interesting weekend. good though. i still haven't talked to my mom about it, though i should and want to. we'll see. i may have made a new friend possibly and i was thinking about how she's a year younger than my sister and remembered my sister's friend lindsey who died suddenly this year. hadn't thought about her in a while. one of the anonymous ( Read more... )

i'm observing the high holidays for the first time this year. i never really paid much attention before because going to synagogue with a whole ton of people to pray when i could never remember which day was the new year and which day was the atonement just didn't make much sense, even in a learning more sort of capacity ( Read more... )

weirdest overheard conversation ever

condescending douchebag dude: you know that hitler thing? the holocaust and all that? same thing in cambodia.

i actually did a double take and looked back, dumbfounded. ah, people.

new rationale for sucking it up and just buying an ac unit or two and dealing with the electricity bill: being able to close the windows and sing along loudly to music without worrying about people walking by. not needing to wait till i rent a car to participate in this particular joy of life. and dancing. what was i thinking about roommates again?

today is my sister's birthday. it was also the last day of the grief group i was attending that was mostly sorta pointless, but i dunno, glad i made the effort anyway. we were doing these stupid art projects (god, i hate shit like that) and i represented how i feel right now as parallel or together based on a spark from some conversation. i was so ( Read more... )

i like shmitten kitten, but the sexist blog is fuckin awesome and this post about dating while feminist is great.

one of these days, years, decades i'll start writing. i'm increasingly confident that it will happen. i'm trying to do things that are in my control to stop/muffle feeling shitty from all the shit completely out of my control. i guess writing has always been, to me, just another thing that felt out of my control. i don't feel called to do it. i'm ( Read more... )

ok, i'll admit this. i kind of love basically everything about this shmitten kitten post, but i can't figure out what the fuck to do with it or how to tell people because do i really want that on my public, work related facebook page? i am so not with the public/private/living online times ( Read more... )

one of my sister's friends died last night. my mom called me and sounded pretty upset about it. her friend died of an asthma attack while waiting for the ambulance because she didn't have health insurance to get meds to better control her asthma ( Read more... )

apparently this is just the week for confirming stuff i try not to feel bad about ( Read more... )