to the point where i say FUCK IT

[eterniti]

i figured id throw in a conversation just so everyone can see what i have to deal with.. now shes out in rutgers hanging with one of her "girlfriends" going to a party.. so all i asked is that she gimme a call before she goes out.. and once she gets back safe.. thats it.. cuz i have a bad history with Rutgers, ive had 2 friends die from going to

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[eterniti]

ok its rounding up to 3:00... dont you think by now she would have at least calld.. or textd back? i mean c'mon its not as if im asking for her to give me a play by play.. i just want to make sure shes ok.. shes A) a very drunk drunk.. and B) lightweight on top of that.. so i worry my ass off especially if its in a place that im not comfortable with to begin with..

if i seem out of line here.. plz tell me ( i dont think i am) but.. i dunno.. i hate this.. its as if the fact that i care is hurting the relationship... im sorry for loving you?? i mean i dont know what to say.. i cant not care about her sometimes and care about her others.. its all or none.. if you want me to care for you, then let me care about you and for you all the time.. not just some days..

[xxcuremytragedy]

I don't know, mark, I think she's probably not used to having someone wanting to know where she is and if she's ok. maybe she really did forget to check her phone. . . who knows. i mean, i don't think she's purposely trying to blow you off, but maybe she just got distracted, and didn't realize that you were there waiting for her to get back to you. I don't think you're out of line to worry about her, but I also don't think you have much patience either. I mean, sure you're sitting there wondering why she hasn't gotten back to you in so long, but look at it from her side. If she's at a party or w/e she probably lost track of time. I mean, I'm sure you've gone to parties so you know what I mean. It's like however early in the morning before you even realize it. I'm sure she's ok. . . But seriously, if you're not happy with the way the relationship is, either talk to her about it, or if you already have, then get out of the relationship. You need someone to care about you as much as you care about them. Don't just be in a

[hurthur]

I dont really know what to say. She sounds like she does love you very much, maybe she just wanted to go out and have a night to herself and party with her girls.. yeah she could have called .. but that doesnt always happen when you've been drinking.. Im just tryin to get you to not worry so much.. i doubt shes off cheatin on you at all, just try not to worry. and if it actually bothers you so much,, then you need to talk to her about it hun

[eterniti]

thanks you two... were probably gonna talk about it today.. becasue she finnaly calld last night.. but was to drunk to understand what i was tryin to say.. so ill try when shes sober.. i mean i know she wanted a night out with her friends and all.. and i understnad that and respect that.. the only.. THE ONLY thing i asked her to do for me was to just gimme a call before she went out and when she got back, because i know that certain frats are alot.. i mean alot worse then other up at Rutgers.. alot of them are very very shady, and id worry about anyone going there.. anyway.. i dunno i guess ill see where this goes..

i just have to keep true to myself

[hypperjewl]

mark darling, why are you frustrating yourself? i just don't understand. you know my stance, so i shouldn't even comment. but hey. here's the voice of reason telling you not to torture yourself anymore. if you're not happy, whats the point?
-jewl