Just like always, im scared i am starting to fuck up something that means so much to me, something that makes me truly happy. There is a guy that I really care about. I mean I think I love him, we just had our first fight and i hate it so much. It was over something that we didnt even need to fight about. I dont want to lose him, my heart cant take ( Read more... )

ok so it is like almost 7 in the morning. for like just about the past two hours i have been working on a blog for myspace. yes i was writing the whole time. it is really long but it is about things that i feel people really need to think about and understand. i know it will probably end up making some people mad or what not but i honestly dont ( Read more... )

Well it has been a while since i updated. A lot has been going on. lets see where to start.....

Ah yes, I had moved out and was living with my boyfriend, then we became engaged...broke up, i moved home, we got back together, a week later he broke up with me. I'm still friends with his family, still go and see them and hang out with them. Me and him ( Read more... )

OK SO IM STILL SOME WHAT HIDING JUST NOT AS BAD ANYMORE. I USE MYSPACE MORE NOW. SO IF YOU WANT TO KNOW WHAT ALL IS GOING WITH ME GO THERE AND READ MY BLOGS. I DONT FEEL LIKE POSTING THEM TWICE, I DONT SEE ANY POINT IN IT. IF YOU CANT TELL ALREADY JUST BY THE FACT THIS IS IN ALL CAPS, IM NOT DOING SO WELL RIGHT NOW. GO READ THE BLOG THAT SAYS " ( Read more... )

WOW!!!! Im still alive. Hehe! Anyways I havent been up to that much really. Just chillin with a new friend that is cool as hell. I spent all weekend over at her place. Lol! We are so much alike, but in a good way. We both are happy that we each have someone that we can talk to about certain things that no one else understands or has really been ( Read more... )

ok so yea i know i havent been on here much. really havent been home much and if i have ive been asleep. which is really what i did all last week, much need sleep at that. umm...lets see what else...still going through treatment from my car wreck, yea i know almost two months later and still going through treatment. though once i get released from ( Read more... )

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ok so yea its been a long ass time since ive updated ( Read more... )

OK SO YEA I AM ABOUT TO JUST SAY FUCK IT TO EVERYTHING. I am tired of this shit really I am. I hate the way I look, my body. I feel like people just put up with me to be nice. I feel so many different things that I'm not totally sure what I should feel. All these past few blogs have been about me being confused. Fuck every bit of it. Whatever ( Read more... )

go here http://www.myspace.com/kinky_ducky and read my blog that says "ummmm..."