Take a Chance Highway: The interwebs 2.6
Title: Take a Chance
Story: Highway: The interwebs 2.6
Fandom: RPS
Characters: Alan Davies and Robert Sean Leonard
Authors:
michelleann68and
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evila_ann
Prompt: 46. Destiny coclaim100
Word Count: 563
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Alan decides how to handle the “Robert” issue
Author's Notes:
Where it all began:
Big table of prompts is here:
Order of the story is here:
Previous Part
Dec 26th 2006
It’s late and I can’t sleep. Robert is with his family still, and it has really cut into our time. I am missing him something terrible.
Stephen hosted a party tonight for our last episode of the ‘D’ series of QI. So much has changed since we taped the show, I am not the same person. This episode was funnier than most, until Stephen had to go and bring up a little word: Destiny. Destiny is just not my thing, and Stephen took great joy in some winking and nudging about it in relation to the ‘secret’ relationship I may or may not be involved in. I was close to walking out, I just hate the teasing about this issue. I ended up being furious at Stephen for the rest of the evening, and made damn sure he knew.
I’ve never believed that there is one place or one person that I was destined to end up with, like a predestined card that someone is holding with a special name on it…Fuck, I’m not sure. Is there? Is this just all bullshit that I am again deluding myself to believe in again? I have tried to believe in people and trust them, and each time I am the one that ends up holding my dick in my hand as I get left behind. I have no idea what the fuck Robert really thinks of me and I really am tired of dancing around this issue, waiting for him to make the first move. It is time for me to stop the fucking whinging and moaning and finally do something about it.
This is all bollocks! I like Robert. A lot. Maybe I even love him. But I don’t know anymore. There is no easy answer. I know that I look forward to e-mailing him daily and that recently I’ve drug him into the 21st century using IM. Our conversations are mostly just small-talk, but I look forward to any chance of contact from him, crave it at times. But were we destined to be together? What that woman on the street had told me a few months back still makes me question my doubt.
I am not one to sit on my arse and wait for things to happen, for more cards to fall into place. I have to take action-it’s what got me to where I currently am in life. It’s time for me to show up and surprise Robert on New Year’s Eve. We both have a little time off and it would give us more than eight hours to see if this is real, if there is a connection that I suspect is there. I need to be ready if he does not want to pursue this - and in some ways, his rejection is what I am most worried about. I know he’s hesitant, but I think I want to, no NEED to, for my own sanity, push this and see what happens. I hope I am right.
One last item, the quote of the day when I logged in to check my e-mail was, ironically: "Destiny is not a matter of chance, it is a matter of choice; it is not a thing to be waited for, it is a thing to be achieved."
~William Jennings Bryan
I just can’t escape destiny…or so it seems.
Story: Highway: The interwebs 2.6
Fandom: RPS
Characters: Alan Davies and Robert Sean Leonard
Authors:
michelleann68and
evila_elf=
evila_ann
Prompt: 46. Destiny coclaim100
Word Count: 563
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Alan decides how to handle the “Robert” issue
Author's Notes:
Where it all began:
Big table of prompts is here:
Order of the story is here:
Previous Part
Dec 26th 2006
It’s late and I can’t sleep. Robert is with his family still, and it has really cut into our time. I am missing him something terrible.
Stephen hosted a party tonight for our last episode of the ‘D’ series of QI. So much has changed since we taped the show, I am not the same person. This episode was funnier than most, until Stephen had to go and bring up a little word: Destiny. Destiny is just not my thing, and Stephen took great joy in some winking and nudging about it in relation to the ‘secret’ relationship I may or may not be involved in. I was close to walking out, I just hate the teasing about this issue. I ended up being furious at Stephen for the rest of the evening, and made damn sure he knew.
I’ve never believed that there is one place or one person that I was destined to end up with, like a predestined card that someone is holding with a special name on it…Fuck, I’m not sure. Is there? Is this just all bullshit that I am again deluding myself to believe in again? I have tried to believe in people and trust them, and each time I am the one that ends up holding my dick in my hand as I get left behind. I have no idea what the fuck Robert really thinks of me and I really am tired of dancing around this issue, waiting for him to make the first move. It is time for me to stop the fucking whinging and moaning and finally do something about it.
This is all bollocks! I like Robert. A lot. Maybe I even love him. But I don’t know anymore. There is no easy answer. I know that I look forward to e-mailing him daily and that recently I’ve drug him into the 21st century using IM. Our conversations are mostly just small-talk, but I look forward to any chance of contact from him, crave it at times. But were we destined to be together? What that woman on the street had told me a few months back still makes me question my doubt.
I am not one to sit on my arse and wait for things to happen, for more cards to fall into place. I have to take action-it’s what got me to where I currently am in life. It’s time for me to show up and surprise Robert on New Year’s Eve. We both have a little time off and it would give us more than eight hours to see if this is real, if there is a connection that I suspect is there. I need to be ready if he does not want to pursue this - and in some ways, his rejection is what I am most worried about. I know he’s hesitant, but I think I want to, no NEED to, for my own sanity, push this and see what happens. I hope I am right.
One last item, the quote of the day when I logged in to check my e-mail was, ironically: "Destiny is not a matter of chance, it is a matter of choice; it is not a thing to be waited for, it is a thing to be achieved."
~William Jennings Bryan
I just can’t escape destiny…or so it seems.