Comments | evildrgo: The deal is real

evildrgo

The deal is real

Jun 22, 2014 18:50

I'm struggling with a depressive episode right now. It's actually bad enough that I'm considering meds... and I never consider meds. I just can't shake the feeling that I've screwed up my life despite all my accomplishments. Friends have pointed out that I'm not doing so badly my career and stature are fine, but i'm nowhere near where I want to be ( Read more... )

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silentq June 23 2014, 13:03:01 UTC

I hear you. Want to get dinner and/or hang out sometime this week?

evildrgo June 24 2014, 01:12:52 UTC

sure. tomorrow or wed is good for me

silentq June 24 2014, 11:38:40 UTC

Wednesday works a bit better for me, let's plan for then. Can we do 8pm or so?

iopha June 23 2014, 19:35:40 UTC

Yeah. I'm pretty close to dropping out of my PhD program. On a rational level I know I shouldn't; that I'd hate myself for it; that it would indicate a staggering, colossal failure and lost sunk cost; I'm so close---and yet. And yet I can't write the bloody thing, and I'm stuck in a depressive 'I'm a screw up' mood for weeks on end. If there was a magic pill...

evildrgo June 24 2014, 01:13:20 UTC

don't do it. just finish the thing and move on with life.

berecyntia June 24 2014, 13:13:04 UTC

My two cents. Take it for what it's worth.

Starting medication was the best thing I ever did; best thing D ever did, too. I don't ever find myself just in despair any more, my perspective on what I'm doing or not doing is much more balanced. He hasn't had a spell where he couldn't get out of bed for four days in almost a decade. I wouldn't ever go back.

It's a disease. A chemical imbalance in the body. If you were diabetic, would you refuse insulin and insist you could will power your way out? Try and think your way out of a thyroid malfunction? Of course not, that would be silly. Why is this bodily chemical imbalance something you don't want to treat?

evildrgo June 24 2014, 15:38:34 UTC

Been on them before. Helped me through a dark time before but with some consequences. my own experience disagree with diabetes analogy but that's me.

berecyntia June 24 2014, 15:59:47 UTC

Fair enough, everyone reacts differently.

_khimera_ June 27 2014, 14:30:09 UTC

I can relate to this quite a bit, right now, except for the part about feeling at home. You're a go-getter and you're strong and you will get passed this. I know it's a pain in the ass when you're down and people remind you that you're strong but it's true. I hope you feel better soon, chum.