dwayne: if i want to fly, ill find a way to fly. i mean, you do what you love and ... fuck the rest.

uncle frank: im glad youre talking again, dwayne. youre not nearly as stupid as you look.

im watching the episode of "scrubs" when j.d. finds out that ben has lukemia ( Read more... )

so, ive found that i have the emotions swirling around inside of me that amount to the feelings that one would have if someone very close to them died.
and thats completely unfair, because no one incredibly close to me has died.
i mean, bubba.
but that doesnt describe it.
my life has come to this point: i cry at every episode of "the o.c."
every single ( Read more... )

"and lifes a rollercoaster
and i am not strapped in"

rollercoaster is a good metaphor for how my emotional life has been in the past two weeks-ish.
right now, im watching "the fugitive" with erin.
ive never seen it.

i saw "citizen kane" today in my media studies class.
something that really pisses me off: i thought that it was an outstanding movie, but ( Read more... )

i find it very harrowing to like a boy.
and i cant find a way to stop talking about it.
such an idiot.
i wish that i was thin.
no matter how hard i try, i am never fucking thin.
and if i was, i would have a boy.
i would have the boy that i want, i bet.
instead i hope that my personality is interesting.
that im funny.
that, maybe, hell think that i have a ( Read more... )

im at school ( Read more... )

summer.

"leaves are falling all around
time i was on my way
thanks to you; im much obliged
such a pleasant stay
and now its time for me to go
the autumn moon lights my way ..."
zeppelin

i have this really pretty bra: its kelly green (not rizoli) and has primary color blue lace on the top of it.

no matter which song it is that i pick to put on, it makes me ( Read more... )

i like a song that creeps up your spine like a vine of english ivy on a time exposure camera.

(spindly guitar chords that float over the moanings of violins.
chimes like a faraway train whistle in the middle of the night.
tender base lines that are almost inaudible, that thump mildy.)

on friday night, we ate at the dry bar at unos and then mini golfed in deadham.
i was on a team with plugis and j-zucks and, although none of us did spectacularly, it was a really nice night of wild behavior.
i got to see li, who i havent seen since january.
that was nice, too.

saturday, i woke up and got ready for the beach.
andrea came over and we ( Read more... )

theyre playing a john lennon song on oldies that isnt "imagine ( Read more... )