I don't know whether to feel sorry I took you away from that beauty, or happy for what you've found now, or... I'm just glad it worked out. If my wish was okay... then... I'm glad.
Dying... hah... I guess I'll never do it, as a Mana. How could I have been so blind... Sulpher... of course a Mana can't die.... But... I guess I don't need to. What you see... I think I can touch it, too, just in a different way. I think... I can be there... whenever I want... if I only let go.
But I guess I'm like you, in a way. There are things I have to do... so I can't just let myself go. But... I feel it, Jess. I understand.
This is... even with everything that's gone on... this is the best graduation I ever could have imagined....
Don't be sorry, Vayne. For one thing... if I'd died for good, I wouldn't have been able to come back and tell people about it. And that seems like a small thing, but I want people to know. People who are afraid of it, people who don't get it.
And really, it's not like I've lost anything. I'll have this, eventually. I just have to keep on here, for a little while.
And with friends like you, that's still going to be fun. ^_^
Re: If she reads this...exceedinglifeOctober 10 2009, 08:27:12 UTC
...I'm kind of sad, too, that he felt like he had to do that over something I didn't mind. I didn't even know who he was at the time, and it's not like I ever saw him again... but if I could have conveyed that message somehow...! He was the one who inspired my alchemy... he was the one who inspired my everything... I'm who I am today because of him. And I only, only wish he could have known that.
I... but I didn't mind what she did, either. In a way, it was a good experience; it inspired me to write this.... So... I think she was wrong, but... it's like Vayne said. No more hate. No more retaliation....
Re: If she reads this...thewishfireOctober 10 2009, 08:49:30 UTC
...I know. But... Jess is really okay, and she didn't harm you or Flay, and... and... it'd really only hurt me more, if harm came to her in return.... Every time this cycle gets prolonged... it just weighs on my heart more... I just want it to end.... So... whatever we can do to stop that... whatever we can do, I believe in that....
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Dying... hah... I guess I'll never do it, as a Mana. How could I have been so blind... Sulpher... of course a Mana can't die.... But... I guess I don't need to. What you see... I think I can touch it, too, just in a different way. I think... I can be there... whenever I want... if I only let go.
But I guess I'm like you, in a way. There are things I have to do... so I can't just let myself go. But... I feel it, Jess. I understand.
This is... even with everything that's gone on... this is the best graduation I ever could have imagined....
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And really, it's not like I've lost anything. I'll have this, eventually. I just have to keep on here, for a little while.
And with friends like you, that's still going to be fun. ^_^
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Not that she doesn't have it coming. Or have something coming, anyway, for what she did.
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I... but I didn't mind what she did, either. In a way, it was a good experience; it inspired me to write this.... So... I think she was wrong, but... it's like Vayne said. No more hate. No more retaliation....
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