Crestfallen
No one listens to me anymore.
I'm really unhappy right now. I'm pretty depressed and I have been for a while. My great grandmother died on Monday and my relationship with Sarah is not working out right now. I haven't gotten any good news in quite a long time now.
You know people do those memes talking about how their year was. Mine was terrible. This has been the single worst year I have had in a long time. It has been pretty damn bad in most ways. I am finding it difficult to come up with any positive moments.
I'm strung out - stressed out. I'm stretched too thin. I feel like I'm giving way in all the ways I shouldn't and I just don't know what to do with myself.
But, still, nobody listens to me anymore.
Most times I'm around people the interactions are merely getting at surface issues. Or are about external issues. When I try to express how I'm feeling (specifically, now, being sad and upset and angry) there never seems to be anyone there. Everyone's too busy with their own lives to listen to mine.
This is why I say I never have any friends. I don't care about movie watching. I can do that with anyone. Who really cares about me? I don't really know.
Nobody listens to me anymore.
I sometimes have things to say too.
I'm really unhappy right now. I'm pretty depressed and I have been for a while. My great grandmother died on Monday and my relationship with Sarah is not working out right now. I haven't gotten any good news in quite a long time now.
You know people do those memes talking about how their year was. Mine was terrible. This has been the single worst year I have had in a long time. It has been pretty damn bad in most ways. I am finding it difficult to come up with any positive moments.
I'm strung out - stressed out. I'm stretched too thin. I feel like I'm giving way in all the ways I shouldn't and I just don't know what to do with myself.
But, still, nobody listens to me anymore.
Most times I'm around people the interactions are merely getting at surface issues. Or are about external issues. When I try to express how I'm feeling (specifically, now, being sad and upset and angry) there never seems to be anyone there. Everyone's too busy with their own lives to listen to mine.
This is why I say I never have any friends. I don't care about movie watching. I can do that with anyone. Who really cares about me? I don't really know.
Nobody listens to me anymore.
I sometimes have things to say too.