hell. Lilli is four years old now. Jim and I are married. Moved out of the attle house. that really broke my heart. besides change, i'm still the same..crazy girl I have always been. im on facebook way too much. I lock myself in my house and all of my friends leave me here under glass...behind a computer screen...stuck where a hug is a few keyboard ( Read more... )

my grandfather died today.
I'm a fucking mess.
But that's how I always am when my heart gets broken.
He was one of the positive people in my life and I will always love him.
I'm so numb.

Lillian had the craziest spit up so far. I was covered in milky flem...ick. jim had to give her a bath and then I took a shower. Now i'm watching the ferrets, drinking a beer, and updating my journal. I really love being a mom. It is gross. Babies are gross. I guess humans are gross in general. I really didn't realize that until I became a mom. ( Read more... )

I love red bull and some other energy drinks...yum being able to get stuff done on four hours of sleep rules.....lol. I can't wait for father's day..I got JIm the best gift ever!! WOo! I'm so happy.Also I am very much in love....I'm so very lucky.

Yep. On Mother's day my lovely Lillian Marie got the heck outta my tummy!! Woo! She is wonderful. I love her so much. After an unexpected c section I am recovering. My wounds are almost healed, I'm almost ready to get my groove on......lol Jim is a wonderful daddy. So I got the best mother's day gift of all, my baby girl. I'm so taken by her, I can ( Read more... )

oi. I never knew how long the last two weeks of pregnancy could feel. Well now it's only like a week and a half....see how crazy...i'm counting half weeks ( Read more... )

It's almost time for Lillian to arrive!! Only a little over a month to go. She's head down, ready to go...She's healthy and wonderful and I love her so much. I started having contractions yesterday, my body is warming up Just like the weather outside. I've been taking time to enjoy tiny moments. Like five min. sitting out in the sun sipping some ( Read more... )

I'm so excited, the weather has been wonderful the past few days. I can't wait for the spring. We only have ten weeks left till the baby gets here!!! I am so excited. I can't wait to meet her so I can show her how much she is loved. I'm nervous about going into labor, but I am as ready as i'm gonna get. JIm wants to meet her now...lol he's so cute ( Read more... )

waking up at 130 in the am sucks. I gots heartburn and a baby moving around poking me in various spots..Yep. Woke up to pee ended up hurling, and now i'm typin in my live journal. Whew! Baby makin is hard. I've really been getiing into yoga. I love it. I'm gonna be doing yoga in the dammn delivery room to help the baby get into postion.Almost done ( Read more... )

It was nice to get out of the house. Jim and I went to toys r us to sign up for a baby registry. It was fun scanning things, It was a good time and really got me excited about the baby..cute little you knows, and sweet little awws, it was like being in a dream...if only we get all the stuff, i'd freak the fuck out. Such cute things. Like I said it ( Read more... )