Reflections on why I haven't called her
Hmm.
Presumably she'd get along with new crowd better.
I'm tangential to new crowd via Sabrina.
Sabrina appears to have some territory issues with male her friends.
She would be pissed if I did hang out with just Sabrina. If I didn't Sabrina would be pissed at me, and I do enjoy that regardless. Sabrina would likely handle it far better than Sonya...if she's so inclined. She did even say last time the problem was Sonya's horribleness towards her, which I did underestimate upon reflection in hindsight. Should discuss with Sabrina I suppose.
There's no reason the problems from before wouldn't happen again, other than maybe my being on guard against taking her for granted this time.
I'm still unemployed; this should be rectified very soon, but I mean, it hasn't been yet. And arguments that materialism is bad aside it's very limiting when trying to find things to do. And somehow I've got it too ingrained into me that I should pay to not make me feel badly when I can't, which makes me less pleasant.
Weirdly confident that it's up to me considering. Not actually, just unconcerned with rejection, I guess because that would be retaining the status quo...mostly. Maybe I'd stop thinking about it too. That's a change.