right now, i can feel an air of depression slowly moving upon me. i'm moving slowly, i can't decide what i want to do, my head is heavy, i'm bored. its not good. i dont understand why. oh well ( Read more... )

just blah.

HMM.. today is my day off.. I < 3 CHERYL [not] BUT she is so stupid she gave me TODAY off. hah. I TRIEEDD :*( to get my MIKEY BABY to come up here, but he has STUPID CLASS tonite and can't.. grr ! he said maybe he'll come up on sat. before i go 2 work. I HOPE so ! hmmmm.. i can't decide whether i should go to the pool, the beach, or SHOPPING today ( Read more... )

i feel like a fuckhead >

I JUST REALIZED [AGAIN] WHAT I HORRIBLE PERSON I AM ( Read more... )

its gotten to the point now where when im depressed, im too lazy to even vent about it, i just want to go somewhere far far away, and just isolate myself. i started visualizing myself taking my arms and literally pushing my whole life away from me. it seems easy. i dont even want to write about exactly what the fuck it is thats killing me. just ( Read more... )

i miss my baby so much :*( i need to see him, smell him, touch him, feel him, be held by him, be kissed by him, on the forehead. damn. i miss my michael im sad :*(
and ps, just for the record, my damn tits are so big i have had backache for the past two days
damn these stupid things

my baby called me this AM <33
today..hittin up the beach?

today- BEACH DAYY ..AWESOME SUN =D ..i'm gunna be so black this yr ( Read more... )

TODAY MY BABY CAME UP TO SEE ME <33
AND HE SURPRISED ME AND HE BROUGHT HIS NEW TRUCK !!
AND WE WENT TO THE AMUSEMENT PARK AND I WON A CUTE LIL RACCOON<3
AND I GOT A CUTE LIL PINK SAND LOBSTER<3
AND I COULDNT KEEP MY HANDS OR MY LIPS ! OFF HIM ALL DAY AHH
I LOVE MY BABY MICHAEL HES MY DREAMBABIEBOY<33333333