more meme

[ex_espadarte716]

Yep. Another meme.

This time, post an anonymous comment about me. It can be anything, anything you've ever wanted to say to/about me. Not logging IPs obviously, and I'm not gonna track you down or hit you up about it if I figure out who you are. I may comment back though.

Comments

[anonymous]

You're awesome.

[ex_espadarte716]

um, thanks!

[anonymous]

No problem. I speak the truth.

[ex_espadarte716]

LOL. ok.

[anonymous]

I am always scared you hate me.
Most of the time I'm convinced you do.

[ex_espadarte716]

I'm not sure who this is, though I have an idea. In any case, assuming you're not a lurker, and you are on my f-list, it is not possible that I hate you. I hate very few people, and they certainly wouldn't be on my f-list.

I am mortified to think that I may have done something (or, not done something) that would make you think I hate you. I think sometimes it takes me a while to understand how to talk to people, and, assuming we've never met offline, which is probable, then maybe it seems like I'm being rude or similar.

I'll say again. I do not hate you. But I fear you won't believe me. "It is so difficult to understand people who speak the truth."

[anonymous]

-_- I think you most probably have guessed the right person.

I seem to have a radioactive signal on most of my messages, people can automatically guess who I am... Probably because I'm a bit of a melodramatic emo bitch :D. Or, as my mum says, a bolshy little git, but that's another story...

What it was, I think, was that we grew distant after... february? I think that's when it was. After all that happened there, and people seemed to hate me, after I lost it. I'm quite paranoid, and little things all add up to one big thing...

But... yeah. That made me feel better.

[ex_espadarte716]

I actually know exactly when it was. And if you want to talk about it, we can, on IM or e-mail, since for all intents and purposes we are still anonymous. But only if you want.

And it wasn't because I hate you, or ever did. There was something that happened, and I didn't know you well enough to know how to respond, and for all I know it could have been bad, really bad, and there was nothing I could do. And I couldn't deal with that. And we had a couple misunderstandings, probably after that.

But no, I don't hate you. So spend your energy trying to convince yourself of that, k?

[anonymous]

I think you're great and I fear that you find me rude and annoying.

[ex_espadarte716]

Thank you, and I don't. I have no idea who you are because I'm looking over my f-list and trying to find the rude annoying people, and I'm beginning to think everyone who's commented here is a random lurker, because no one has ever been rude to me here, and no one has ever been annoying. No one. Ever. Including you.

[anonymous]

You are the most supportive person I know, you always know just what to say.

[ex_espadarte716]

That means a lot to me, that you feel that way; I frequently feel like I can't form the right words for anything.

Thank you.

[anonymous]

I feel like I am too immature to you. I wish I was older so I could relate to you better and it makes me irrationaly jealous of other people who can relate to you because of their age. It really irritates me that I'm doing this now instead of later because maybe then, you'd like me better.

[anonymous]

You're also the only person I get jealous over when you have other friends. It's so stupid but true. And I don't even know why I feel that way. Damn, I'm going to feel like a fool if you know who I am.

[ex_espadarte716]

Don't. You're not foolish; it's irrational, because I DO have lots of friends, and I love them all, so much, special, just for them. But at the same time, it's not foolish... that doesn't make sense...
I know I love you, even if I'm not quite certain who you are. I wish I could reassure you better.
*holds tight*

[theacademylove]

thank you beth!