Lolli Lolli, Oh Lollipop.
So, I've really been taking my time haven't I? Feels like I'm still on hiatus. *oh no!*
I should really start picking things up cause I want to finish my series now! *runs* ( I know my dearest Huda that I run&wink alot! :0)
Perversion has filled my mind *shakes head*
So, what have I been doing if not finishing my series?! Working, sleeping, eating, getting my Dong Bang fix, and Yaoi manga fix?! Damn, it's fried my brain.
I don't EVEN know. There was a point to this - I'm sure there was a point for me posting. But I really hate blogging about myself *frowns* - but let me try it today.
SO, for today - and only for today I let myself fall into a major emotional roller coaster of feelings. Crying my heart out for at least 3 hours watching sad things on youtube (sad things such as disabled|blind kids singing in Star King, a video of Shinee|Dbsk|SuJu crying, SNSD crying - yeah just everyone crying. I really needed to let my tears out which I've been bottling up since last night.
I spoke too soon about my current happiness, after my BaByCakes Jos asked how I was doing I replied "I'm fine, no problems, no boy problems. I'm happy." I spoke too soon, 3 hours later - I was messaged by a boy that put a SMALL dent in my heart. I'm usually a very logical person, able to pin point what's wrong and what won't work. I think things thoroughly and I observe - but I really let my guard down with this one. He ended up seeing another girl(s) behind my back.
*Oooooh the irony* Anyways. He messaged. I bet he thought it was safe for him, since now he's back in Italy. Well, no sir. You are not, for when I see you again. I will slam you with words for being a selfish bastard. I'm not one to start conflict, but I didn't appreciate any of it and I didn't appreciate how you said you avoided me to protect me, protect me from my Mom and from yourself? Oh please. I can make up better lies than that, and I'm not one for lying.
I'm sure you're used to girls swooning over you, used to all the girls that have willingly lost "it" to you. But you're right, I'm not like the rest. *thank you for noticing - bows* but no sir, I will not be taken by your good looks and your sweet talk. I'm sooooooo past Italian men okay? (Well, at least Italian men like you)
I'm writing this, because I know I can't say this to you via msn. You'll never see this, I never want you to. But I needed to vent, because I'm sure that if I didn't you'd be in big trouble. Why? Because I was actually devastated - hearing about her, and her, and her. Yeah fucking 3 girls, and you didn't even have the balls to tell me straight up - waiting until you got back home to message me a sorry, and that you really liked me. Telling me you left your most beloved girl friend for me. I'm sorry but, didn't you tell me you left her long ago?! What the douche are you trying to pull? And who are you to tell my cousin you still liked me, and that you would stay if I took you back. Who do you think you are?! After he knew you dated other girls while seeing me and even screwed his friend. Yeah, are you fucked?
Indeed, I'm glad you left and I'm even gladder that after you left, I found a man named Kim JaeJoong. And he rocks my world* sticks out tongue* LOOOL, yeah I kinda laughed to myself when I was talking to him, my dp was of JaeJoong and he was giving his evil eye. It made me think he was staring him down 'tch.
Sayooooooonara baka, there is no looking back now. For I am fully satisfied swooning over the perfect Dong Bang boys.
*wow, I just suddenly wrote a whole blog to him* -*shakes head* but it's okay. I vented and I feel better.
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OH YEAH, ha ha ha - 2ne1 are hot. They make me happy, and learning their fire dance made me even happier along with learning Suju's new dance moves in their new MV. <3 absolute love. HOKAY. So anyways, shall I start posting my series? *sighs* I guess I should huh.
I should really start picking things up cause I want to finish my series now! *runs* ( I know my dearest Huda that I run&wink alot! :0)
Perversion has filled my mind *shakes head*
So, what have I been doing if not finishing my series?! Working, sleeping, eating, getting my Dong Bang fix, and Yaoi manga fix?! Damn, it's fried my brain.
I don't EVEN know. There was a point to this - I'm sure there was a point for me posting. But I really hate blogging about myself *frowns* - but let me try it today.
SO, for today - and only for today I let myself fall into a major emotional roller coaster of feelings. Crying my heart out for at least 3 hours watching sad things on youtube (sad things such as disabled|blind kids singing in Star King, a video of Shinee|Dbsk|SuJu crying, SNSD crying - yeah just everyone crying. I really needed to let my tears out which I've been bottling up since last night.
I spoke too soon about my current happiness, after my BaByCakes Jos asked how I was doing I replied "I'm fine, no problems, no boy problems. I'm happy." I spoke too soon, 3 hours later - I was messaged by a boy that put a SMALL dent in my heart. I'm usually a very logical person, able to pin point what's wrong and what won't work. I think things thoroughly and I observe - but I really let my guard down with this one. He ended up seeing another girl(s) behind my back.
*Oooooh the irony* Anyways. He messaged. I bet he thought it was safe for him, since now he's back in Italy. Well, no sir. You are not, for when I see you again. I will slam you with words for being a selfish bastard. I'm not one to start conflict, but I didn't appreciate any of it and I didn't appreciate how you said you avoided me to protect me, protect me from my Mom and from yourself? Oh please. I can make up better lies than that, and I'm not one for lying.
I'm sure you're used to girls swooning over you, used to all the girls that have willingly lost "it" to you. But you're right, I'm not like the rest. *thank you for noticing - bows* but no sir, I will not be taken by your good looks and your sweet talk. I'm sooooooo past Italian men okay? (Well, at least Italian men like you)
I'm writing this, because I know I can't say this to you via msn. You'll never see this, I never want you to. But I needed to vent, because I'm sure that if I didn't you'd be in big trouble. Why? Because I was actually devastated - hearing about her, and her, and her. Yeah fucking 3 girls, and you didn't even have the balls to tell me straight up - waiting until you got back home to message me a sorry, and that you really liked me. Telling me you left your most beloved girl friend for me. I'm sorry but, didn't you tell me you left her long ago?! What the douche are you trying to pull? And who are you to tell my cousin you still liked me, and that you would stay if I took you back. Who do you think you are?! After he knew you dated other girls while seeing me and even screwed his friend. Yeah, are you fucked?
Indeed, I'm glad you left and I'm even gladder that after you left, I found a man named Kim JaeJoong. And he rocks my world* sticks out tongue* LOOOL, yeah I kinda laughed to myself when I was talking to him, my dp was of JaeJoong and he was giving his evil eye. It made me think he was staring him down 'tch.
Sayooooooonara baka, there is no looking back now. For I am fully satisfied swooning over the perfect Dong Bang boys.
*wow, I just suddenly wrote a whole blog to him* -*shakes head* but it's okay. I vented and I feel better.
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OH YEAH, ha ha ha - 2ne1 are hot. They make me happy, and learning their fire dance made me even happier along with learning Suju's new dance moves in their new MV. <3 absolute love. HOKAY. So anyways, shall I start posting my series? *sighs* I guess I should huh.