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[everybeast]

..I have a really hard time opening up. Personally... emotionally. Through my entire life, I've never kept a personal friend for more than a few years and boyfriends even less. Once I was called "the guy" in the relationship. I've kept things to myself, broody, being the listener and never the talker

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Opening

[cmorrigu]

IMO, saying anything is better than saying nothing. When nothing is said, the mind can run wild with possibilities, some of which tend towards the extreme other side from reality. If something is said, then there is a focus around which a discussion can emerge that brings thoughts into the proper area. Questions, answers.... In the end, what is inside will at least peek out.

[ivoryisis]

Actually, you sound a lot like me (I'm your Facebook friend as well, Tania Rose on there.. just in case you didn't know who it was.. lol) since I'm basically the same way. In my head, I make perfect sense, I have a lot going on and it's a virtual carnival cornucopia of crap, but on the outside, I seem very reserved most of the time, quiet until I know someone well, withdrawn, possibly a bit awkward. I think it has a lot to do with my childhood, family, and personality type, all of which tend to show that I'm more withdrawn than others. I'm 28 now, I kind of took the plunge with a lot of relationships, etc. and have had some successful ones - I think it just takes getting older to make it easier to open up. If you don't push yourself, though, you won't grow or change, you will stagnate, and that's what I decided I had to do with myself.