okay.. so forgive my completely erratic and uncensored entries of the past.. i guess i felt it was okay to unleash on the world the fact that i had some serious drug and alcohol thoughts. haha we'll call those "thoughts." or "actions" . anyway, i'm much better now ( Read more... )

they said the rapture would come.
i think the only rapture we need to worry about is the rapture within yourself.
instead a bird came
and the sky turned red
and i remembered wanting to be dead sometimes.
but i'm alive.
and the world could find
my piece of mind.

a piece of my mind out here in space.

september is here I will have a birthday and get older soon. i will go to philadelphia and to new york. I will go to Boston and I will get a new job today. Wish me luck internet wish me luck.

wow. livejournal. we've been together for so long. i saw an old friend tonight. I get so nervous sometimes that i act rude. but i dont mean it. if people only knew how much i reeally cared. ... livejournal is so much cooler than twitter. :)

everyone around me
MY ThRoat HURTS
I am a sour puss
i am a wet blanket
hahaha

I don't ever know what date it is anymore. I never know. i stay up all night and sleep all day. Then I go to work and I'm starting to feel like, what are you doing iwth your life? but as I was reading all my old journal entries I realized they all seemed kind of... negative. and I've been told throughout my life that i am a negative person, and ( Read more... )

Last night something pretty bad happened. We lost a friend. All charred and broken. Shut down Exploded.

aw fuck. i cancelled my myspace and facebook. i dohn't know why, i guess i felt i got too cool for them. and now i miss my myspace. man oh man. I guess i'll always have you livejournal. the only thing is no one uses livejournal anymore. so its basically just me talking to myself and writing in a journal that could technically be read by the whole ( Read more... )

nothing to say nothing to say nothing to say.

i'm pretty sure i broke my pinky toe today. it hurt so bad and i was walking by these people i knew and i didnt want them to hear me shouting so i did the silent scream of pain. anyway now my toe is completely black and purple..... yeaah. thats pretty cool.