so today possibly my ticket for burningman will come in the mail! so i'm super excited about it! i have been super busy getting ready making things painting things and helping other people as well with their projects! **which in my eyes makes it mine too* so many people to remember to find.. this year is going to be great! our camp is getting ( Read more... )

well it really is funny how i can call it before it happens yet still disappointed when it happens, why, if i already know/expect it to happen, some might say thats exactly why it happened, cause i expected it too, but to this i would say no, its a pattern and i can see it clearly. last night i had plans with YM and sadly they were canceled, the ( Read more... )

so today filled with restlessness i cleaned the house! what i've thaught was going to happen.. has, i feel relieved to know the truth even if i haven't heard it all yet, i am positive in my assumptions, i've been playing a fool yet keeping note, and my dear friend...i like how you believe i'm a fool, the easier i make the game the clearer your ( Read more... )

I remember one night ben and I were at a party and someone asked him if he was ready to give up the chase, and he said I don't know if I'm ready to stop chasing. I've thought about it alot these past few days and maybe that's something ben and I have in common, we both love the chase of love! as soon as were comfortable were bored.. I think that ( Read more... )

so i ended up hurting my hand pretty bad! i blacked out last night out of no where, i was just at home with my parents eating and then i went to the bathroom and passed out hit a few walls and tried to grab the door knob ended up slamming my hand between the door knob and the wall when i fell aginst it and i have huge bumps on my head!! i cant do ( Read more... )

things are great! or at least seem to be! i put my self in check the other night, i had taco bell and had a picnic with my sister and we walked around the park and we would both stop at the same time and smoke and then start to walk again and exhaling at the same time! i turned to spit and in the middle of making the effort i was surprised by a ( Read more... )

i had the same gross dream last night, that my bridge piercing was infected and swollen and just nasty! i see his face, but its actually me... its weird.. i see his hands but really they were mine, it was really weird... anyhow i woke up a swollen throat, i knew this was the sign of a hard day, i was right.. sad thing is it's only 11 am, i'm going ( Read more... )

oh wow! today i had a strange interview. he said he would love to utilize my typing skills but is afraid he can't with my colorful hair and metal in my face.. so he will have to utilize my hands....with his fruit.. i'll be making edible arrangements! in the back a part of the production team! and to be honest i only wanted to go to culinary school ( Read more... )

another up date.. so i thought and i thought and i decided finally that ben and i are better off as friends for now and ever! which is exciting! today i went over to his house and we watched grandmas boy or whatever it was FUNNY ( Read more... )

so last night i had the wonderfulness of awkwardness! sometimes i like the tension but its starting to be more apparent. anyhow this weekend was simple, ben and i went out to eat and i got this salad and ordered it without heart of palms and olives but it came with like 4 heart of palms and i ate it and tried it and decided that i shouldn't order ( Read more... )