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[everym0ment]

It has strangely been getting easier day by day, as each day goes on...And as I say that, honestly and truthfully...I suddenly feel sadness. I got home, I was fiiine...I started studying for history and BOOM! I realized why i couldnt study for history...Greg. He was such a big part of our history class. Dude...this is wrong. Its just fucked up. I

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[la_belle_ange]

Wow, Julz, I feel like you've read my mind. Everything you wrote about... I just understand it, you know? And I couldn't have phrased it better. About History, about being angry at God, about school, stress, everything... I'm really happy for you that you got a sign from him. I hope that helps make it easier to move on, whenever you're ready to do so.

[everym0ment]

Hey Meredith...Yea. I think we're all feeling this right now. Anyone who was close with Greg is feeling such ANGER! I've become less angry and more greatful...that's kind of what I'm going for right now...I saw lindsey friday night, she looks AMAZING and she's back to her CHIPPER self...it made me happy, b/c i know that Greg would want to see us ALL acting just like Linds...if she can be chipper, we all need to atleast TRY OUR VERY BEST!I'm seeing her in a couple days, as well...she's a close friend of mine, and it was hard for me to see her for a while, even though i visited her at the hospital, its now becoming easier, and i know that her and tyler need all of us...

Yea, the sign was really amazing...I cried, but felt relieved too, because i've been waiting for an answer, for something. I'm still so upset tho...its not real to me, yet...but i'll carry him with me always...stay strong! happy winter break and merry christmas!<3

[la_belle_ange]

Thanx, you too :) ♥

[wildwoodnjbabi]

Julez...wow like as i read what u wrote its like crazy, its like the feelings that i felt like that, just kinda came rushing back. i mean not in a bad way. i completely see where ur coming from, as much as someone on the outside can anyway. all of this is jus so scary, ya know, like u said, being worried about someone else dying, its like u just wanna hold onto them forever so that nothing happens to them. I'm so sorry about your cousin :-( thats so sad. even just like hearing that is scary to think about, cuz ive definitly had my share of people that i've known that have/had cancer.yeah, stuff definitly doesnt feel right, but friends are definitly the ones to lean on at times like these. i know people say god has a plan, and i believe that to a point, but when you cant see what the plan is, it really is just...ahhh it drives me crazy,and school doesnt help. honestly, if u wanna talk or something im here hun. im really glad we have gotten to know each other a lil better this year and i hope as the year goes on we get closer, cuz i

[everym0ment]

THanks soo much LIz! Wow...haha, that was such a sweet reply that you left for me...it made me smile...aww, i'm so glad that we're getting close too! You're a great girl, Liz...thanks for bein there, xoxo...we'll def get together soon! <3