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Just when I think I'm over him, I go through my monthly mood swings and end up right back where I started. Mainly I just think I'm afraid of being alone forever. But regardless, the backstreet boys know exactly how I feel...
"I Still..."
Who are you now?
Are you still the same
Or did you change somehow?
What do you do
At this very moment when I think of you?
And when I'm looking back
How we were young and stupid
Do you remember that?
Baby
No matter how I fight it
Can't deny it
Just can't let you go
I still need you
I still care about you
Though everything's been said and done
I still feel you
Like I'm right beside you
But still no word from you
Now look at me
Instead of moving on, I refuse to see
That I keep coming back
And I'm stuck in a moment
That wasn't meant to last
I've tried to fight it
Can't deny it
You don't even know
That I still need you
I still care about you
Though everything's been said and done
I still feel you
Like I'm right beside you
But still no word from you
Wish I could find you
Just like you found me
Then I would never let you go
though everything's been said and done
I still feel you
Like I'm right beside you
But still no word from you
All it takes is thinking about one good memory.. like when we lived in westwood and I would go to the dog park and when he got home from work he would come over and come up behind me and give me a hug. I miss feeling that comfortable around someone. I miss being loved like he loved me.. I miss waking up next to someone everyday, someone who cared about me. I felt so safe... when I think back, it's hard, cause all the bad memories have faded already. All I have left are the good ones. And I KNOW I'm better off now, or at least I try to know.. but I just cant shake this feeling.
I hate the way my hormones control me :(
On a more upbeat note- I got a car! And I'm halfway finished becoming a dog trainer. Just a couple more months!
"I Still..."
Who are you now?
Are you still the same
Or did you change somehow?
What do you do
At this very moment when I think of you?
And when I'm looking back
How we were young and stupid
Do you remember that?
Baby
No matter how I fight it
Can't deny it
Just can't let you go
I still need you
I still care about you
Though everything's been said and done
I still feel you
Like I'm right beside you
But still no word from you
Now look at me
Instead of moving on, I refuse to see
That I keep coming back
And I'm stuck in a moment
That wasn't meant to last
I've tried to fight it
Can't deny it
You don't even know
That I still need you
I still care about you
Though everything's been said and done
I still feel you
Like I'm right beside you
But still no word from you
Wish I could find you
Just like you found me
Then I would never let you go
though everything's been said and done
I still feel you
Like I'm right beside you
But still no word from you
All it takes is thinking about one good memory.. like when we lived in westwood and I would go to the dog park and when he got home from work he would come over and come up behind me and give me a hug. I miss feeling that comfortable around someone. I miss being loved like he loved me.. I miss waking up next to someone everyday, someone who cared about me. I felt so safe... when I think back, it's hard, cause all the bad memories have faded already. All I have left are the good ones. And I KNOW I'm better off now, or at least I try to know.. but I just cant shake this feeling.
I hate the way my hormones control me :(
On a more upbeat note- I got a car! And I'm halfway finished becoming a dog trainer. Just a couple more months!