Life is easy, living is hard

[ethapowe]

I was talking to Andy on the phone @ work and all of a sudden I felt like fainting. I've kinda felt like that all week. But this time it was really bad. And that's my worst fear: becoming unconscious - dying. I've also had problems with my stomache, so typical me, I get all those crazy thoughts..like I got Malaria or whichever disease from my trip

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[ismelllikeyello]

you being a hypchondiac? mmm, you shouldn't be afraid of dying. its inevitable so accept that then start thinking about happy things instead of death!? or don't either way. hope you feel better and get your rest and whatnot

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[ethapowe]

thank you

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[contermacious]

Deep breaths Louise, deep breaths.
I hope you get some decent time off over Christmas so you can rest, since you probably wouldn't take time off even if you needed it.
Rest up well, get your energy back and try not to be scared. Death comes to us all eventually, but if you spend all your time fearing and worrying about it, you won't have time to live properly.
Oh and, i don't give you permission to die for a long time yet anyway, understood?

Miss you :(

[ethapowe]

It's not like I didn't know death comes to all of us?
Just you did not experience what I did, you did not have to see what I had to see and you didn't have to go through what I had to go through. Sure, I bet you can imagine how hard it was. But you do not know since you are not me. I didn't even really know about those feelings until my consciousness showed me.
It's scary when something like that[feelings] takes control over your body.

[contermacious]

No, but remember..I've lost 9 friends within 14 months of each other, and November before last, after hours of struggling to catch half a breath, i was minutes away from suffocating in agony because of my major lung infection, so i can imagine a bit better than most people..

[eyeofmaeglin]

Whoa kid. I'm sorry. Hope you're feeling better. I hate to hear that you've gotta go through stuff like that. Stuff just seems to pile up sometimes. It always sucks when so many things seem to be happening at once. In your case, you were confronted first with immediate and physical concerns then surfacing of things that had become distant.
You've always been around for me, I'm here too ya know. Speaking of, thanks for your comment the other day. I was pretty down. You're always good at getting me out of the downtimes. Take care of yourself and I hope I hear from a chipper 'Gina soon. :)

[elfut]

had a dream about you the night before christmas. and you had a little brother when I came to your house...and you were expecting me to come to your house before your mom comes back ffrom work hahaha. that was a good one. tell you more on email. I'm having a good time in Nelson, BC and it's snowing on the very morning of Christmas..its greaaaaaat. Merry Christmas Regina!