So heath came over tonight. It was still awkward. Although, I think that things are never not going to be awkward like they once were. I am so sick of looking for the right guy and all that bullshit. Heath told me he's not sure if he is going to go on the meds or not. He told me he might just get sick and slip away. Either way, he is going to die ( Read more... )

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I had an adventure today. I woke up at 3am this morning and couldn't sleep until 7ish. I watched virgin suicides and thought it was a really good movie. I have heart's magic man stuck in my head. I then proceeded to dye my hair before I went back to sleep last night. I awoke again at 3pm, checked my e-mail and beautified myself then left for the ( Read more... )

So the last 12 hours has been strange in many ways. I never slept. Andrew stepped "out there" for a little while and I learned a lot about myself. I am actually tired and need sleep so I will add to this later.

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I start at starbucks on the 19th. I am so excited, really I am. I wanted to move to portland, go to school and work in a coffee house. I moved to Portland, went to school, and now I am going to work in a coffee house. It didn't turn out exactly the way I had planned but it's still happening. Eli has a new boyfriend, I am kinda jelous. I know, ( Read more... )

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I hung out with Heath tonight. It was really nice. We went to see the emily rose thing. It was pretty good. We went to indian food afterwards and I came home. It was a shift day. The days that seem like they are paralleling reality. The ones that seem a bit off yet you know that it's not really a dream it just feels like it. Yes, today was one of ( Read more... )

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