i sincerely apologize for all the damage i've caused.

[evanschmitt2]

Save perhaps for MJ and Hil, I've seemed to have methodically disenfranchised anyone and everyone who was at any point 'my friend'. Basically I've had a streak of pissing people off; I'm incapable of sustaining friendships

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[anonymous]

you make it sound like you were the one that ended the friendships.
but in truth we were the ones who ended the friendships. and for a good reason.
trying to say youre sorry over live journal, is part of the reason why 1/2 of your "friends" arent youre "friends" anymore.

[evanschmitt2]

I know you were the ones who ended the friendships, but it was because of me that you did. -that's what I was trying to say.

And, I addressed the reasons why I'm apologizing over LJ in the second half of paragraph two: "I would have called all of you, but since we're not really talking to each other, I didn't think you'd answer and y'all no I'm not good at leaving messages ...I start rambling and they just kind of evolve into 10 pointless minute speeches. "

[anonymous]

yeah, it's because of your non-assertive persona that makes certain "friends" of the past
not want to put up with you. If you were truely sincere about making things right, you'd
grow up and face us. Not let livejournal be your medium for conflict resolution.

[evanschmitt2]

my non-assertive persona? I'm pretty sure being non-assertive is better than being assertive.

And I am sincere. I really am. I just don't know what to say. I don't know what to do to make things better and what makes it harder is the fact that you more than likely don't want to make things better.

[othehumanity]

geez, uh, evan you're not a horrible person and i consider you my friend.
poker sometime soon!

[___waltzes]

we weren't saying that Evan is a horrible person, because that he is not.
we were just saying that he causes more bad than good, which i dont think
he really means to do, but nevertheless he does and maybe he should figure out
a way to cure this because it's hindering friendships that were once great
friendships, is all i was saying.

[evanschmitt2]

well I don't mean to do any of that shit, and I don't want to do it. It just kind of happened. And I don't really know how to "cure" it.

[fruit_loop_234]

yeah.... being jealous of them, and trying to keep them apart..... how is that NOT wanting to do "any of that shit?"

"it just kind of happened." trying to keep people apart and setting them against each other doesn't "just happen."