[ONESHOT] Becoming More Distant

Jun 27, 2011 01:51

 


Why has it become this? The two of us
Sit here blankly and hear the truth
I know I am afraid for all the world, you say
I'm sorry, but now we have to stop

Since when did we become this awkward? Since when did we not talk to each other? Now we’re  always silent when we meet. There’re so many problems we should face together. Both of us can’t bear it anymore.

I looked at your sad face. Then I grabbed your hand and kissed your lips. “I’m sorry.” I said, then I left you alone.

I think… we should stop…

Where did it go wrong?
What yearning is different now?
Now we are two different people
I can't reach these words
I can't be forceful
Like that, like this, it's our end now

Since then we never meet each other again, even though we’re still dating. We’re still sent message but just for asking ‘how are you?’ and such. Then, when will this awkward relation end? Will we remain far as now?

This is hurt. Every day I always shed tears. Until now I’m still in love with you. I dialed your number and you answered my call.

“It’s a long time we haven’t meet each other.” I said.

“Yeah.” You replied shortly. You sounded bored. I got a bad feeling.

“Let’s meet again.” I said.

“Okay, as usual.”

“Ne. And, I want to say this…”

“What?”

“I love you.”

You didn’t respond. Did I make you surprise?

“So much…” I managed to continue. “I’m still in love with you.”

“Uhm, okay. I… love you too.” You stuttered.

I smiled.

“Okay. See you later.”

I hung up the phone.

I shouldn’t be like this. I should not say I love you. I should…

…say that we have to break up…

I can’t bear it anymore. So many problems between us. And maybe… there’s no love for me anymore.

I can’t… be with you anymore…

I clenched my hand to my chest, hoping to ease the pain a bit. It’s useless. I’m still in love with you…

We were happy
We loved so much
Like me, you hated painfully
Little by little we grew more distant
I can't seize it this time
Tomorrow the story will be told, tomorrow we will talk

We were happy. It’s an old story from us. Our happiness is in our past, and our future is our sad relationship.

“I hate a condition like this. I hate to be far from you.” You said one day.

I hugged you. “I won’t EVER leave you alone.” I promised.

But that promised was just a crap. You can hate me now.

Why is it like this one?
We defended our dreams
Why did this one have to break?

I went to the park we used to hang out long time ago, when we’re still happy. I saw you then smiled. You replied my smile just with a nod. I kissed your forehead but you avoid me.

“Sorry.” I said.

You just nodded. “Let’s break up.”

WHAT?

You sounded so sad, I could see tears on your eyes.

“Let’s break… up.” You stuttered.

I grabbed your hand.

“I’m still in love with you. But, if it’s really your desire, we’ll break up for real.” I said.

You nodded.

“But… can I, for the last time, hug you and kiss you?” I asked.

You nodded.

I smiled and quickly pulled you into my arms. You wrapped your arms around me. I felt I don’t want to let you go. It’s so hard for me. I thought, it would be so easy to let you go. But now, I can’t.

“I’m sorry.” I said. “I think… I’ll be dying if there’re no you in my side.”

You didn’t say anything. But, I think I can hear your sobs.

“Okay, It’s my time to go.”

I loosened my hug and wiped your tears.

“Bye.” I said then I left you alone.

As I left you, I can hear your sobs. I know you still love me like I do. But, it’s the best for us. Maybe someday we’ll meet again, then we’ll be happy together? I don’t know.

We were happy
We loved so much
Like me, it was hard and unfortunate for you
Please, don't be like that this time
Don't leave like you did
Tomorrow the story will be told, tomorrow we will talk
We're broken up now.

THE END

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