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The work has subsided, and the cold is mostly gone.... But the stress is now a lot worse. Now it's about personal things. I'll spare you the long details and the angsty rant and just say this; I feel really, really not good.
I feel like I want to throw up emotionally. Like I'm full of poison and I need to clear it; I want to vomit up my own vile soul, I want to rip my vicious rotten brains out of my head and throw them against a wall, I want to slice myself open from neck to naughties and pull out all the hateful flesh and flush it away, and I want to hack open my veins and drain out all my black billious blood until everything goes white and clean and quiet.
Oh, I said I'd spare you all the emo stuff. Sorry.
I feel like I want to throw up emotionally. Like I'm full of poison and I need to clear it; I want to vomit up my own vile soul, I want to rip my vicious rotten brains out of my head and throw them against a wall, I want to slice myself open from neck to naughties and pull out all the hateful flesh and flush it away, and I want to hack open my veins and drain out all my black billious blood until everything goes white and clean and quiet.
Oh, I said I'd spare you all the emo stuff. Sorry.