the scene I walk around for the longest time in a daze. Just thinking about the conversation and what it meant to me. I was walking through the town when it started to rain not really caring I continue walking from one side of the town to the other to get to my apartment.
I was startled when a hand came down onto my shoulder and the rain quit falling on me. I was so disoriented that I didn’t realize that it was an umbrella till I looked up and over my shoulder. I stared in shock at the fact that you were behind me.
“Johnny?” I question as I blink owlishly at him as I glance around.
“ Orli what are you doing out here?” He questions me as his eyes narrow in worry. “You’re soaking wet!” he states the obvious as he motions from my head to my toes.
“So I am...” I trail off as I once again start to walk. Startled he rushes to fallow me. “You’re going to catch a cold if you stay out here any longer Orli, why don’t you come back to my place to warm up and to eat something before I give you a ride home?” He asks me as he points up a little head to his apartment complex. Nodding I just followed him.
Once we were in his apartment He showed me to his room and dug through his drawers and handed me a pair of his sweat pants with a sweater. Before pointing out to me the bathroom. Smiling softly to me he moves to the balcony to hang the dripping umbrella out side. When I came out of the bathroom I looked around the room finding that Johnny wasn’t in this room so I wonder out into the living room. He wasn’t there either I decide to check the kitchen, where I found him at the stove standing over two saucepans.
“Watch ya making?” I ask him as I look over his shoulder.
“Hot chocolate to warm you right up!” He states as he looks at me. It was then that I realized how close we were, blushing lightly I move away to stand beside him.
“Yummy! When is it going to be done?” I question as I rock on the balls of my feet.
“Soon!” He says while laughing and stirring both the pots. “Now go and sit in the living room!” He tells me as he smiles wider. I walked to the living room and layed down on Johnny’s couch and was startled to find that it smelled more of him then his cloths do. I snuggled down into the warm and soft fabric of the couch, dozing softly while I wait for Johnny.
I was awoken by a soft cress to the top on my head. Opening my eyes slowly looking up I spot Johnny smiling softly and lovingly at me.
“Wakey Wakey Orli” He says softly as he places the last mug of hot chocolate down
on to the coffee table. Blinking at him I move slowly to sit up. His smile widened and he sat down before pulling me onto his lap. Startled I stare at him, before titling my head to the right a question in my eyes. He sighed and leaned his forehead against mine.
“Oh Orli. I need to tell you something and it is important to me that you do not interrupt ok?” He asks of me, as his own dark eyes look deeply into my own. Nodding silently I wait for him to continue. He watched me quietly as one of his large elegant hands cups my cheek, purring softly as I nuzzle into the touch. With a triumphant feeling deep inside as I watch his eyes widen slightly.
“Orlando since the first day that I met you I have been drawn to you like a moth to the flame. When you’re sad or hurting you make me want to hold you till the hurt goes away,” his voice floats softly into my ears as his breath tickles my face. “When you smile it makes me feel like the world is at peace, but when you smile at me it makes me feel like I am alive and free.” He sighs and closes off his beautiful eyes. I moved slowly to straddle him; my hands on his hips just above his crotch. I let out a soft purr come through as I nuzzled my head into the crook of his neck.
“I feel the same way.” I tell him softly as I punctuate each word with a lick to his soft skin. I felt him shiver and heard his gasp as his hands came up to my waist as I slowly lifted my head. His dark eyes opened slowly to look into my own dark eyes. His eyes were narrowed as a contemplative look was painted onto his handsome face.
“Please Orlando do not lie to me I couldn’t bare it if you did.” He says as he lifts one of his hands to cress my cheek.
“I wouldn’t have said anything if I didn’t feel the same.” I say as I allow him to see into my tightly guarded soul and heart. His eyes widened and he let out a whoosh or air as he swooped down to claim my lips in a soft yet possessive kiss. I moaned softly as I pressed closer. He pulled back slowly and leaned his forehead against mine, our breath slightly labored.
“We have to go slow Orli, I don’t want to rush into this.” He tells me as he lets out a deep purr of his own. Nodding I snuggle closer to him.
“Can I stay the night please?” I asked him softly as I nuzzle into his neck.
“Yes you can.” He tells me as he lifts me up and cares me back to his bedroom.
Our dates were slow, softly loving and gently...nothing like the dates I had with Keira. During the nights when I was alone all I could think about was how his arms felt around me that one night. Most of our dates were either at coffeehouses, restaurants, beach or just someplace quiet. We did go out to a club or two every now and then but not often we preferred the quiet of each other’s company. The more time I spent with him the more I fell.
“Johnny?” I asked him one night while we were cuddling up on his couch.
“Yeah Orli?” He asks me softly, as his voice was sounding slightly tentative.
“I love you” I tell him as I kiss up his neck, to his cheek in lick butterfly kisses, then finally kissing him firmly on the lips. He moans softly against my lips as he presses his lips tighter to mine in a possessive hold. I purred deeply in the back of my throat as I press closer to him. He pulls back slowly giving my lips one last lick.
“I love you to my Precious Orli” He says as he lifts his hand to cress my face. I lean into the cress before kissing his palm softly, then licking it.
“Your such a cat!” He laughs, “But you’re my sweet Kitten you know that?” He asks me as he nudges my nose with his.
“I like being you’re Kitten” I tell him as I lick his chin.
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“Johnny?” I asked him one night while we were cuddling up on his couch.
“Yeah Orli?” He asks me softly, as his voice was sounding slightly tentative.
“I love you” I tell him as I kiss up his neck, to his cheek in lick butterfly kisses, then finally kissing him firmly on the lips. He moans softly against my lips as he presses his lips tighter to mine in a possessive hold. I purred deeply in the back of my throat as I press closer to him. He pulls back slowly giving my lips one last lick.
“I love you to my Precious Orli” He says as he lifts his hand to cress my face. I lean into the cress before kissing his palm softly, then licking it.
“Your such a cat!” He laughs, “But you’re my sweet Kitten you know that?” He asks me as he nudges my nose with his.
“I like being you’re Kitten” I tell him as I lick his chin.
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I awoke in the middle of the night when Orli had pressed so close to me that his face was on my chest. I looked down and gazed lovingly at his sleeping face. This was our third sleepover yet as the two nights before nothing but cuddling happened. God I can’t believe how much this little boyo has captured my heart so readily, and so totally. I held him tightly to me as I heard him start to purr deep in his throat as he slowly started to wake. I smiled gently as I felt him stretch against my body. My Orli was such a cat, but he was mine and no one else would have him.
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I hope the man upstairs isn't mad at me
Because I have one of his angels and he's here with me
Each time I see his precious smile and he spreads his wings
He takes me to a place where love meets eternity
Oh no, I'm not letting go
I don't want to be alone in this crazy world
Oh, Lord, how I love him so
And I'll sacrifice it all to have him in my life
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I was sure that God, if their was a god that is, would be mad at me for taking such an angel away from his keep. Because I am so certain that in my arms truly is an angel, for no mater how experienced he is in life he is truly an innocent and precious to me. He is my paradise, my own secret haven and sanctuary. I don’t want to let him go...no I won’t let him go not for the life of me. For I’ve only just got him and I won’t give him up.
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I found my boy
I'll tell the world
That heaven is missing an angel
My dreams came true
When I found you
Yes, heaven is missing an angel
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Yes I found my love and I want to tell the world, he is my angel and I wont let him go no. I’ve taken one of Gods precious angels and I’m so sure that he is a dream come true and when I wake I know that all my dreams have been answered for laying in my arms is an angel. I watched with a soft smile on my face as Orli’s deep chocolate brown eyes blink open and he smiles at me.
“Hello love” I whisper to him softly as I kiss his forehead gently, as I watch him wake up totally.
“Hello melamin.” He answers me with a kiss to my chin and cheek. I blinked at him as I reach up and cress his cheek softly.
“What does that me Orli?” I ask him as I watch him yawn gently.
“It means my love in elvish.” He says as he rolls out of the bed and walks into the bathroom. Slowly I fallow him into the room only to watch as he brushes his teeth. Coming up behind him I wrap one arm around his waist as the other one reaches for my own toothbrush. Kissing his cheek I start to brush my own teeth. When we were both done that morning ritual I wrap both of my arms around his waist and kiss up his neck to his lips. He hums softly as he kisses me back softly. I sucked on his lower lip as he opened up for me. I swept Orli into another kiss that curled his toes inside his socks. He clutched helplessly at my shoulders. When I released him again, he couldn't form a coherent sentence. I laughed softly and traced a finger along Orli's jaw.
"I love you, so much." I breathe into his ear as we rock softly together as my hands cressed his stomach to the tempo that only I could hear.
“Really? I could swear that I love you so much more.” He says as he leans back heavily into me with a sigh of contentment. We moved from the bathroom back to as I have now classified it ‘our’ room to just cuddle on our day off. We were literally wrapped around each other; his left leg in between mine as his left arm was wrapped around my waist, as his head was pillow on my chest.
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Not a day goes by that I don't thank God for you
He blessed me with my angel though I don't deserve you
Before I met you, boy, lonely was my best friend
Now that you are in my life, I am stronger within
I can't wait to kiss my angel late at night
And watch him go to sleep until I see him rise
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I thoroughly explored Orlando's mouth, reacquainting myself with the feel of Orli's hot tongue sliding across my own, burning me with its contact. With Orlando's sweet habit of giving me a small kiss after each long one; and how Orlando moaned wantonly beneath me, eagerly running his fingers over my crotch. Though we have been going out for the past month we hadn’t done much, and I was nervous at the thought of Orli not truly wanting me. I pulled away from his mouth slowly with a gasp for air; his one hand is twisted in my hair at the back of my neck. I dropped my head down to his neck as I leave a wet trail from where his jaw meets neck to the hollow in his throat. I nuzzled my nose their a few times as his hands cress my shoulders and back slowly. I lowered my head to his nipple my lips trailing over its hardness. I was overpoweringly aware of the incredible softness of his skin. It felt like the softest of silk. My tongue flicked at the sensitive nub and he trembled. I raised my head and saw the wonderment in his eyes. Though his dark eyes were also filled with eagerness and the slow mounting desire. I moved my hand down to his bare belly, pressing as it stroked, made him gasp. My hand flattened between his closed thighs and his legs parted for me even as he drew breath on a little sob of anticipation.
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I found my boy
I'll tell the world
That heaven is missing an angel
My dreams came true
When I found you
Yes, heaven is missing an angel
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His body cried out for the intimate knowing invasion of my fingers. I pulled away for but a moment to grab the lube. I lubed up two of my fingers generously before gently massaging his pucker till he keened in pleasure. I took his mouth again, even as I stretched him more by corkscrewing my fingers, making him cry out. Orli gave a loud groan as I took out my fingers before lubing three to stretch him more.
“Please Johnny...now please...” He pants as he squirms and writhers down onto my fingers. The muscles of his belly rippled as the anus clamps down onto my fingers as he whines. His cries only spur me on as I thrust my fingers slowly in and out of him. My love groaned as he pushes further down on my fingers. God he was so wanton, so wanton for me... Just seeing him like this made me even harder.
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All that I do is for you
Me without you, boy, just won't do
Your love's all I want to know
Angel, don't you ever go
Life won't be the same without you
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Johnny got off of the bed and removed his ‘wife-beater’ and unzipped his sleeping pants that were tight with his arousal and let it drop to the ground. Slight relief flooded him as hid large, hard cock escaped the confining black cloth. He climbed onto the bed beside the angel and kissed him again. It was a very passionate kiss, filled with much desire. He began licking at Orlando’s jaw and slid lower down to his neck. His angel moaned. ‘His moans will be the death of me’ Johnny thought as he began kissing the hot, lithe chest. He came upon a small brown nipple and attacked it with tongue and teeth. Orli moaned louder and tried to struggle against the hands that held his wrists.
"Please! Take me now! Johnny...." He begs the man as he arches against him panting slightly.
"Are you sure you want this, love?" He leant down gave the younger man a chaste kiss. "Yes...yes..." Orlando again begs of him as he moans and writhers as Johnny’s breath ghosts against his neck. Smirking he bites down hard on the point where neck meets shoulder, his bite broke the skin and drew blood. Orlando gasped and shuddered against him when he bit him deeply, and sighed when he lapped up the blood that was pulsing from the small wound. Johnny kissed the back of Orli's hand and began to insert two of his fingers back into Orlando instead, searching out Orli's prostate. He wriggled and gasped as Johnny finds the spot and brushed it. He inserted another finger and despite Orli's protests stretched him very slowly and thoroughly. The younger man was a whimpering limp pile as Johnny finally spread the oil over his own weeping erection.
"Are you ready?" Johnny asked, lifting Orlando’s face up to meet his.
"Yes, yes!" Orli gasped as he wrapped his legs around Johnny, sure that he was
going mad with need. "Just do it! I want you! Johnny!" Orli's mouth fell open as Johnny slid into him with a quick thrust.
"Are you all right?" He asked as he nuzzled Orli's neck as he rested in my lover, giving him time to adjust to the intrusion.
"Ah! Yes!" He nodded, despite the tingling sting. His lover was well endowed and was very cautious about it, but he loved the feeling of Johnny inside him. He loved being filled and whole as he'd never been. His life had been full of loss and absences, but not with Johnny in it. Now he had someone that cared for him. He wrapped his arms around Johnny’s shoulders, holding him tightly. Johnny lifted his head and kissed his angel gently, their tongues
sliding together lazily.
While Orlando was distracted, Johnny thrust gently. He moaned softly as Johnny began to set the pace, but he wasn't satisfied with the slow drawn out torture. He wanted more.
"Love, go faster. Please." Orli pulled Johnny close, thrusting up.
"Hungry whelp," Johnny murmured as he took a firm hold of Orli and managed to roll them both over and into a sitting position. Orli stared at him from where his head rested on Johnny’s chest. "You want faster, you may set the pace." Orli sat up and set Johnny’s hands firmly on his own waist. He licked his lips and nodded as he rocked in Johnny’s lap; his eyes fluttering shut at how much deeper he pressed from this position. Johnny smiled at the blissful expression on Orli's face. Johnny rolled his hips up and drew a groan from Orlando.
Orlando rocked back on Johnny’s erection; carefully lifting himself from his lap and then sliding back down, his hips gently guided by Johnny’s hands. Despite his earlier demands for speed the angel took a few moments to savor the depth of the slow thrust and the drawn out pleasure. As soon as he was seated in Johnny’s lap he repeated the process, only speeding up as he quickly rode his new lover, moaning as Johnny let a hand slide across Orlando’s erection. He grabbed onto Johnny’s shoulders to steady himself as he threw his head back.
He moved rocking against his lover, crying out when Johnny pushed his hips up. Johnny’s hand moved slowly over his erection in a counterpoint to their motion. Orlando felt as if his senses were overloading with the hard thrusts so deep inside of him and the gentle stroking designed to send him over the edge. His fingers tightened on his lover’s shoulders as his thighs began to shake and soon he was crying out, his head tossing back as he came. Orlando tightened around Johnny and he groaned and thrust up quickly, drawing delighted whimpers from the angle as he brushed across the angel’s prostate. Johnny’s thrusts grew erratic just before he came and Orlando’s name escaped his lips as a groan while he held onto his lover tightly and filled him.
Orli melted limply against Johnny, their sweaty chests sticking together as Orli wrapped his arms around Johnny and rested his head on his shoulder. Panting to catch their breath, Johnny cradled Orlando and stroked his hair as he murmured sweet nonsensical words in his ear. Orlando nuzzled his lover and slowly Johnny shifted them so that he was stretched out on the bed and his angel was sprawled across his chest. Orlando ran his fingers through the dark curls of hair that peppered Johnny’s muscular chest. Johnny watched him with a satisfied grin.
"Happy now?" Johnny asked as his arms tighten around his beloved angel.
"Very," The angel nodded as he kisses Johnny’s chest softly.
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The next morning, we walked onto the set hand in hand, many of the cast and crew where smiling, hopping and giving us cat calls. Orlando was blushing insanely as we walked into our dressing room. Orlando tried to go and sit in his chair, it was the one farthest from me the last one actually, but in stead I pull him into my lap on my chair.
“Now where do you think you’re going?” I demanded of him as my arms held him tightly in my lap
“No where it would seem.” He sighs softly before turning slightly and kissing my sweetly. I kissed him back just as sweetly as Geoffrey and Keira walk in. Geoffrey laughed and patted me on the back as he walked to his seat. Keira on the other hand sniffed loudly and started to wail as we drew apart.
“Orlando! I thought you loved me!” Her cries her high pitched and scratchy, I watched as my angel winces at the sound. He turns to me so that your eyes connect and rolls his eyes and sighs softly before turning back to the harpy.
“Actually Keira, I only thought I loved you, any ways how could I love you when you never truly loved me?” He tells her as he again turns to me his eyes full of happiness yet sadness as well. Troubled by this I hold on to my precious angel and swore once more never to let him go.
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