erick was deployed.
nick told me today that cari told him yesterday.
he brought it up nonchalantly- no big deal.
my heart broke silently right there in the car.

i'm so angry
so sad,
i don't know what to do

and my overwhelmed heart is not allowed to be so emotional.

my plans got snowed out tonight. was supposed to go get meg and see gothica. stupid snow. so here i sit ( Read more... )

i bet you could never guess what i'm doing right now ( Read more... )

Yes it was. Quiet, which i love. Spent at home, which i love. With friends, which i love. Talked to two good friends I haven't spoke to in quite a while. Was so happy to get a call from Les on Sunday, though he refuses to be one of my bridesmaids ( Read more... )

smoke a cigarette then eat a gram cracker.
it tastes like a s'more.

A Little Opening ( Read more... )

my lips are really dry ( Read more... )

Your Ultimate Purity Score Is... CategoryYour Score Average Self-Lovin'63.3%
Explored the pleasures of the flesh 65.1%Shamelessness76.2%
Has yet to see self in mirror 79.4% Sex Drive 60.5%
A fool for love, but not always77.7%Straightness7.1%
Knows the other body type like a map 45.1% Gayness 71.4%
Had that experience at camp 83.2%
Fucking Sick85%
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this week is my least favorite of the year probably for working in a photo lab. deer opener was last weekend and that's all the pictures people bring in this whole week. this one was of a guy holding just the deer tongue and licking it and such things. it was really nasty, not to mention disrespectful of the poor deer. controlling the population is ( Read more... )

it's strange how old I feel sometimes. went to heidi's last night to hang out with the girls and have some momosas. realized all these "girls" were almost thirty. never thought i would be hanging out with thirty year olds, talking about slumber party topics, having so much fun ( Read more... )