thinking about it, if high school me saw me now, high school me wouldn't know what to think. hmm.

oh, blah. i don't even want to work on this last final. last optional part of a final.
and i wonder if i was supposed to have a thesis meeting this week. somteimes, i just suck at not screwing up.

( wonderful! )

that wall people have been talking about? oh, i found it. got smashed all across it last week.

blarg, horrible.

( `` $$p_{01}p_{23} + p_{02}p_{31} + p_{03}p_{12} = 0.$$ )

so today i talked to a prof and he said something along the lines of "so, have you hit the wall yet? it seems like everyone is hitting a wall right now." i made some comment about trying to find a softer wall, and he said that sounded like a good solution. seriously.

can't do this.

( i am still reeling from last night. )

i am terribly, horribly afraid that this will be my last autumn in portland.

i love autumn.