unloaded lots of prezzies on piper today...

I feel lacking...

"maybe in another life...
I could find you there..."

I don't know what to do...
I feel so helpless...
I thought if she were here...
I could help...
But...
I can't...

"Leaving flowers on your grave...
Shows that I still care..."

I did something...
and she won't tell me what I did wrong...

*Sighs*

so now I write in my journal about how I expect to be yelled at in piper's...like the good ol' days O.o

ahh well off to read hers...

yeah I'm sick..but I'm getting better...confusing post for right now cause I'm pretty much kinda outa it... but hey cool ( Read more... )

She's got a new life...
A chance to be happy...
And yet...I can't even do that...
Make her happy...
My parents care for her like another kid...
I die...
she's free...
lyddie gets to go to my parents...

everything works when I die...

determined for death...
I just need the right time...

what do you do when you're girl friend doesn't believe you love her...?

just read piper's upcoming post...
I was sleepy...heh...
yeah...

*sighs*

I guess there's more I need to change...

Feel so worried ( Read more... )

she's in bathroom...taking out her contacts I think...
I feel kinda shitty...
feels like I can't make her happy..
oops here she is

sad ness ( Read more... )