we spin and spin

[evilgeniuskoji]

 
I feel like I've lost track of who I am. Of the person I was a few months ago. I've lost hold of her.

I've changed. I don't know if I like it.

No, that's not true. I do like some of it. But some of the parts I lost...

I missed them. I missed that person who used to be here.

How much more will I change, I wonder.

Comments

[dream_of_kawaii]

I personally do not like change. Change is not always a good thing…

I miss my old self and my old life dearly… I don’t like where I am now.

But for you, maybe it is transformation onto greater things? Like a caterpillar transforming into a butterfly. You have to lose something to gain. Maybe it’s the start of something good and a new understanding of the world around you or a new stage in your life?

[evilgeniuskoji]

Heh, what an optimistic way to look at it.

I just don't like the me who no longers prioritizes writing, or reading. I miss the person a few months ago who often wrote, who spent time on this site making friends, talking to friends.

It's good to know you're still around. <3

[dream_of_kawaii]

Lol, I’m not good at optimism… but I can usually see both sides of something. :3
Maybe it will pass… perhaps you just need some time away from what you usually love to do to be able to return to it with more motivation? Or maybe you won’t… but then I’m sure you’ll find something else you’re as passionate about and enjoy to take priority. :)
I personally hope that one day you will return to writing. xP I miss reading your stories.
It was good to hear from you too. x

[evilgeniuskoji]

I really look forward to the day when I'm gripped with passion for something again. <3 I really do. I love the feeling.
You too, love. I promise I will try HARDER now to bring about more posts.

[gunplaytonight]

I think everyone goes through this at some point - I keep trying to resist the fact that I don't spend much time on here anymore, but every time I promise to post more it never happens so I guess I'll have to admit defeat.

A lot of changes work out for the best ♥

[evilgeniuskoji]

That's the problem I'm having too. I miss the part of me that used to go on here eagerly everyday, because it was so much fun back then. Now I feel like I've lost a bit of joy in my life.

[hereticpop]

changes are inevitable, aren't they. at least you know you're not staying in the same place. and then again, I guess we change less than we think we do, it's just that some parts go to sleep at times. like I wish I was better at keeping in touch with people, but somehow it never happens.
but perhaps you just needed a break and some distance. it's good to have some every once in a while. :)

[evilgeniuskoji]

Yeah, they are, but that doesn't mean I have to like them. Yeah, I don't like the parts that go to sleep for doing that. Makes me want to kick them awake.

I think I've had too much of a break from LJ and writing. =/ Is saddening.