And I know greg wouldn't, but now that I relize i was sexually abused by a boyfriend i actually believed I loved, kind of makes you wonder. What stops it from happening again?
Plus, i'm terrified around Greg now. I'm so nervous and just plain scared.
It is scary when you sort of hand someone your heart on a platter and say...ok take care of it! And then you blink and your heart is mangled...And at first you're really angry (HOW COULD YOU DO THIS? WHY DID YOU DO THIS? WHAT WERE YOU THINKING!? WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU?????) And then you get really sad-the longest phase usually-(Why? Will I ever heal? Will I ever move on? Why does it hurt so bad? Do I just want him back? I feel so alone...I feel so lost...) and then sloowly...you begin to realize that it's done. You can begin to breathe again...feel again.
And trust again.
And yeah, you're a little (ok...alot) scared that it will happen again, that your next boyfriend will abuse you. But I don't think Greg is capable of that. I gotta go bye
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I love you pam!
*love your odd sister that doesnt leave you out in the cold and rain for 20 minutes and then laugh at you*
p.s~ greg will take care of you, and he would NEVER ever be like Chris or Matt...or Ryan (but Ryan doesnt count)
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And I know greg wouldn't, but now that I relize i was sexually abused by a boyfriend i actually believed I loved, kind of makes you wonder. What stops it from happening again?
Plus, i'm terrified around Greg now. I'm so nervous and just plain scared.
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It is scary when you sort of hand someone your heart on a platter and say...ok take care of it! And then you blink and your heart is mangled...And at first you're really angry (HOW COULD YOU DO THIS? WHY DID YOU DO THIS? WHAT WERE YOU THINKING!? WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU?????) And then you get really sad-the longest phase usually-(Why? Will I ever heal? Will I ever move on? Why does it hurt so bad? Do I just want him back? I feel so alone...I feel so lost...) and then sloowly...you begin to realize that it's done. You can begin to breathe again...feel again.
And trust again.
And yeah, you're a little (ok...alot) scared that it will happen again, that your next boyfriend will abuse you.
But I don't think Greg is capable of that.
I gotta go bye
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