Comments | eveckerdecker: we are time bombs and we are ticking, the only questoins when we'll blow up.

eveckerdecker

we are time bombs and we are ticking, the only questoins when we'll blow up.

Oct 12, 2005 19:54

i read through my journal from the summer last night. and something along these lines was repeated a lot " i just hope i dont lose this feeling i have now when i go back", and depressingly i feel like i have lost it. i feel inadequate and like i suck.. and i know this is stupid, i am not fishing for complinents or anything i am fucking insecure. ( Read more... )

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ashcan21389 October 13 2005, 01:08:47 UTC

like you said, you're not fishing for compliments. but i am not fishing for complinents or anything i am fucking insecure. totaly relates to how im feeling now.

I know it may seem impossible, but i feel like i am stuck in this stupid hole waiting for a freaking latter, b/c i'm just stuck. and cant dig myself outta this one.

okay so that didnt make any sense. but just to say. I'm going through the same thing you are.

luv ya.
ash

eveckerdecker October 13 2005, 21:43:30 UTC

love love love... and now that i have vented i can comfort.. things will get better, i know this. sounds terribly cliche. also know relation is a powerful thing!!! we will survive.. haha! love ya

slinkerstinker October 13 2005, 20:55:24 UTC

First off let me say I'm glad you said "fuck" a lot. I don't like when people say that swears are used by ignorant people who can't express anything right. At least I think there are people like that. "Fuck" is as expressive as any other word

I told you all about this when you came down a while ago. "Don't cry becase it ended. Smile because it happened." That is the quote that I think can make the entire difference on our mood and attitude on GSE. I for one will not let it be negative in any sort

I can tell you I have felt the exact same way. About losing passion for Theatre (if that is indeed what you are saying). I just started thinking like "why am I really doing this, I'm getting nowhere." If you want it (as in the stage) bad enough, that passion will come back eventually. You just have to want it bad enough and strive enough for it. And once you get on stage, its all better. For me it never fails, each time I do a show, it is pure bliss and energy.

Sorry for this being long. I love you Eva!

eveckerdecker October 13 2005, 21:40:54 UTC

thank you for the long response. no need to appologize, make them long every time!! i hope that my mind will change once i perform. and my hopes are getting higher..=D. I love you too Philip!!!