Love me like I Love you 17
Title: Love me like I Love you 17
Pairing: Taecyeon/Wooyoung, Junsu/Junho
Rating: M
TaecWoo: Because of dance everything leads to disguising himself as a girl and loosing all his first. Life goes from normal to strange as Wooyoung gains a lover.
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That night Soyoung came back home with a wide smile on her face.
Taecyeon was still over and as soon as she opened the door and greeted us, I got up and walked into my room.
I could never look her in the face after what Taecyeon and I did.
I couldn't even look Taecyeon in the face since what happened in the morning.
I heard the two talking about where she went and how much fun she had and somehow it made me feel sad.
She sounded really happy as if being at home made her feel bad.
I didn't want to stress her out.
"I'm sorry.." I whispered to myself as I threw my pillow on my head.
"For what?"
I stiffened at the sound of her voice.
My bed sank and I felt a hand in my hair.
"N...nothing.." I quickly said.
Soyoung laughed.
"So did you have fun?" she asked.
"What? Fun? What fun? No..." I said panicked.
She laughed again.
"What are you taking about? Of course you had fun. A whole night and half a day without your sister and no school. It's okay, you can tell me." she said.
"N...no..." I whispered.
Soyoung sighed and her hand went back into my hair.
"Woo? Is there something wrong?" she asked.
"No." I lied.
A long silence passed.
"I had fun." I finally said.
"You don't sound like you did." she said.
"Because I'm embarrassed." I almost yelled.
"Okay...okay....aw my little brother. I understand." she said chuckling again. "Well I'm home now." she said.
The bed moved and I felt something warm in my hair.
"A kiss for my little brother." she said.
"Eww..." I groaned out.
She laughed.
"Well I'll leave. I know Taecyeon oppa wants to come in here before he leaves." she said.
"He's leaving?" I suddenly asked.
"Oh? You sad?" Soyoung asked.
"No!" I almost yelled again.
She chuckled and patted me on the head.
"Yeah. His manager is outside." she said.
I sighed and nodded as the bed moved.
I waited until the door closed before getting up and sighing.
A few minutes later and the door opened again and closed.
A short silence passed before I was quickly pulled into a hug.
"Ouch." I groaned.
"Sorry." Taecyeon said.
"Hey."
"Hi.." I replied embarrassed.
"It still hurts?" he asked.
"I don't know." I replied.
"I'm sorry." Taecyeon finally said.
His hug became tighter.
I contained my hiss at the feeling of my butt to the fabric of my cloths.
A long silence passed.
"Whatever it's nothing to apologize about." I said.
Taecyeon sighed and let me go from the hug.
I lowered my head, still embarrassed to look him in the face.
"So I have to go." he finally said.
I nodded.
"She told me." I said.
A long silence passed again.
"Hey...I love-"
"Stop." I quickly interrupted him.
The silence emerged again.
He didn't say anything more and I kept my sight away from him.
If he said those three words a war would start in my heart.
'Not yet.' I thought.
"But you've said it." he said.
My head lifted quick as I felt my face become warm.
'When I was out of my mind. I don't even remember saying it.' I thought as I looked away from him.
Finally he sighed.
"I'm going to go now." he said.
"W...wait..." I quickly said as I lifted my head.
Taecyeon stopped.
"Umm...." I fidgeted. "About what...happened...." I said nervously.
Taecyeon turned around and I looked away.
"To Soyoung...." I said "....please don't-"
I didn't finish at all.
Before I could get the letter out of my mouth, another mouth was on mine.
"Mngghpmm....stop....stop...." I tried to whisper as Taecyeon crushed his body on mine.
I felt my body fall to the bed and I clenched his arm tight and pushed him away.
He pushed away and I looked away breathing hard.
He didn't say anything, but sighed as I heard his footsteps and the door open and close.
My hands went to my face and then pulled at my hair.
Not only because of the sharp pain of my butt, but my stupidness.
'Im so stupid!' I yelled in my head.
I was the one that didn't want any more fights but I somehow always started them.
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I woke up late for school the next day and had to take the bus because Soyoung was gone.
She gave me permission to stay home but I didn't want to.
My body felt weak and I still hurt in some places but I still wanted to go.
I walked into class late and found myself being scolded by my homeroom teacher.
I had to clean the classroom after school.
I sighed as I sat down in my seat, ignoring Junhos whispers and trying to get my butt to stop hurting.
The beginning of the day was just starting out bad.
Class continued but I didn't pay attention.
My mind just wouldn't focus, and every time I tried hard to, I felt dizzy.
I knew it couldn't be because of what happened the other night.
We went through all our classes before we had lunch.
Taecyeon sat at our table but he did not talk to me.
The girls also sat at our table and I tried hard not to yell at them to be quiet.
My head started pounding at the noise in the room.
Everyone was talking so loudly that I excused myself from the table, ignoring calls of my name from behind me.
I felt unwell. Tired and in a little pain.
I started coughing a bit in the lunch room too so I decided to go to the nurse instead of back to class to take a little nap.
I walked into the nurses room and let out my problems. Everything but the reason why I was hurting on my hips and bottom.
She took my temperature and touched my head.
"It seems you are catching a little bit of a fever. It's been really cold lately."
I listened to her without any eye contact as I nodded at her words.
She offered to call Soyoung and I declined.
I didn't want to bother Soyoung, especially after she told me to stay home and I didn't.
Apparently I didn't look good and she woke me up earlier to tell me but with my mind in jumbles and my urge to go to school, I ignored her.
"Can I rest?" I asked the nurse.
"Yes you can. I will call your teacher and tell them that you won't be in class." she said. "You have to take better care of yourself Jang Wooyoung. It's getting colder and I believe you wore no coat today by the looks of it." she said.
I shook my head no.
I was in so much of a rush that I forgot. I forgot to do a lot of things.
My hair wasn't styled, my cloths in a mess and I forgot most of my school work and my jacket.
I sighed as she signaled me to a little corner of the room that had a white curtain surrounding it.
I nodded and walked towards the corner, pushed the curtains away and back as I walked into the room.
My eyes watered when I saw the bed. The tiredness was suddenly become more known as I slipped off my shoes and dropped myself down.
I tightly wrapped the covers around me and closed my eyes.
I did notice the coughs that escaped my mouth that I didn't notice before but I ignored it and fell into a deep sleep.
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I woke up to a white ceiling.
"Wooyounggie...."
My eyes went automatically down as I stared at Taecyeon.
He was laying on my lower abdomen with a hand tightly around my waist.
I stared at him as he kept repeating my name in groans.
"Idiot..." I whispered, but I felt my face heating up.
I laid back down and a few coughs escaped my mouth.
"Are you okay?" he asked as his face suddenly appeared in front of me.
"I'm fine." I replied.
"Don't lie. The nurse said your sick...again Woo." he said.
We caught eyes for a few seconds before I turned away.
"Where are we?" I asked as I realized the blue walls instead of white walls of the school sick room.
"My place." Taecyeon said moving so he was looking at me again.
I didn't say anything but turned back to the ceiling.
"I'm not sick. Just tired." I said.
"There you go lying again. Is it because of what we did yesterday? Wooyoun-"
"No." I said quickly as I interrupted him. "I'm fine. Nothing's wrong. Shut up." I said.
A hand landed in my hair and I pushed back a little.
"Wooyoung ...."
Taecyeons face came into view and I stared at his forehead.
Unable to meet his eyes.
He said my name again and I didn't reply.
It was only when he started leaning down to probably kiss me when I pushed him away and got up groaning loudly.
Lying there and not moving made my muscles hurt.
A few coughs escaped my mouth again and I tried to get up from the bed when I was pushed down.
A little too roughly that I started coughing again.
"Stay down. Soyoungs coming for you." Taecyeon said.
I coughed a bit and gave up.
He was probably obviously still mad.
I didn't know what went over me. Him leaning down to kiss me....it kind of scared me at that moment.
The feeling of my first time with him came back.
The silence surrounded us as I tried to fall asleep.
Taecyeon went in and out a little bit before he completely stayed out of his own room.
I stay in the room alone for what seemed to be only a few minutes before Chansung walked in and I opened my eyes.
"Hey. I heard your sick." he said.
"I'm not." I said.
The younger guy laughed and nodded.
"Sure your not." he said.
"Hey. I'm your hyung." I said.
He laughed again and sat besides me on the bed.
"Okay Wooyoung hyung." he said.
I smiled in accomplishment but a sudden cough interrupted me.
"Did you go to the hospital?" Chansung asked.
"It's not serious. I don't need to go again." I said.
"But-"
"Please stop talking." I said a bit to mean. "My head hurts."
'As well as everywhere else.' I thought.
Chansung sighed. "Okay." he said.
A short silence passed.
"So did he tell you about his birthday."
"Birthday? Who?" I said confused as I turned to Chansung.
"You don't know?" he said.
I looked at him confused.
He sighed and turned away.
"I came to ask if you wanted to plan something together with me and Nichkhun hyung but...."
Chansung paused.
A short silence passed.
"Sometimes I really wonder if you like my hyung." Chansung said.
That made something hurt inside of me.
I turned away and covered my face.
"Chansung-ah....Are you really okay saying that? Me? A guy, being with your hyung....are you okay say-"
"Wooyoung hyung I'm sorry but please shut up."
I closed my mouth and let my hand slip from my face.
"Do you really like Taec hyung as much as he likes you?" Chansung asked.
I painfully got up groaning. My head fell straight down as I stared at the blue sheets I was wrapped around.
A long silence passed. I couldn't reply. I didn't know how to reply, but my heart painfully ached at the younger guys words.
"It took me a long time to get used to hyungs preferences...he wanted to be with you, I saw it in his eyes. I can't hate him for that...so if you hate him for that then please leav-"
"Chansung."
Taecyeons voice filled the room and I covered my face as I felt my eyes sting.
A little moment of silence later and Chansung apologized and said goodbye.
The door closed and the bed moved.
'I don't hate him.' I thought.
"Soyoung is here." Taecyeon said.
A short silence passed.
"Wooyoung Soyo-"
"When is your birthday?" I asked.
A short silence passed.
"If this is because of what Chansung said then its fine you don't have to-"
"Please tell me." I said.
"It's December. December 27 . It's on Friday." Taecyeon said.
"Okay. Okay." I found myself saying. "I'm sorry. Friday...please come over." I said.
"But your sick. Wooyoung you don't have to-"
"It's fine." I said. "I'm fine."
At this time, Soyoung walked in loudly side by side with Nichkhun.
"I told you to stay home!"
The first thing Soyoung did was yell at me.
I covered one of my ears and nodded as she continued yelling.
"Your heating up bad. Maybe we need to go to the hospi-"
"No." I said quickly.
"He's been saying that since he woke up." Taecyeon said.
Soyoung sighed and leaned down besides me on the bed as she ran a hand through my hair.
"It's because he can't. Not again. We had to force him last time right?" she said.
"Stop." I quickly said.
At that time, Chansung walked inside.
A long silence passed.
I could feel Taecyeons hard stare and glare at me.
She couldn't tell them. I didn't want anyone to know why I couldn't step into a hospital.
Soyoung doesn't even know what really happens in my mind.
Not just because I saw the death of my parents in a hospital but I almost died too. Maybe I did. I went crazy that day and tell myself always that if I go back then I will really go insane.
"Well I'll be waiting for you in the car. You will get home and get in a nice bath and then to your bed. No school for you tomorrow understand?" Soyoung said.
I snapped from my thoughts and silently nodded.
"Yes noona." I said.
She smiled and got up.
Nichkhun and Chansung left with her but the only person who I didn't want to stay stayed.
I sighed as I looked away and started getting up.
"This is when I noticed that I was out of my school uniform and only in my boxers and a shirt that must of been Taecyeons.
I covered my embarrassed face.
"You undressed me." I said.
It came out more like a question.
"Because you were burning up." Taecyeon replied.
I sighed, unable to say anything to that.
"Where are my cloths?" I asked.
"It's fine I'll lend you my shirt and some pants that wil fit you."
Before I could object, Taecyeon was up and looking in his closet.
He came back with some sweat pants which he handed me.
I looked at them for a while before sighing and pulling myself fully out of bed.
I struggled a little and felt my nauseated head spin as I got up.
"Sit down and do it." Taecyeon said.
I looked towards him.
"Your not embarrased?" he asked.
I realized that he asked only because yes I was only in my underwear trying to put on the pants he gave me but my mind was so jumbled and I felt so sick that I didn't care.
"No." I replied as I managed to fully pull the pants on.
I stood up and Taecyeon grabbed my waist.
"I'll help." he said.
"No."
I pushed him away and turned towards his door.
"I'm fine. I can walk on my own." I said as a cough escaped my lips.
"Woo.."
I ignored that.
"Woo..." Taecyeon said again.
I ignored that too.
My hand touched the door knob and I was just about to turn it when two arms wrapped around me.
"Saranghae. I love you." Taecyeon said both in Korean and English.
I understood the English because he made sure to teach me those words especially.
I sighed and let go of the knob.
"Your avoiding me again." he said.
"I'm not." I replied. "Your heavy."
"Can I kiss you?" he asked.
I mentally groaned.
'Why does he ask? It's embarrassing.' I thought to myself.
"Woo.."
"I'm sick. You'll catch it." I said.
"I thought you said you weren't."
I sighed and managed to pull away.
"Come on hyung....I'm really tired let me go sl-mmfp"
He stole the kiss anyway and when he let me go I embarrassingly tripped and he caught me by the waist once again.
I pushed him away a bit angry and opened the door.
"Your birthday." I said. "Bye."
With that I left.
Nichkhun, Soyoung, Chansung, and 2PMs manager turned straight to look at me as the door slammed.
I felt my whole body get heated up.
Soyoung snickered and I looked away and ran towards the door.
"I'll be in the car." I said.
I didn't wait for what she had to say.
I practically ran out of the building and towards Soyoungs car.
It was only when I reached her locked car that I could cool down only a little bit.
I waited for only a few minutes for Soyoung and completely ignored her except for when she offered me some medicine and a jacket that was most likely Taecyeons.
I still didn't feel good at all.
When we arrived home, I went straight for that bath and prepared myself to go straight to bed when Soyoung knocked on my door saying that Junho and Junsu hyung were here.
I groaned and nodded for them to come in.
"Are you sure?" she asked.
"Yeah." I said sighing.
She sighed okay and let my two friends in.
"Only a few minutes. He's not feeling good." Soyoung said.
"Yeah. We just came to check up on him." Junho said.
We caught eyes and I looked away.
The door closed and a silence overtook the room.
I broke it.
"So? How are you two?" I asked.
"Good." Junsu hyung said.
"I turned towards Junho and he looked angry.
"You've been ignoring us." he said.
I let my head drop.
'Not this. Not now.' I thought.
I shook my head.
"I just don't feel good." I said.
Junho sighed and walked up to my bed.
"We were with you at lunch. You didn't tell us anything." he said.
"I'm sorry." I apologized sincerely.
"What's going on Woo?" he asked.
"Can we talk about it later?" I asked as I glanced at Junsu hyung.
"Is it because of him? Hyung? Can you leave us for a little bit." Junho said.
"No I-"
I tried to object but after Junsu hyung whined that we were acting like gossiping girls, he left and it was just us two alone.
"Tell me." Junho said.
"Junho-"
"I won't leave until you do." he said.
"I'm sick." I said.
"And I'll leave right after you tell me so you can get all the sleep you want." he said.
I coughed a little too much as a short silence passed.
"You won't leave?" I asked.
"No." he said.
"It's embarrassing." I said.
He nodded and ran a hand through my hair.
"You don't look good at all. I want to help you if I can but I can't if you don't tell me anything." Junho said.
I sighed and pulled the blankets over my head.
"Lean close." I whispered.
He leaned close.
"I'll only say this once and you leave so I can sleep." I said.
"Yeah." he said.
A long silence passed.
"Woo..." Junho whispered.
I closed my eyes tight and clenched my fingers.
"We....tried..." I said.
"Huh?" Junho said.
"Ho...Taecyeon hyung....and I....I don't know....we....because he said I've been saying something I don't remember saying at all....we...."
I didn't even finish as Junho screamed.
"What!" he yelled.
I covered my ears as a few coughs escaped my mouth.
"What?" Junho whispered.
"You...you did...that?" he whispered.
"Not...not everything...." I said as I clenched the blankets over my head tightly.
"He...stopped...it hurt.....it was...weird." I whispered.
A long silence passed and before Junho could say anything and I could pull the blankets from over my head, the door opened and Soyoung declared it was time for Junho to leave.
I sighed as the exchanges were made.
He didn't say anything but bye as he left.
I didn't see his face either.
I went straight to sleep after that, trying to get the images out of my head.
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I woke up by the feeling of something wet and cold on my forehead.
I groaned and opened my eyes slowly.
"Hey.."
I looked into brown eyes as Soyoung smiled down at me.
I groaned again as the wet and cold thing appeared again on my head.
"Nnghh....what...."
"Your body became more hot so I'm cooling you off with a wet towel." he said.
A short silence passed.
"....Work..." I groaned out.
"Not today. How do you feel Woo?" Soyoung asked me.
Her smile disappeared as she frowned.
I didn't feel bad at all besides the fact that my head ached and the coughs would not stop.
I even took the medicine I received the other time I was forced to go to the hospital but I just felt worse than before.
"Fine." I lied.
"You know I can tell when your lying." she said
"Okay." I said.
A long silence passed.
"My friend knows a doctor...."
I lifted my head but Soyoung looked away from my sight.
"What....do you.....mean?" I asked slowly.
She didn't answer me.
"I can't go in there....that....place...again?" I finished as I lowered my head and slid back into the sheets.
"I won't take you in there but you need a check up. Just like before Woo. Your fever is getting bad and your lying to me" she said.
"I'm not lying to you!" I tired to scream but just ended up coughing as I laid down in a pant.
"We are going today with Taecyeon oppa." she said
I turned to her with a scowl on my face.
"No." I said.
"Wooyoung you-"
"No." I said again.
A long silence passed.
"You have to go to a check up more than once in your life! You can't keep yourself away from the hospital just because mom and dad died there! They...they are gone Woo. They are dead and I only have you! I can't loose you too!"
Soyoung screamed loudly and all I could do was just lay there in silence.
The towel that had turned warm was once again replaced.
Another long silence passed.
"I'm not going to die." I said.
The silenced continued.
I sighed.
"Okay...but not with hyung." I simply said.
"What?" Soyoung whispered.
"I....I don't want him to see....me like....that." I said truthfully.
Another long silence passed.
"He wants to come." Soyoung said. "He's worried."
"No." I said.
A short silence passed.
"Fine. But you tell him yourself."
With that, my older sister left the room and I fell on the bed groaning in pain at my headache.
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It didn't even seem like ten minutes passed before my door opened.
I laid there staring at the ceiling.
"Hey Youngie...are you asleep?"
"Taecyeons voice passed through my head and I slowly turned and looked at him.
We caught eyes for a long time.
I broke the silence by saying something I never would have thought to come out of my mouth.
"Hug...please?" I said as I reached out my arms in front of me.
It didn't take long for Taecyeon to come scoop me up into his arms.
I relaxed into the warm hands and dug my head in his shirt that smelled freshly washed.
The silence between us slowly turned good.
"Remember tomorrow." I silently whispered.
"But your sick." Taecyeon said.
"But it's your birthday." I said.
A short silence passed.
"I'm sorry....I really don't know anything about you." I said.
"Woo-"
"I want to learn." I said. "I want to learn more about you."
Taecyeons hug tightened and I felt a kiss on my cheek, and then the top of my head.
I closed my eyes and smiled.
'If your going to be there then I think I can make it.'
The thought passed through my mind and my smile stayed, only until the sound of Soyoungs voice made me jump and pull away slightly.
Taecyeon in turn, pulled me closer.
"Don't pull away now." he whispered into my ear.
I froze at the words and at my sisters steps towards us.
"Are you ready?" Soyoung said.
I sighed and shook my head.
"Don't be scared Woo." Soyoung said.
"I'm not." I said a bit angrily.
"Okay then, lets go." she said.
I frowned as Taecyeon let me go.
The warmth escaped and I forced myself up.
"I'm feeling a bit better now." I said.
"That's good, but we are still going." Soyoung said.
I pouted and scooted off the bed.
"Fine. Well then please get out so I can change." I said.
She turned to me with a scowl on her face and I smirked.
From side view I saw Taecyeon chuckle.
I shook my head and pointed at him.
"You too." I said.
"Why? I've already-"
"Out." I said.
Taecyeon stood for a while before leaving with Soyoung.
I managed to change as fast as so could and slowly dragged myself from out of my room.
"Do you want to eat now or get something on the way?" Soyoung asked.
I shrugged and walked to a seat.
"You know...you shouldn't be mad at her. She's really just trying to help. We are both trying to-"
I slowly turned to Taecyeon and frowned.
"Trust me. He will not listen to us if it has anything to do with the hospital." Soyoung said as she set a bowl and a box of cereal in front of me.
I stared at it for a little bit and finally got to work on eating.
They both stared at me and I ignored them.
"I'm going to start the car. Make sure to bring everything you need." Soyoung said.
I turned to her as she pulled on her jacket and started walking to the door.
"I'll stay until-" Taecyeon said.
"No. Go." I said.
Taecyeon sighed.
I looked up at him and shrugged as I watched them both get up and leave.
I ate a little more only to throw the rest away and wash the empty bowl multiple times.
"What's wrong with me?" I whispered to myself as I went into my room and grabbed my bag.
It took me another few minutes to even actually step of the door.
I took a deep breath and headed out the building.
When I spotted the familiar car, I walked slower only to have Soyoung hop out of her car and come running at me yelling.
"Where is your coat? You know your still sick but you don't wear your coat!" she yelled.
I didn't say anything but lowered my head, embarrassed at the accusation.
She stopped, took a deep breath, and headed back inside the apartment building.
I stood there for a long time only to be dragged in the car by Taecyeon.
"You know I love you but please don't let me do that again." he said.
I turned to him in confusion.
Only minutes later did Soyoung come back with not only my coat, but a hat and a scarf.
"I-"
"Wear it." she simply said.
I sighed and put on the coat as Taecyeon lifted the hat on my head and the scarf around my neck.
The ride was in silence but in the back where Taecyeon and I quietly sat, he quietly had a firm grip of my hand and I quietly did not yell at him to let go.
We arrived at the familiar place and I stared at it inside the car.
It's not the building itself, the sight of that just made my head hurt, but it's inside the building.
Inside with white walls and the very familiar smell of hospital; or what I call dying bodies.
Those hospital beds that just lay the unfortunate before their lives disappear.
Blood...in sight...everywhere...
I frowned and found myself tightening my hold on Taecyeons hand.
He turned to me, I saw him in the corner of my eye but I didn't say anything.
"We're here." Soyoung interrupted the silence.
She got out and I was bravely about to do the same when the same hand I squeezed pulled me to a hard chest.
Warm air ran by my ears as Taecyeon whispered.
"I'll be right next to you." he said just before he kissed my forehead.
I embarrassingly pulled away and left the car.
He sometimes does things way too far.
The agonizing walk inside was the painful part, when we finally got inside and started walking all I did was follow foot steps.
I heard voices and followed steps.
It was a night I'll always try to remember clearly.
The sight of a silver object that used to look like a car, deformed.
The sight of my older sisters crying as I stood in the white room.
The sight of appas silent and not moving body.
The sight and sound of ummas cries before there was complete silence.
I finally broke down and cried.
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Woo!
Wooyoung!
I snapped away from my thoughts and opened my eyes to a frantic Soyoung shaking my body.
I stared at her for a long time then turned my gaze to the deeper voices calling my name.
They all stared hard at me and I closed my eyes.
"Stop." I said.
"Idiot! We were worried! You just fell!" Soyoung yelled.
I clenched my fists.
There was a small silence.
"He definitely has a high fever that we have to control but...does he usually pass out like this?"
I know it was the sound of the doctors voice.
"Only once.." Soyoung started saying. "When-"
"I'm fine!"
I quickly got up and stared hard and angry at her for almost revealing my secret to a doctor.
Once again, I was being stared at as I threw my legs to the side of the hospital bed and sat fully straight up.
"I don't think you should be-"
"Is there medicine I need to take?" I asked.
"Woo..." Soyoung said.
A short silence passed.
"Uhhh....um no no. I gave you some medicine the other time right?"
I closed my eyes as I realized it was that same doctor I was forced for come to the other time.
"He took some yesterday but it just made his fever worse." Soyoung said.
"Has he been getting enough sleep? Taking any other medicine besides the one I gave him?" the doctor asked.
I rolled my eyes and felt accusation eyes on me.
I felt guilty. The doctor was right, but I wasn't going to admit I took anti-depressants I bought at a unknown store. It's been a long time since I've been takin the pills.
"Do I need any medicine." I said once again.
The doctor sighed.
If you haven't been then you just need good sleep and some hot kimchi soup. Nothing but your fever seems to be wrong." the doctor said.
I frowned.
"It's high but not high to the point that you need more medicine." the doctor continued as he chuckled.
I sighed in relief.
"Okay then can we go?" I asked.
There was a long silence.
"It would be best to look at some more tests. Maybe take your blood. If this isn't the only time you have passed out then-"
"I'm sorry but no." I politely said as I got up, grabbed my jacket and headed out the unbearable white wall room as Soyoung yelled out my name.
I ignored her and almost made my way to the elevator door when my arm was grabbed and I was pulled away.
"Hey! What are you doing? Stop!"
I yelled as Taecyeon pulled me to wherever he was pulling me to.
A few minutes later and the light was gone and all I saw was black.
I was pushed to a wall and suddenly he hovered over me. I could feel his breath on my cheek.
I lifted my hand to his chest to attempt to push him back.
"I'm sick." I said.
There was silence.
"I want you to stay for the tests." Taecyeon whispered in my ear.
I waited for a little bit and pushed him with the hand on his chest.
"Stop joking around and let me out. You heard him I have to-"
I didn't finish.
Taecyeon pulled me a little too roughly by the arm and somehow I ended up on the floor.
The only thing I heard was our breaths and I was about to refuse again when I felt a hand on my belt.
"Yah! What are you doing?" In almost yelled.
Taecyeon didn't stop.
I struggled and tried to push the big guy off me.
When it didn't work and I started to panic at the thought of the last time and where we were and how we were both guys, I yelled.
"Please! Please hyung. Please no. I don't want this." I said.
He stopped everything and the next thing I knew he was off me and I was lifted up.
I heard myself breathing hard and my heart beating fast as Taecyeon closed my zipper and belt.
"I didn't want to do this. I don't want to scare you again but...your hurting yourself. You...your body fell straight to the floor. I...I didn't know what to do. What if it happens again? When your with me...I want to know what to do for you. Please Woo....take the tests." Taecyeon said.
I waited for a long time clutching the place my heart should be.
"You...you don't know..." I said as I stared into space.
There was silence.
I sighed and chuckled silently.
I didn't know when but I broke down crying and next, I pulled myself close to Taecyeon and he hugged me as he apologized over and over.
"Okay....okay." I said. "I'll do it."
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I took the test.
They took some blood.
I didn't stay to hear what was wrong with me.
Because...I already know.
I left the room and rushed into the bathroom.
I felt like I would fall again.
It took more than a while for Taecyeon to walk into the bathroom saying my name.
I walked out the stall and washed my hands even though I did nothing but sit and shoot my mind full of painful memories.
Taecyeon tried to say something but I quickly cut him off.
"I did what you wanted right?"
He looked at me frowning.
I released a deep sigh.
"I don't want to hear it." I said.
He nodded and took my hand as he pulled me out the bathroom.
We were soon back in the car and full of silence.
I've already called your school.
"Since you won't be going for a while, you will need to study at home for the finals. I called Junsu and Junho too, they will bring any work you-"
I quickly cut Soyoung off.
"What do you mean I won't be going for a while. I just need a days sleep and I will be fine." I said.
"No you won't." Soyoung said silently.
A long silence passed.
"You didn't stay to hear but-"
"Please don't." I said.
Silence filled the car once again.
Taecyeon never once let go of my hand, even when I struggled and pulled.
I finally gave up when my head started hurting and I decided to lay down.
I ended up on Taecyeons shoulders but when I was woken up, I was on his lap.
I quickly pushed myself up embarrassed.
"Hey." he said. "Go back to sleep. I'll take you up." he said.
"No." I said as I opened the car door.
Before Taecyeon could stop me I turned around to him.
"You should really be more careful. Your an idol. You can't be seen around us who aren't idols. You don't want to start a scandal and I don't want to be hated."
Taecyeon stared at me hard.
He didn't look to happy.
I didn't know why those words came out of my mouth. I felt ashamed and my head started hurting more so I turned away and ran to the apartment.
It took Soyoung a while to come and she didn't come with Taecyeon.
"I took him home." she said as she opened the door. "That wasn't very nice."
I frowned and ignored her as I made my way to lie down on something...anything.
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Soyoung offered to stay with me the next day but I refused.
She had work on those days she stayed home with me.
"Your friends are coming here later to bring your work. Taecyeon oppa is also-"
"What!"
I yelled as I lifted myself up quickly.
"I forgot!" I yelled to myself.
Soyoung asked me what and I replied with Taecyeons birthday.
"I need to get him a present." I said.
"I'm sure it's okay." Soyoung said.
"Did you give him a present?" I asked.
"Yeah but-"
"I need to-"
"Wooyoung calm down. I'll get you something and bring it to you during my break." Soyoung said.
I lifted my head and stared at her.
"Don't worry." she said.
I slowly nodded and laid back down.
When she finally told me of the food in house, she left and I was left in silence.
I wanted to go to sleep but I couldn't so I laid in silence.
It didn't take long for the knock on my door.
I wondered who it was as I started getting up.
"Don't get up! I have a key!"
It was the voice of Junho.
I froze and laid down.
He came quietly in my room with a hand full of stuff.
I stared at him.
"It's some food umma said to bring to you and her herbal tea for fevers. I also brought a present and Junsu bought a cake for Taecyeon hyung. I heard today is his birthday and I assume he will come here." Junho said.
I slowly nodded.
He sat down in a chair besides me and silence occupied us.
"Don't you have school?" I asked.
"Umma said I could leave early to come watch you." Junho said.
I nodded.
Another silence passed.
"Have you watched t.v recently?" he suddenly asked.
I looked at him strangely.
"Umm...okay." he said.
"Junho why-"
"Nothing. Are you hungry? Want some of the tea?" he asked.
I shook my head no.
"Junho I-"
"You used protection didn't you!" Junho yelled and I found my body lifting up on its own as I stared wide eyed at him.
Junhos head was lowered as he apologized.
"I'm sorry. Your sick." he said as he picked up the food and walked out of my room.
I sat staring at nothing embarrassed as I remembered that night once again.
Junho came back in.
"Are you sure your not hungry?" he asked.
I shook my head no then opened my mouth again.
It took me a long time but I spoke.
"We didn't." I said.
Junho lifted his head fast.
I felt his eyes on me but I ignored them.
"But we didn't....not everything." I said.
"Did he...put it-"
"Junho!" I yelled his name and fell on the bed as I pulled the covers over my head at the thoughts as to what happened that night.
"He did." Junho said.
Slowly I replied.
Junho didn't say anything. The door closed, and when I lifted the covers off my head he was gone.
I could still hear him and Junsu hyung watching t.v on the other side of the room though.
"This...is awful." I said to myself.
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A/N sorry for my absence. i am hurt but i will finish this story.