Winter Death
TITLE: Winter Death
AUTHOR: eunseung8693
GENRE: angst (?),
PAIRING: OnTae (brotherly love)
LENGTH: one-shot
SUMMARY: Taemin misses Jinki.
A/N: sorry, its a bit crappy. :S
"Taemin."
He gave no attention to the man behind him and continued to smile at Jinki who is sitting at the chair across his. His brown hair partly covering his face, his cheeks almost popping out as he grin stupidly at his Dongsaeng. He was twenty years old, but how can he be cuter than a baby? "Taemin." He heard him say again but this time in a hopeless manner. Minho finally gave up and tugged his left arm but only got a shook as a response. "Taemin" He pleaded "Jinki hyung's gone"
Taemin's smile faded. He turned to Minho pouting and when turned back, Jinki was gone. Again.
It was winter.
Jinki went first. 3:30pm.
Nobody expected and nobody knows why. The oldest seems to be alright with everything when everyone isn't. He was the type who looks at things positively, that in all problems there's a solution. When everything's get out of your hand, just smile. That's why when he left, everyone lost their smiles.
It was a quiet saturday at the Lees' home. Their parents went to the hospital praying their beloved son would survive this unfortunate happening. The image of his parents crying kept replaying on his mind. The sound of their cry kept echoing. It was all in his head.
He was covered in blood when he entered his room, leaving some drips on the floor. Everything was red for him. Blood, his hyung's blood. Taemin wiped the unnoticed tears that fell across his cheeks. Since when did it turned out like this? He was too focus about how miserable his life was that he completely forgotten his hyung, his beloved hyung. Since when did his death planned?
When?
"Taemin." He heard his best friend's voice behind him. He wiped all the tears before turning to him, attempting to give him a smile but failed. Minho sighed at how hopeless his friend looked like with the bright smile gone. It would be stupid to ask him if he was okay so instead he approached him and envelope him into a hug. "Everything will be okay, man. It'll be okay" He whispered as he tap Taemin's back softly.
"Why?" He heard him sob.
"I don't know Taemin, I don't know" He answered "No one does. Get some rest man, everything will be okay. Jinki hyung will make it"
"I've been bad to him" Taemin cried "I'm the worst brother. If only I listened to him, this would never have happen. I only thought of myself that I forgot about him. oh hyung"
Minho was lost with words, he doesn't know what to do anymore. No words will bring everything back, Jinki would still be in the ER. He cried and he doesn't know how to hide it, it was Jinki. His friend, his favorite hyung. And this was Taemin, his best friend. He was lost like Taemin, he doesn't know why. He doesn't know anything anymore. He looked up trying to stop the tears from flowing. "Jinki will come back. He loves us"
Jinki, why?
It was autumn.
Taemin watched a leaf fell. He smiled at its color, it was orange. He looked at what's ahead of him and he only saw an endless road covered with leaves and surrounded with trees. The more he stare at it, the more he got scared to take a step. It was endless, how long will he kept on walking alone. He clutched his bag, how long is he going to wait for Jinki to arrive?
It took him a minute to realize that his phone was ringing.
From: Minho
Your mom called me. Where are you?
He checked the time, 4:00pm. He stared at it for the last time and head back home. It was a crazy trip. Every step he take, he would hear Jinki calling him. He closed his eyes, hoping it would help him in ignoring Jinki's voice. But it was growing louder and louder until it was hard to avoid, so he turned back. Only to see people passing by, not even bothering to look at him or ask him if he's okay. But when he looked farther, a brunette was waving at him. He was there waving and grinning at him and when he took a step, the boy shooked his head. His tears fell with the sight of his older brother. He smiled and Jinki smiled back. He was crazy, yes. But he was with him.
Taemin-a! He shouted Go home! Mom's very worried! He chuckled at Jinki's playfulness and continued walking. Even if he have to walk endlessly, he wouldn't mind. As long as Jinki was walking behind him.
He walked and walked until he reached his home. He smiled at it, their home. He's home and his brother was with him. Still grinning, he turned back but Jinki wasn't there anymore.
It was spring.
Their school was covered in pink and Key was totally ecstatic about it. He stared at the window blankly as he waited for their teacher to declare lunch. Key kept throwing paper at him to catch his attention and Minho kept telling Key to stop. He could hear them argue because of him and he would just sigh at the thought.
"Taemin-sshi" He flinched when his teacher called his attention, he looked around to see all the pair of eyes watching him with pity. "Are you still with us, Taemin-sshi?"
"Ne" He stuttered "I'm sorry"
His teacher hesitated but continued anyway. "Sir, can I excuse myself?"
"Sure" He walked to the door, aware that everyone was still watching him. When he got out, tears fell again.
He was in their rooftop, watching cars and buses move. The wind was strong but he didn't bother to fix his hair when it blew. It was all too quiet for him, there was no sound. Not even the honk of the horns, the sound of the vehicles running. Little by little, his body was becoming useless.
"Hyung why did you left?" He asked no one.
Because his hyung said. He turned around and around until he found Jinki standing beside him, leaning on the rail and was looking forward. Because, I love you. I have to protect you.
"You're always doing that! Always protecting me! Always thinking of me! And now I feel so stupid, I can't even take good care of myself because I was too dependent on you! Because of that, because of that" He bit his lower lip when he noticed he was scolding at his hyung. But Jinki just smiled at him, his warm smile that could touch hearts. "How can you still smile at times like this?"
I told you, when everything's out of your hand don't forget to smile. It helps. Listen Taemin, you still have a life to live. It might be painful at first but there will become a time that you have to let go of that pain. You've been lifeless for a while now, and I can't just leave you behind like that.
"Then I'll stay the same for you not to leave me hyung!"
You see, you're always this selfish. I'm happy Taemin, I'm happy that I died for you to live. We might not be able to hold each others hand like before, we might not be able to hug like before, we might not be able to laugh together like before, we might not be able to continue what we were like before. But you see, I will never leave you. I will stay by your side because your smile, your happiness makes me alive.
"Hyung, asking me to go on without you is also a selfish decision" He wiped his tears and stared forward. "But I guess, if you'll still be with me it'll be okay"
They both smiled, feeling the bond that wrapped them together. See? Your smile is something that makes people happy Taemin, including me. Don't deny it from them.
"Hyung" Taemin grinned and Jinki finally turned to him "I will make you proud!"
Jinki just smiled at him, his proud smile. Taemin smiled back, wishing that somehow this wouldn't end. But reality was creeping back, Jinki's image was fading but this time Taemin was still smiling and waving at him. The memories they had for the last eighteen years flashed in front of his eyes. From how Jinki held him when he was still a baby, to Jinki who saved him before he died. He cried at the memories but his tears were different. He disappeared and Taemin found himself being slap in the arm by Key. He woke up and stared at his friends who are both looking worried at him.
"What's wrong?" He asked with knitted eyebrows.
"It's lunch time" Minho answered "If you don't want to eat again, it's fine"
"No! I will not let you starve yourself again! Stop it Taemin!" Key barked which made Taemin laugh. How can he forgot his friends. He was living selfishly, not bothering to what people say. He was ignoring everyone, including his brother, and now he's gone. He should have been a better dongsaeng when he was still alive. And today, he will live better. For his friends, for his family, for the people he loves.
Key and Minho stopped at the sight of Taemin laughing at them, something that they haven't seen for a while.
"You're back" Minho smiled.
"I missed you Lee Taemin" Key slapped his arm.
It was summer.
Taemin was walking at the beach, listening to the waves and winds. His parents were still sleeping at the hotel when he left. It's been one year when his hyung left and Taemin still not used to it. The pain was still there, it will always be there. But it was a good one, it's what makes him feel that Jinki was still with him.
"Excuse me" he heard someone and he quickly tilted his head to see a boy about two years older than him, smiling at him. A familiar smile to him. "Can I join you? You look so...so serious"
"Do I?" He chuckled "Sure. I'm Lee Taemin"
"Onew" He answered "Lee Onew"
"You kind of remind me of someone, Onew-sshi"
"Everything about me must be common"
"No it's not" He smiled widely "It's not"
And after some time. It'll be Autumn again until it'll be back to summer. But this time, it'll be a different story.
*****
"Please don't" Taemin pleaded. He was lying on the ground, looking helpless as a man holding a gun glared at him. He refused to go home after he had a quarell with his dad. He decided to stay at Minho's house but was lost along the way. And now, he was about to die. "I'll give you my phone just don't kill me!"
"You shoul've thought of that earlier!" The man pulled the trigger him and all Taemin could do was to close his eyes as he wait himself to die. He heard a loud bang but no pain came. He waited and waited. Nothing came. He opened his eyes and almost died when he saw his brother in front of him, shot in the heart. He held him, crying. "hyung!" He kept shouting but the older didn't respond. He called his name a million times but his hyung never came back.
It was winter, 3:30pm.
AUTHOR: eunseung8693
GENRE: angst (?),
PAIRING: OnTae (brotherly love)
LENGTH: one-shot
SUMMARY: Taemin misses Jinki.
A/N: sorry, its a bit crappy. :S
"Taemin."
He gave no attention to the man behind him and continued to smile at Jinki who is sitting at the chair across his. His brown hair partly covering his face, his cheeks almost popping out as he grin stupidly at his Dongsaeng. He was twenty years old, but how can he be cuter than a baby? "Taemin." He heard him say again but this time in a hopeless manner. Minho finally gave up and tugged his left arm but only got a shook as a response. "Taemin" He pleaded "Jinki hyung's gone"
Taemin's smile faded. He turned to Minho pouting and when turned back, Jinki was gone. Again.
It was winter.
Jinki went first. 3:30pm.
Nobody expected and nobody knows why. The oldest seems to be alright with everything when everyone isn't. He was the type who looks at things positively, that in all problems there's a solution. When everything's get out of your hand, just smile. That's why when he left, everyone lost their smiles.
It was a quiet saturday at the Lees' home. Their parents went to the hospital praying their beloved son would survive this unfortunate happening. The image of his parents crying kept replaying on his mind. The sound of their cry kept echoing. It was all in his head.
He was covered in blood when he entered his room, leaving some drips on the floor. Everything was red for him. Blood, his hyung's blood. Taemin wiped the unnoticed tears that fell across his cheeks. Since when did it turned out like this? He was too focus about how miserable his life was that he completely forgotten his hyung, his beloved hyung. Since when did his death planned?
When?
"Taemin." He heard his best friend's voice behind him. He wiped all the tears before turning to him, attempting to give him a smile but failed. Minho sighed at how hopeless his friend looked like with the bright smile gone. It would be stupid to ask him if he was okay so instead he approached him and envelope him into a hug. "Everything will be okay, man. It'll be okay" He whispered as he tap Taemin's back softly.
"Why?" He heard him sob.
"I don't know Taemin, I don't know" He answered "No one does. Get some rest man, everything will be okay. Jinki hyung will make it"
"I've been bad to him" Taemin cried "I'm the worst brother. If only I listened to him, this would never have happen. I only thought of myself that I forgot about him. oh hyung"
Minho was lost with words, he doesn't know what to do anymore. No words will bring everything back, Jinki would still be in the ER. He cried and he doesn't know how to hide it, it was Jinki. His friend, his favorite hyung. And this was Taemin, his best friend. He was lost like Taemin, he doesn't know why. He doesn't know anything anymore. He looked up trying to stop the tears from flowing. "Jinki will come back. He loves us"
Jinki, why?
It was autumn.
Taemin watched a leaf fell. He smiled at its color, it was orange. He looked at what's ahead of him and he only saw an endless road covered with leaves and surrounded with trees. The more he stare at it, the more he got scared to take a step. It was endless, how long will he kept on walking alone. He clutched his bag, how long is he going to wait for Jinki to arrive?
It took him a minute to realize that his phone was ringing.
From: Minho
Your mom called me. Where are you?
He checked the time, 4:00pm. He stared at it for the last time and head back home. It was a crazy trip. Every step he take, he would hear Jinki calling him. He closed his eyes, hoping it would help him in ignoring Jinki's voice. But it was growing louder and louder until it was hard to avoid, so he turned back. Only to see people passing by, not even bothering to look at him or ask him if he's okay. But when he looked farther, a brunette was waving at him. He was there waving and grinning at him and when he took a step, the boy shooked his head. His tears fell with the sight of his older brother. He smiled and Jinki smiled back. He was crazy, yes. But he was with him.
Taemin-a! He shouted Go home! Mom's very worried! He chuckled at Jinki's playfulness and continued walking. Even if he have to walk endlessly, he wouldn't mind. As long as Jinki was walking behind him.
He walked and walked until he reached his home. He smiled at it, their home. He's home and his brother was with him. Still grinning, he turned back but Jinki wasn't there anymore.
It was spring.
Their school was covered in pink and Key was totally ecstatic about it. He stared at the window blankly as he waited for their teacher to declare lunch. Key kept throwing paper at him to catch his attention and Minho kept telling Key to stop. He could hear them argue because of him and he would just sigh at the thought.
"Taemin-sshi" He flinched when his teacher called his attention, he looked around to see all the pair of eyes watching him with pity. "Are you still with us, Taemin-sshi?"
"Ne" He stuttered "I'm sorry"
His teacher hesitated but continued anyway. "Sir, can I excuse myself?"
"Sure" He walked to the door, aware that everyone was still watching him. When he got out, tears fell again.
He was in their rooftop, watching cars and buses move. The wind was strong but he didn't bother to fix his hair when it blew. It was all too quiet for him, there was no sound. Not even the honk of the horns, the sound of the vehicles running. Little by little, his body was becoming useless.
"Hyung why did you left?" He asked no one.
Because his hyung said. He turned around and around until he found Jinki standing beside him, leaning on the rail and was looking forward. Because, I love you. I have to protect you.
"You're always doing that! Always protecting me! Always thinking of me! And now I feel so stupid, I can't even take good care of myself because I was too dependent on you! Because of that, because of that" He bit his lower lip when he noticed he was scolding at his hyung. But Jinki just smiled at him, his warm smile that could touch hearts. "How can you still smile at times like this?"
I told you, when everything's out of your hand don't forget to smile. It helps. Listen Taemin, you still have a life to live. It might be painful at first but there will become a time that you have to let go of that pain. You've been lifeless for a while now, and I can't just leave you behind like that.
"Then I'll stay the same for you not to leave me hyung!"
You see, you're always this selfish. I'm happy Taemin, I'm happy that I died for you to live. We might not be able to hold each others hand like before, we might not be able to hug like before, we might not be able to laugh together like before, we might not be able to continue what we were like before. But you see, I will never leave you. I will stay by your side because your smile, your happiness makes me alive.
"Hyung, asking me to go on without you is also a selfish decision" He wiped his tears and stared forward. "But I guess, if you'll still be with me it'll be okay"
They both smiled, feeling the bond that wrapped them together. See? Your smile is something that makes people happy Taemin, including me. Don't deny it from them.
"Hyung" Taemin grinned and Jinki finally turned to him "I will make you proud!"
Jinki just smiled at him, his proud smile. Taemin smiled back, wishing that somehow this wouldn't end. But reality was creeping back, Jinki's image was fading but this time Taemin was still smiling and waving at him. The memories they had for the last eighteen years flashed in front of his eyes. From how Jinki held him when he was still a baby, to Jinki who saved him before he died. He cried at the memories but his tears were different. He disappeared and Taemin found himself being slap in the arm by Key. He woke up and stared at his friends who are both looking worried at him.
"What's wrong?" He asked with knitted eyebrows.
"It's lunch time" Minho answered "If you don't want to eat again, it's fine"
"No! I will not let you starve yourself again! Stop it Taemin!" Key barked which made Taemin laugh. How can he forgot his friends. He was living selfishly, not bothering to what people say. He was ignoring everyone, including his brother, and now he's gone. He should have been a better dongsaeng when he was still alive. And today, he will live better. For his friends, for his family, for the people he loves.
Key and Minho stopped at the sight of Taemin laughing at them, something that they haven't seen for a while.
"You're back" Minho smiled.
"I missed you Lee Taemin" Key slapped his arm.
It was summer.
Taemin was walking at the beach, listening to the waves and winds. His parents were still sleeping at the hotel when he left. It's been one year when his hyung left and Taemin still not used to it. The pain was still there, it will always be there. But it was a good one, it's what makes him feel that Jinki was still with him.
"Excuse me" he heard someone and he quickly tilted his head to see a boy about two years older than him, smiling at him. A familiar smile to him. "Can I join you? You look so...so serious"
"Do I?" He chuckled "Sure. I'm Lee Taemin"
"Onew" He answered "Lee Onew"
"You kind of remind me of someone, Onew-sshi"
"Everything about me must be common"
"No it's not" He smiled widely "It's not"
And after some time. It'll be Autumn again until it'll be back to summer. But this time, it'll be a different story.
*****
"Please don't" Taemin pleaded. He was lying on the ground, looking helpless as a man holding a gun glared at him. He refused to go home after he had a quarell with his dad. He decided to stay at Minho's house but was lost along the way. And now, he was about to die. "I'll give you my phone just don't kill me!"
"You shoul've thought of that earlier!" The man pulled the trigger him and all Taemin could do was to close his eyes as he wait himself to die. He heard a loud bang but no pain came. He waited and waited. Nothing came. He opened his eyes and almost died when he saw his brother in front of him, shot in the heart. He held him, crying. "hyung!" He kept shouting but the older didn't respond. He called his name a million times but his hyung never came back.
It was winter, 3:30pm.