I Can Wait Forever.
Title : I Can Wait Forever. (Sequel to Enchanted)
Pairing : Donghae/Hyukjae
Side : Hanchul, Yewon, Kangteuk, Minwook, QMI
Genre : Song Fic, Angst, Romance, Crack
Author : eunhaelover
word count : 4028
Beta : UN-BETA
Summary : Donghae will wait forever.
Warning : major crack pairings and just more cracks. okay slight junghyuk too.
Play this for Donghae's POV ♥
You look so beautiful today
when you’re sitting there; it’s hard for me to look away
so I try to find the words that I could say
Tonight marks the last night for Donghae to be in Korea. Having to suffer a chronic disease for 5 years, he was finally going to receive his treatment in the States. Thus, what better way to spend his last night other than going to the club?
Tagging along with him was his best friends, Yunho & Minho along with their mates; Jaejoong and Nickhun. The group arrived at the club with booming music welcoming them. Yunho and Jaejoong headed right away to the dance floor in order to burn their “desire” away; more like trying to not rape each other on the couch. Minho and Nickhun decided to head over the bar for a drink.
Donghae decided to take a seat on the table and just observe his surroundings, waiting for something amusing to occur. Sipping his drink, noticing the eyes that are admiring his features he flashed a smile and he swore he heard somebody fainting. He chuckles. It has been a regular thing that occurs to him. The only thing was that, he never got attached to anyone; because he was going to die.
But knowing that he’ll be getting his treatment the following day, he decided that he should loosen up and try meeting other people.
And then he spotted him. Across his table was a male that had fiery red hair, plump lips, fair skinned and a pair of adorable eyes; staring right at him. Donghae smiled, and the male blushed. Oh how that brought fluttery feelings to Donghae’s stomach.
“He’s the one then.” Donghae decided to approach the red-head.
I know distance doesn’t matter but you feel so far away
And I can’t lie, everytime I leave my heart turns gray
And I wanna come back home to see your face and I
After their drink session and ice-cream date, Donghae was having a hard time. He didn’t want the night to end. Despite the fact that it was their first night encountering, he felt sparks and chemistry between himself and Hyukjae. It has been a while since he ever felt something like that this. Ever since he was discovered with a chronic disease, he gave up upon life. He did not have a reason to live for the past 5 years until the day his parents told him that he was going to get treatment.
“But God must hate on me.” Donghae as he sighs during their silent walk back to Hyukjae’s house.
“Well, we’re here.” Hyukjae said with an awkward tone when they’ve reached the front door of his house. Donghae stared at Hyukjae’s house for a moment, trying to think of what to say.
“You have a nice house.” complimented Donghae, while scratching the back of his neck trying to prolong the conversation. He was out of words to say. He didn’t wanted to go.
“Thank you. Erm…..good night?” wished Hyukjae, with a reluctant tone.
“Good night Hyukjae.” Donghae replied, trying to hide his sadness with a smile.
When Hyukjae turn to unlock his door, Donghae did not think and just acted on reflects. He hugged him. Their hug was silent as Donghae savored Hyukjae’s warmth and special scent. He needed to remember it. Until he come back. And then Donghae initiated the kiss. His first kiss.
The red-head blushed and it made it so much harder for Donghae to let go. But he needed to and it was going to be a painful goodbye.
“Aren’t you going to say goodbye?” Donghae asked, hands still around Hyukjae’s waist, feeling very reluctant to let go. He needed to hear Hyukjae’s goodbye. Even though Hyukjae would not know that he’s leaving. He did not want to give Hyukjae any way of contacts, because he’s afraid. Afraid that his treatment would fail and he’ll die.
Hyukjae wished him goodbye and they parted. Donghae watched as Hyukjae entered his house, and he continues watching until he spotted light from the above. He figured that was Hyukjae’s room.
So Donghae sat on a bench near Hyukjae’s house, just watching and observing Hyukjae’s room. He memorizes the house’s structure and its surrounding. Someday, he’ll be back and then he’ll stay.
“I wonder why he isn’t asleep.” Donghae thought, as it was getting late yet the lights is still on in Hyukjae’s room. But he continued to watch, until the light was switched off. It was almost sunrise when Donghae decided to leave, or he’ll be late for his flight.
“I’ll remember you Hyukjae. Wait for me.” Donghae wished as he boarded his flight.
‘Cause I just can’t take it
Another day without you with me
It’s like a blade that cuts right through me
I can wait, I can wait forever
During the days of his treatment, it was tormenting. Hyukjae was all he could think about. And he knew he’s heads over heels for the red-head. Along with the excruciating pain from the treatment he’s receiving, he wanted to give up.
And the days without Hyukjae was even more tormenting compared to the days when he was suffocating due to his disease. His constant missing of Hyukjae brought tears to his face every single day. There’s not a day he didn’t cry.
And when you call
My heart stops beating
When you’re gone, it won’t stop bleeding
I can wait, I can wait forever.
He felt like his heart was stabbed when he was held back in the states due to his treatment. It was going to another year of treatment before he is fully recovered.
A day without Hyukjae was driving him crazy, what more another year.
You look so beautiful today
It’s like everytime I turn around, I see your face
The thing I’ll miss the most is, waking up next to you
When I look into your eyes, man I wish that I could stay
And I can’t lie, everytime I leave my heart turns gray
And I wanna come back home to see your face and I
`You are my very first thought in the morning.`
`And my last at nightfall. You are the love that came without warning.`
`I need you, I want you to know.`
Donghae sang as he was lying on the grass field in the hospital, staring at the clear sky. Thinking about Hyukjae and how he wished he didn’t have to leave them both hanging like the way things are right now.
“Another 6 more months, wait for me.”
‘Cause I just can’t take it
Another day without you with me
It’s like a blade that cuts right through me
I can wait, I can wait forever (I can wait forever)
Basically Donghae was having a battle with himself. He wanted to give up, to forgo the treatment and just go back to Korea when it was almost heading in the 8th month. He was amazed that he survived 8 months without going crazy at the thought of Hyukjae daily.
There he was, crying again. Wondering what past sins has he done to deserve such a tormenting present.
“Hyung, you gotta be strong! Two more months and you’ll be outta here, I promise you so please. Stop doing this to yourself and just complete the treatment. And I will book you the first flight back to Korea to meet that special person that has been haunting your mind, okay?” Henry said with a smile.
Donghae look at his younger brother, motivating him and he was thankful that Henry was there to go through everything with him.
And when you call
My heart stops beating
When you’re gone, it won’t stop bleeding
I can wait, I can wait forever (I can wait forever)
So with a new determination to be fully healed, he went through the treatment with determination. He wanted to be perfectly healthy. That way, he will never leave Hyukjae again. At least, he hope.
There were still thoughts of Hyukjae meeting another person. He just wished he wouldn’t face rejection when he gets back.
I know it feels like forever
I guess that’s just the price I gotta pay
When I come back home to feel your touch makes it better
Until that day, there’s nothing else that I can do.
He felt guilty, for leaving Hyukjae that night.
He regretted, not leaving any way to contact the latter. But back then, he thought he would die even after the treatment. But now that his condition has been improving, he could only pray that there were still chances for the both of them.
And I just can’t take it (I just can’t take it)
Another day without you with me
It’s like a blade that cuts right through me
I can wait (I can wait), I can wait forever (I can wait forever)
And when you’re gone
My heart stops beating
When you call, it won’t stop bleeding (I can wait)
I can wait (I can wait),
I can wait (I can wait),
I can wait forever (I can wait forever)
Forever is now over. One year has passed. Donghae was on his flight back to Korea with Henry. He couldn’t wait to meet the red-head again. But what if he would meet the unexpected and have his heart broken?
“I’m back. Wait for me Hyukjae. This time, I will hold onto your hands.”
His paranoia was killing him but he decided to take a nap.
AND THAT IS DONGHAE’S POV ^^
For happy ending cracks please continue reading.
*
“Donghae…no, don’t take him! NOOOO~~”
Hyukjae’s eyes snapped open.
“It was just a dream.” Hyukjae sighed as he was relief.
He has been having weird dreams lately. The earlier dream was about how Donghae was accused to be a “special” fish species and that is why he was abducted by alien, to be experimented.
“Great now my denials are trying to kill my brain cells.” Hyukjae said to no one in particular. He sat up on his bed, and started to recall all the weird dreams he was having lately.
One involved the theory of Donghae being a cupid that was sent down to Earth, being Hyukjae’s personal cupid for a day and then he disappears because they suddenly formed a forbidden relation.
Another relates to Donghae being the King of clown fish and that he was a human in disguise and many other weird dreams.
“I need to stop thinking. It’s been a year, with no sight of him or any way to contact. He is never coming back, Hyukjae. Forget him already!” Hyukjae fought with his inner thoughts. And then he began washing and to start a brand new day.
Entering Starbucks, the scent of coffee beans being brewed refreshes his mind. A cup of strawberry latte will cheer him up.
Anything with strawberry is relevant. He was about to place his order when his phone rang.
`It’s Friday Friday, gotta get down on Friday! Everybody is looking forward to the weekend.`
“Oh my god, I swear I’m going to kill Heechul hyung for changing my ringtone, again!” Hyuk mentally screamed while fiddling around his pocket for his phone.
`fun fun fun fun looking forward to the week-`
“WHAT DO YOU WANT!” answered Hyukjae in a raging tone when he saw the caller id and saw the name of his biggest enemy at the very moment. Everybody looked at him and he apologize to the people at the back of the line and silently whispered his order, ignoring the other person on the line.
“Yahh Lee Hyukjae, how dare you ignore me? I’m talking to you!” Heechul screamed at the other end of the line.
“Really hyung, I’m going to kill you when I see you. I mean every word I said.” Hyukjae answered and proceeded to the other counter to retrieve his drink.
“So I see you enjoy your new ringtone.” Hyukjae swear he could see Heechul’s smirk even when he’s on the other side of the line.
“Come on hyung, even Baby by Justin Beaver would have sounded better than some annoying-robot-sounded-13yo-chick repeating the words `Friday`! What do you want anyway?” Hyukjae asked when his drink was ready and he thanked the barista as he took a sip of the strawberry latte to calm himself down.
“It’s Friday. Partying partying~ partying partying~ we we we so excited~” heechul sang.
“Shut up before I hang up on you. I mean it.” Hyukjae threaten.
“Party pooper, pfft. It’s Friday, the usual drill. And Zhou Mi is tagging along. So you are no exception. See you later.” with that Heechul ended the phone call.
“Right, another boring day at the club with more mouth rapping scenes, molesting sessions and god knows who will be doing the pole dance. Though it would be fun watching Shiwon and Kyuhyun make out just to annoy their partners. It’s such an amusement seeing jealous Jongwoon and Zhou Mi.” Hyukjae thought as he proceeded to the dance studio. It’s going to be a long day again.
*
Reaching the club, the place he’s been dreading to go the past 6 months, Hyukjae spotted his friends and headed their direction.
“So what’s the special occasion that our second diva is here today?” Hyukjae asked the moment he sat down.
“Oh nothing, I was just going to meet up with a friend of mine and decided to tag along. That’s all.” Zhou Mi replied, eyes searching the crowd for his friend.
“So Hyukjae, you want to try hooking up with my friend? He’s like the cutest thing ever earth, you’re gonna love him! He dances too.” Zhou Mi asked with hopeful eyes. The gang is still trying to pair Hyukjae up even though the red-head refuses their good will.
“Nahh forget it mimi, Hyukjae hyung will never listen to any of us. Heechul’s failure was the best example to have us give up.” Kyuhyun retorted, while shipping his drink.
“It’s Heechul-HYUNG for you maknae.” Heechul snapped feeling disrespected.
Hyukjae wasn’t paying attention at the commotion amongst his friends but rather he was staring at a blonde.
“Do-Donghae?” he wondered but his hopes were crushed when the copper blond-head turn over and it turns out to be a really cute boy with puffy cheeks.
“Henry! Over here!” Zhou Mi shouted while waving at the blonde, aka Henry.
“Mimi hyung! It’s been a year hasn’t it?” Henry rushed over and gave a friendly hug to Zhou Mi.
“Guys, this is Henry. Henry this is Leeteuk Heechul Hangeng Kangin Sungmin, Jongwoon, Shiwon, and Hyukjae. Of course you know Kyuhyun.” Zhou Mi introduced each of them.
“Hello everyone, nice to meet you~ I’m Henry.” Henry introduced himself but his eyes were fixed on Hyukjae.
“Erm….not to be rude, but is there something on my face that you’re looking at me with that derp face of yours?” Hyukjae asked, curious as to why the mochi-cheek boy is staring at him as if he was something amusing.
“Oh nothing! You guys wouldn’t mind if my brother joins us later on right?” Henry asked.
“Anyone is welcomed to join us.” Leeteuk answered.
“Red hair, fair skinned. So Hyukjae hyung is Hae hyung’s special guy? Good job hyung, of all day to be late you chose today. Well, you’ll be surprised today, that’s for sure.” Henry thought as he joined the guys, occasionally stealing glances at the red-head to read his expressions.
*
The moment Donghae reached Korea, the first thing he did was to call Yunho and interrogate his best friend.
“So yunho, tell me everything I need to know.” Donghae demanded over the phone.
“Tsk, not even a `Hi, I miss you` but straight to the point of your precious boy? I’m hurt.” Yunho faked hurt over the phone.
“You know I miss you. But I’m going to die if you don’t tell me a way to meet Hyukjae by today. So please hyung, help?” Donghae pleaded.
“You know you made me a stalker for a year and this is how you repay me? By threatening me for information the moment you’re back?!” Yunho cried out.
“hyung allabyu~ so please!” Donghae tried using his pouting voice. It always succeeds.
“I hate you. Okay so your boy hasn’t been in good condition for the past year. He was devastated, never smile nor gone out with any other guy/girl. He has a poker face, so it’s kinda hard to read him as an individual. And from my awesome stalking skills, I’d say you have a good chance of winning him back. Just do it right Donghae, a person doesn’t need to be hurt twice. Good luck Hae-ah.” Yunho spilt all his knowledge and advice.
“Thank you hyung I love so much!” Donghae said in glee.
“Good luck.” Yunho wished as he hanged up.
“Wait for me, Hyukjae. We’ll meet again very soon.”
*
Donghae rushed to the club in order to meet up with Henry. He went to the club separately as Henry mentioned he wanted to meet up with his friend. He didn’t want to go to the club tonight instead he wanted to surprise Hyukjae at his house. He remembers clearly the way to Hyukjae’s house. But Henry insisted that he was new in Korea and he needed companion and being the nice hyung he decided to accompany his little brother.
Stepping in to the club, a sense of nostalgia hit him as this was the club where he first met Hyukjae.
“I wonder if he’ll be here tonight.” Donghae wondered as he scanned for his copper blond-hair brother.
The moment he spotted Henry, he rushed over. And then he realized, Henry was sitting with the weird clique that Hyukjae used to sit with, a year ago. He remembers the two guys who were raping each other’s mouth and the shemale or should he conclude that he’s a male. He looked through more in hope to spot a red-head but to his bad luck, there was no red-head.
“Hyung over here!” Henry shouted to gain Donghae’s attention.
Donghae snapped out of his disappointment and slowly headed over their table.
Heechul was at shock the moment Donghae made his appearance. He looked at Hangeng and Hangeng gave him a not-a-clue look.
“The others don’t seem to realize Donghae was the one who broke our precious jewel. Alright, let’s see what you are going to do Lee Donghae, you little fish.” Heechul thought as he worries for when Hyukjae will come back to from his toilet break. He puts on a poker face, to avoid suspicions.
*
Hyukjae was on his way back to the table when he bumped onto a tall gentleman.
“I’m so sorry!”
“I’m sorry!”
Both males apologize at the same time and when Hyukjae looked up, he was surprised to see the person in front of him.
“Jungmo? Kim Jungmo from class 3-b back in high school?” Hyukjae asked as the other male stared at him, portraying an amused face.
“Ahhh, Lee Hyukjae! I remember you. We were sitting next to each other back in high school. Look at you, all different now. You even dyed your hair red! Brave move.” Jungmo complimented.
“Thank you. You’re not so bad yourself too.” Hyukjae blushed.
“So how is life?” Jungmo inquired.
“Life has its ups and downs. And yours?” Hyukjae questioned back.
“I got recruited into a band and has been busy ever since!” Jungmo answered.
The two old classmates was having a great time catching up with each other’s lives. Being oblivious to their surrounding, Hyukjae did not realize a pair of sad eyes that has been observing him.
*
Donghae was slowly getting to know the clique better, occasionally joining the random chat while searching around the club, looking for a certain person. He didn’t have to guts to ask where was Hyukjae, because as far as he is concern, he believed that non of them noticed him approaching Hyukjae back a year ago. It would be another load of interrogation if he suddenly questions for Hyukjae’s location.
“Looks like he really didn’t come today…I should just go up to his house and apologize then.” Donghae thought when he caught sight of a tall guy and a certain red-head, chatting happily at the bar.
His felt a stab on his heart.
“So he was seeing someone after all. Of course, it’s been a year. He’s free to meet anyone he wants.” Donghae thought as his eyes were getting watery at the sight of the happy chats.
Henry noticed that his brother was staring and he couldn’t help but to look at the subject of his brother’s staring. He then saw it. Hyukjae was chatting happily with another guy.
“Erm guys, please excuse me but I gotta go.” Donghae tried to excuse himself. He needed air, space and some time to himself to mourn. He stood up and started leaving the club. Henry tried to stop him, but knowing his brother he decided against it. His brother needs time to heal.
*
Hyukjae was enjoying his time catching up with Jungmo when his eyes spotted a familiar back. His intuition tells him that it was him.
“Hey Jungmo, I’ll catch up with you someday alright? I gotta go.” Hyuk apologize and left, chasing after the familiar back.
He ran and ran and ran while calling out `Donghae!` ; trying to reach out to the one he knew was Donghae.
Once he exited the club, the person was gone. His vision becomes blurry as he starts scanning for Donghae; or so he thinks that it was Donghae.
“But it has been a year. There were no sign of him. It can’t be him.” Hyukjae tried to reason to himself. He kneel down and cried. Wondering how he’s being delusional and how fate has been so cruel to him. He gasped when he suddenly felt a pair of hands encircling his waist.
“Don’t cry. It breaks my heart.” a voice whispered near his ears.
“That voice and scent.”
“Ddd-donghae?” Hyukjae asked silently, while being embraced by Donghae.
“Yes Hyukjae?” Donghae answered, breathing into Hyukjae’s neck.
“Still smells like strawberry.”
Hyukjae cried out even louder. They stayed like this, with Hyukjae sobbing while Donghae whispered comfort words to calm Hyukjae down. They decided to talk. They headed to a park nearby Hyukjae’s house.
“Why, why did you leave without leaving anything behind?” It was a statement, not a question. Hyukjae was furious and confused. He was left hanging for a year.
“You gave me wild dreams such as aliens abducting you or you being a fish in disguise, I don’t know. Explain Donghae please.” Hyukjae pleaded for an explanation.
So Donghae explained. About his disease, his tormenting period of treatment, how he’s been living the past year. After the explanation, Donghae can only stare at his feet and waits for Hyukjae’s reaction.
Hyukjae takes in deep breath and exhaled.
“Why didn’t you just tell me the truth instead of walking out like that, leaving me alone questioning and wondering for an entir-“ Hyukjae gasped and closed his mouth as he realized he just confessed. He blushed and look away to avoid Donghae’s stare.
“So you were thinking about me all these time, weren’t you?” Donghae teased, totally forgetting all his jealousy back in the club and decided to abuse the little unconsciously confession made by Hyukjae.
“I was not!” Hyukjae protested, still blushing.
“Of course you weren’t” Donghae said as he pulled Hyukjae once again into his embrace.
“Now, am I forgiven for leaving without notice if I do this?” Donghae asked, looking into Hyukjae’s eyes.
“D-do what?”
“This.” was all Hyukjae hear before a pair of lips claimed his. Donghae started out slow, nibbling and teasing at the same time. When Hyukjae granted permission, they waste no time and started adoring, cherishing, exploring and tasting each other’s sweet cavern.
Breaking off their passionate due to lack of air, they hugged and enjoy each other’s presence.
“Donghae, you are forgiven.” Hyukjae said, with a smile that reveals nothing more than gums and his wrinkly eyes.
And that day marks the day where Hyukjae’s life is filled with constant alien spams and many fish or monkey plushies filling up his room.
AND THEY LIVED HAPPILY EVER AFTER, THE END.
A/N : First of all, it was hard to write this as I can’t read Donghae as good as I can read Hyukjae. Second, it was tough to find a song that would fit Donghae’s pov. Third, I apologize for the lame and not-worthy of reading crack.
A/N 2: If you do not enjoy crack pairing, I am sorry. Also, the major crack in this.
A/N 3 : Sorry for the lame ending. I can’t think anymore. Brain is fried. Mian.
A/N 4 : Lastly, it's a happy ending after all :)
Pairing : Donghae/Hyukjae
Side : Hanchul, Yewon, Kangteuk, Minwook, QMI
Genre : Song Fic, Angst, Romance, Crack
Author : eunhaelover
word count : 4028
Beta : UN-BETA
Summary : Donghae will wait forever.
Warning : major crack pairings and just more cracks. okay slight junghyuk too.
Click to viewPlay this for Donghae's POV ♥
You look so beautiful today
when you’re sitting there; it’s hard for me to look away
so I try to find the words that I could say
Tonight marks the last night for Donghae to be in Korea. Having to suffer a chronic disease for 5 years, he was finally going to receive his treatment in the States. Thus, what better way to spend his last night other than going to the club?
Tagging along with him was his best friends, Yunho & Minho along with their mates; Jaejoong and Nickhun. The group arrived at the club with booming music welcoming them. Yunho and Jaejoong headed right away to the dance floor in order to burn their “desire” away; more like trying to not rape each other on the couch. Minho and Nickhun decided to head over the bar for a drink.
Donghae decided to take a seat on the table and just observe his surroundings, waiting for something amusing to occur. Sipping his drink, noticing the eyes that are admiring his features he flashed a smile and he swore he heard somebody fainting. He chuckles. It has been a regular thing that occurs to him. The only thing was that, he never got attached to anyone; because he was going to die.
But knowing that he’ll be getting his treatment the following day, he decided that he should loosen up and try meeting other people.
And then he spotted him. Across his table was a male that had fiery red hair, plump lips, fair skinned and a pair of adorable eyes; staring right at him. Donghae smiled, and the male blushed. Oh how that brought fluttery feelings to Donghae’s stomach.
“He’s the one then.” Donghae decided to approach the red-head.
I know distance doesn’t matter but you feel so far away
And I can’t lie, everytime I leave my heart turns gray
And I wanna come back home to see your face and I
After their drink session and ice-cream date, Donghae was having a hard time. He didn’t want the night to end. Despite the fact that it was their first night encountering, he felt sparks and chemistry between himself and Hyukjae. It has been a while since he ever felt something like that this. Ever since he was discovered with a chronic disease, he gave up upon life. He did not have a reason to live for the past 5 years until the day his parents told him that he was going to get treatment.
“But God must hate on me.” Donghae as he sighs during their silent walk back to Hyukjae’s house.
“Well, we’re here.” Hyukjae said with an awkward tone when they’ve reached the front door of his house. Donghae stared at Hyukjae’s house for a moment, trying to think of what to say.
“You have a nice house.” complimented Donghae, while scratching the back of his neck trying to prolong the conversation. He was out of words to say. He didn’t wanted to go.
“Thank you. Erm…..good night?” wished Hyukjae, with a reluctant tone.
“Good night Hyukjae.” Donghae replied, trying to hide his sadness with a smile.
When Hyukjae turn to unlock his door, Donghae did not think and just acted on reflects. He hugged him. Their hug was silent as Donghae savored Hyukjae’s warmth and special scent. He needed to remember it. Until he come back. And then Donghae initiated the kiss. His first kiss.
The red-head blushed and it made it so much harder for Donghae to let go. But he needed to and it was going to be a painful goodbye.
“Aren’t you going to say goodbye?” Donghae asked, hands still around Hyukjae’s waist, feeling very reluctant to let go. He needed to hear Hyukjae’s goodbye. Even though Hyukjae would not know that he’s leaving. He did not want to give Hyukjae any way of contacts, because he’s afraid. Afraid that his treatment would fail and he’ll die.
Hyukjae wished him goodbye and they parted. Donghae watched as Hyukjae entered his house, and he continues watching until he spotted light from the above. He figured that was Hyukjae’s room.
So Donghae sat on a bench near Hyukjae’s house, just watching and observing Hyukjae’s room. He memorizes the house’s structure and its surrounding. Someday, he’ll be back and then he’ll stay.
“I wonder why he isn’t asleep.” Donghae thought, as it was getting late yet the lights is still on in Hyukjae’s room. But he continued to watch, until the light was switched off. It was almost sunrise when Donghae decided to leave, or he’ll be late for his flight.
“I’ll remember you Hyukjae. Wait for me.” Donghae wished as he boarded his flight.
‘Cause I just can’t take it
Another day without you with me
It’s like a blade that cuts right through me
I can wait, I can wait forever
During the days of his treatment, it was tormenting. Hyukjae was all he could think about. And he knew he’s heads over heels for the red-head. Along with the excruciating pain from the treatment he’s receiving, he wanted to give up.
And the days without Hyukjae was even more tormenting compared to the days when he was suffocating due to his disease. His constant missing of Hyukjae brought tears to his face every single day. There’s not a day he didn’t cry.
And when you call
My heart stops beating
When you’re gone, it won’t stop bleeding
I can wait, I can wait forever.
He felt like his heart was stabbed when he was held back in the states due to his treatment. It was going to another year of treatment before he is fully recovered.
A day without Hyukjae was driving him crazy, what more another year.
You look so beautiful today
It’s like everytime I turn around, I see your face
The thing I’ll miss the most is, waking up next to you
When I look into your eyes, man I wish that I could stay
And I can’t lie, everytime I leave my heart turns gray
And I wanna come back home to see your face and I
`You are my very first thought in the morning.`
`And my last at nightfall. You are the love that came without warning.`
`I need you, I want you to know.`
Donghae sang as he was lying on the grass field in the hospital, staring at the clear sky. Thinking about Hyukjae and how he wished he didn’t have to leave them both hanging like the way things are right now.
“Another 6 more months, wait for me.”
‘Cause I just can’t take it
Another day without you with me
It’s like a blade that cuts right through me
I can wait, I can wait forever (I can wait forever)
Basically Donghae was having a battle with himself. He wanted to give up, to forgo the treatment and just go back to Korea when it was almost heading in the 8th month. He was amazed that he survived 8 months without going crazy at the thought of Hyukjae daily.
There he was, crying again. Wondering what past sins has he done to deserve such a tormenting present.
“Hyung, you gotta be strong! Two more months and you’ll be outta here, I promise you so please. Stop doing this to yourself and just complete the treatment. And I will book you the first flight back to Korea to meet that special person that has been haunting your mind, okay?” Henry said with a smile.
Donghae look at his younger brother, motivating him and he was thankful that Henry was there to go through everything with him.
And when you call
My heart stops beating
When you’re gone, it won’t stop bleeding
I can wait, I can wait forever (I can wait forever)
So with a new determination to be fully healed, he went through the treatment with determination. He wanted to be perfectly healthy. That way, he will never leave Hyukjae again. At least, he hope.
There were still thoughts of Hyukjae meeting another person. He just wished he wouldn’t face rejection when he gets back.
I know it feels like forever
I guess that’s just the price I gotta pay
When I come back home to feel your touch makes it better
Until that day, there’s nothing else that I can do.
He felt guilty, for leaving Hyukjae that night.
He regretted, not leaving any way to contact the latter. But back then, he thought he would die even after the treatment. But now that his condition has been improving, he could only pray that there were still chances for the both of them.
And I just can’t take it (I just can’t take it)
Another day without you with me
It’s like a blade that cuts right through me
I can wait (I can wait), I can wait forever (I can wait forever)
And when you’re gone
My heart stops beating
When you call, it won’t stop bleeding (I can wait)
I can wait (I can wait),
I can wait (I can wait),
I can wait forever (I can wait forever)
Forever is now over. One year has passed. Donghae was on his flight back to Korea with Henry. He couldn’t wait to meet the red-head again. But what if he would meet the unexpected and have his heart broken?
“I’m back. Wait for me Hyukjae. This time, I will hold onto your hands.”
His paranoia was killing him but he decided to take a nap.
AND THAT IS DONGHAE’S POV ^^
For happy ending cracks please continue reading.
*
“Donghae…no, don’t take him! NOOOO~~”
Hyukjae’s eyes snapped open.
“It was just a dream.” Hyukjae sighed as he was relief.
He has been having weird dreams lately. The earlier dream was about how Donghae was accused to be a “special” fish species and that is why he was abducted by alien, to be experimented.
“Great now my denials are trying to kill my brain cells.” Hyukjae said to no one in particular. He sat up on his bed, and started to recall all the weird dreams he was having lately.
One involved the theory of Donghae being a cupid that was sent down to Earth, being Hyukjae’s personal cupid for a day and then he disappears because they suddenly formed a forbidden relation.
Another relates to Donghae being the King of clown fish and that he was a human in disguise and many other weird dreams.
“I need to stop thinking. It’s been a year, with no sight of him or any way to contact. He is never coming back, Hyukjae. Forget him already!” Hyukjae fought with his inner thoughts. And then he began washing and to start a brand new day.
Entering Starbucks, the scent of coffee beans being brewed refreshes his mind. A cup of strawberry latte will cheer him up.
Anything with strawberry is relevant. He was about to place his order when his phone rang.
`It’s Friday Friday, gotta get down on Friday! Everybody is looking forward to the weekend.`
“Oh my god, I swear I’m going to kill Heechul hyung for changing my ringtone, again!” Hyuk mentally screamed while fiddling around his pocket for his phone.
`fun fun fun fun looking forward to the week-`
“WHAT DO YOU WANT!” answered Hyukjae in a raging tone when he saw the caller id and saw the name of his biggest enemy at the very moment. Everybody looked at him and he apologize to the people at the back of the line and silently whispered his order, ignoring the other person on the line.
“Yahh Lee Hyukjae, how dare you ignore me? I’m talking to you!” Heechul screamed at the other end of the line.
“Really hyung, I’m going to kill you when I see you. I mean every word I said.” Hyukjae answered and proceeded to the other counter to retrieve his drink.
“So I see you enjoy your new ringtone.” Hyukjae swear he could see Heechul’s smirk even when he’s on the other side of the line.
“Come on hyung, even Baby by Justin Beaver would have sounded better than some annoying-robot-sounded-13yo-chick repeating the words `Friday`! What do you want anyway?” Hyukjae asked when his drink was ready and he thanked the barista as he took a sip of the strawberry latte to calm himself down.
“It’s Friday. Partying partying~ partying partying~ we we we so excited~” heechul sang.
“Shut up before I hang up on you. I mean it.” Hyukjae threaten.
“Party pooper, pfft. It’s Friday, the usual drill. And Zhou Mi is tagging along. So you are no exception. See you later.” with that Heechul ended the phone call.
“Right, another boring day at the club with more mouth rapping scenes, molesting sessions and god knows who will be doing the pole dance. Though it would be fun watching Shiwon and Kyuhyun make out just to annoy their partners. It’s such an amusement seeing jealous Jongwoon and Zhou Mi.” Hyukjae thought as he proceeded to the dance studio. It’s going to be a long day again.
*
Reaching the club, the place he’s been dreading to go the past 6 months, Hyukjae spotted his friends and headed their direction.
“So what’s the special occasion that our second diva is here today?” Hyukjae asked the moment he sat down.
“Oh nothing, I was just going to meet up with a friend of mine and decided to tag along. That’s all.” Zhou Mi replied, eyes searching the crowd for his friend.
“So Hyukjae, you want to try hooking up with my friend? He’s like the cutest thing ever earth, you’re gonna love him! He dances too.” Zhou Mi asked with hopeful eyes. The gang is still trying to pair Hyukjae up even though the red-head refuses their good will.
“Nahh forget it mimi, Hyukjae hyung will never listen to any of us. Heechul’s failure was the best example to have us give up.” Kyuhyun retorted, while shipping his drink.
“It’s Heechul-HYUNG for you maknae.” Heechul snapped feeling disrespected.
Hyukjae wasn’t paying attention at the commotion amongst his friends but rather he was staring at a blonde.
“Do-Donghae?” he wondered but his hopes were crushed when the copper blond-head turn over and it turns out to be a really cute boy with puffy cheeks.
“Henry! Over here!” Zhou Mi shouted while waving at the blonde, aka Henry.
“Mimi hyung! It’s been a year hasn’t it?” Henry rushed over and gave a friendly hug to Zhou Mi.
“Guys, this is Henry. Henry this is Leeteuk Heechul Hangeng Kangin Sungmin, Jongwoon, Shiwon, and Hyukjae. Of course you know Kyuhyun.” Zhou Mi introduced each of them.
“Hello everyone, nice to meet you~ I’m Henry.” Henry introduced himself but his eyes were fixed on Hyukjae.
“Erm….not to be rude, but is there something on my face that you’re looking at me with that derp face of yours?” Hyukjae asked, curious as to why the mochi-cheek boy is staring at him as if he was something amusing.
“Oh nothing! You guys wouldn’t mind if my brother joins us later on right?” Henry asked.
“Anyone is welcomed to join us.” Leeteuk answered.
“Red hair, fair skinned. So Hyukjae hyung is Hae hyung’s special guy? Good job hyung, of all day to be late you chose today. Well, you’ll be surprised today, that’s for sure.” Henry thought as he joined the guys, occasionally stealing glances at the red-head to read his expressions.
*
The moment Donghae reached Korea, the first thing he did was to call Yunho and interrogate his best friend.
“So yunho, tell me everything I need to know.” Donghae demanded over the phone.
“Tsk, not even a `Hi, I miss you` but straight to the point of your precious boy? I’m hurt.” Yunho faked hurt over the phone.
“You know I miss you. But I’m going to die if you don’t tell me a way to meet Hyukjae by today. So please hyung, help?” Donghae pleaded.
“You know you made me a stalker for a year and this is how you repay me? By threatening me for information the moment you’re back?!” Yunho cried out.
“hyung allabyu~ so please!” Donghae tried using his pouting voice. It always succeeds.
“I hate you. Okay so your boy hasn’t been in good condition for the past year. He was devastated, never smile nor gone out with any other guy/girl. He has a poker face, so it’s kinda hard to read him as an individual. And from my awesome stalking skills, I’d say you have a good chance of winning him back. Just do it right Donghae, a person doesn’t need to be hurt twice. Good luck Hae-ah.” Yunho spilt all his knowledge and advice.
“Thank you hyung I love so much!” Donghae said in glee.
“Good luck.” Yunho wished as he hanged up.
“Wait for me, Hyukjae. We’ll meet again very soon.”
*
Donghae rushed to the club in order to meet up with Henry. He went to the club separately as Henry mentioned he wanted to meet up with his friend. He didn’t want to go to the club tonight instead he wanted to surprise Hyukjae at his house. He remembers clearly the way to Hyukjae’s house. But Henry insisted that he was new in Korea and he needed companion and being the nice hyung he decided to accompany his little brother.
Stepping in to the club, a sense of nostalgia hit him as this was the club where he first met Hyukjae.
“I wonder if he’ll be here tonight.” Donghae wondered as he scanned for his copper blond-hair brother.
The moment he spotted Henry, he rushed over. And then he realized, Henry was sitting with the weird clique that Hyukjae used to sit with, a year ago. He remembers the two guys who were raping each other’s mouth and the shemale or should he conclude that he’s a male. He looked through more in hope to spot a red-head but to his bad luck, there was no red-head.
“Hyung over here!” Henry shouted to gain Donghae’s attention.
Donghae snapped out of his disappointment and slowly headed over their table.
Heechul was at shock the moment Donghae made his appearance. He looked at Hangeng and Hangeng gave him a not-a-clue look.
“The others don’t seem to realize Donghae was the one who broke our precious jewel. Alright, let’s see what you are going to do Lee Donghae, you little fish.” Heechul thought as he worries for when Hyukjae will come back to from his toilet break. He puts on a poker face, to avoid suspicions.
*
Hyukjae was on his way back to the table when he bumped onto a tall gentleman.
“I’m so sorry!”
“I’m sorry!”
Both males apologize at the same time and when Hyukjae looked up, he was surprised to see the person in front of him.
“Jungmo? Kim Jungmo from class 3-b back in high school?” Hyukjae asked as the other male stared at him, portraying an amused face.
“Ahhh, Lee Hyukjae! I remember you. We were sitting next to each other back in high school. Look at you, all different now. You even dyed your hair red! Brave move.” Jungmo complimented.
“Thank you. You’re not so bad yourself too.” Hyukjae blushed.
“So how is life?” Jungmo inquired.
“Life has its ups and downs. And yours?” Hyukjae questioned back.
“I got recruited into a band and has been busy ever since!” Jungmo answered.
The two old classmates was having a great time catching up with each other’s lives. Being oblivious to their surrounding, Hyukjae did not realize a pair of sad eyes that has been observing him.
*
Donghae was slowly getting to know the clique better, occasionally joining the random chat while searching around the club, looking for a certain person. He didn’t have to guts to ask where was Hyukjae, because as far as he is concern, he believed that non of them noticed him approaching Hyukjae back a year ago. It would be another load of interrogation if he suddenly questions for Hyukjae’s location.
“Looks like he really didn’t come today…I should just go up to his house and apologize then.” Donghae thought when he caught sight of a tall guy and a certain red-head, chatting happily at the bar.
His felt a stab on his heart.
“So he was seeing someone after all. Of course, it’s been a year. He’s free to meet anyone he wants.” Donghae thought as his eyes were getting watery at the sight of the happy chats.
Henry noticed that his brother was staring and he couldn’t help but to look at the subject of his brother’s staring. He then saw it. Hyukjae was chatting happily with another guy.
“Erm guys, please excuse me but I gotta go.” Donghae tried to excuse himself. He needed air, space and some time to himself to mourn. He stood up and started leaving the club. Henry tried to stop him, but knowing his brother he decided against it. His brother needs time to heal.
*
Hyukjae was enjoying his time catching up with Jungmo when his eyes spotted a familiar back. His intuition tells him that it was him.
“Hey Jungmo, I’ll catch up with you someday alright? I gotta go.” Hyuk apologize and left, chasing after the familiar back.
He ran and ran and ran while calling out `Donghae!` ; trying to reach out to the one he knew was Donghae.
Once he exited the club, the person was gone. His vision becomes blurry as he starts scanning for Donghae; or so he thinks that it was Donghae.
“But it has been a year. There were no sign of him. It can’t be him.” Hyukjae tried to reason to himself. He kneel down and cried. Wondering how he’s being delusional and how fate has been so cruel to him. He gasped when he suddenly felt a pair of hands encircling his waist.
“Don’t cry. It breaks my heart.” a voice whispered near his ears.
“That voice and scent.”
“Ddd-donghae?” Hyukjae asked silently, while being embraced by Donghae.
“Yes Hyukjae?” Donghae answered, breathing into Hyukjae’s neck.
“Still smells like strawberry.”
Hyukjae cried out even louder. They stayed like this, with Hyukjae sobbing while Donghae whispered comfort words to calm Hyukjae down. They decided to talk. They headed to a park nearby Hyukjae’s house.
“Why, why did you leave without leaving anything behind?” It was a statement, not a question. Hyukjae was furious and confused. He was left hanging for a year.
“You gave me wild dreams such as aliens abducting you or you being a fish in disguise, I don’t know. Explain Donghae please.” Hyukjae pleaded for an explanation.
So Donghae explained. About his disease, his tormenting period of treatment, how he’s been living the past year. After the explanation, Donghae can only stare at his feet and waits for Hyukjae’s reaction.
Hyukjae takes in deep breath and exhaled.
“Why didn’t you just tell me the truth instead of walking out like that, leaving me alone questioning and wondering for an entir-“ Hyukjae gasped and closed his mouth as he realized he just confessed. He blushed and look away to avoid Donghae’s stare.
“So you were thinking about me all these time, weren’t you?” Donghae teased, totally forgetting all his jealousy back in the club and decided to abuse the little unconsciously confession made by Hyukjae.
“I was not!” Hyukjae protested, still blushing.
“Of course you weren’t” Donghae said as he pulled Hyukjae once again into his embrace.
“Now, am I forgiven for leaving without notice if I do this?” Donghae asked, looking into Hyukjae’s eyes.
“D-do what?”
“This.” was all Hyukjae hear before a pair of lips claimed his. Donghae started out slow, nibbling and teasing at the same time. When Hyukjae granted permission, they waste no time and started adoring, cherishing, exploring and tasting each other’s sweet cavern.
Breaking off their passionate due to lack of air, they hugged and enjoy each other’s presence.
“Donghae, you are forgiven.” Hyukjae said, with a smile that reveals nothing more than gums and his wrinkly eyes.
And that day marks the day where Hyukjae’s life is filled with constant alien spams and many fish or monkey plushies filling up his room.
AND THEY LIVED HAPPILY EVER AFTER, THE END.
A/N : First of all, it was hard to write this as I can’t read Donghae as good as I can read Hyukjae. Second, it was tough to find a song that would fit Donghae’s pov. Third, I apologize for the lame and not-worthy of reading crack.
A/N 2: If you do not enjoy crack pairing, I am sorry. Also, the major crack in this.
A/N 3 : Sorry for the lame ending. I can’t think anymore. Brain is fried. Mian.
A/N 4 : Lastly, it's a happy ending after all :)