CaCHING! Boyfriends in the bank.

It's like I'm being physically and emotionally abused. My body is sore, my brain is beginning to melt into mushroom soup. I don't know who I am right now ( Read more... )

I don't know. My horse is lame. Probably won't be sound again. There goes all my life plans.

I'm going to Gilroy to meet a hot boy today. I guess I'm excited. Too wrapped up in my own bubblewrap of self-loathing to allow any sincere emotions to flow, though.

There is a horse names Flow at Oakridge.

Ok bye bye.

Ok this is my nerd post ( Read more... )

I know I can do it. I know how to do it. I get confused so easily. All my words come out wrong. My thought process does not connect with my brain. All my knowledge is lost in a second. All it takes is an instant, and I am lost in a void of nothing. I know I'm smart. I know it's in there. I was always passing with flying colors in school, I ( Read more... )

Insisting on creating a false paranoia of reality, for the sole purpose of embracing one's abundant loathing ( Read more... )

Is it possible to lose someone you don't even have? Because my worthlessness is pushing him away. Before we even got anywhere. And it's really pissing me off.

With your cherry lips and golden curls
You could make grown men gasp when go walking past
And in your hot pants and high heels
They could not believe that such a body was for real

Uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh......................

It's amazing how the tiniest, most insignificant things turn your whole life upside down. Being vulnerable is the most painful feeling in the world. I've had enough heartache for 10 lifetimes. Am I really doomed to live alone the rest of my days? I'm so afraid of getting hurt, it's unhealthy ( Read more... )

I'm fucking tired of this. I don't know how much more I can take. Who the fuck am I? What the fuck is wrong with me?
I hate everyone and everything and your mother. I'm done. I'm just fucking done.
Don't call me. Don't email me. Leave me the fuck alone.