I know I never update this thing, but what the heck, I got it so I might as well use it. Things have been pretty hectic over break, and I still have more to get done before monday. Thanksgiving was really fun, my family actualy got along with each other (which is rare) and they all got along with Mattie's family as well, so that turned out good ( Read more... )

hi my name is mattie, alans new (well kinda new girlfriend) i read his last journal and it was depressing so i'm gonna type him a good one.

the sex is great

BLARG

Well, it has been some time since I've updated. So many things have changed. I don't know what to think about anything anymore. I don't know why it happened, but I just needed to be on my own for a little while. I really hope me and Joz can still talk and be friends. I need to still be able to talk to her, I still love her, I just needed this ( Read more... )

so tired, everyday. need more sleep. so confused about everything. no order, nothing in my control. what now. don't know what i need. what do i need? somebody save me.

So I got a new car. Much coolness. Its really sweet, I am already in love. Its a black Suzuki Forenza. The weather makes me mad, I got it yesterday and the stupid snow already made it look like its all dirty. Psh. I'll get you snow...On a side note...pawrisktaker whoever this is so stole my lj icon!! there is no way he just found my that pic ( Read more... )

Why are days so hard? I should actually be pretty happy. Yesterday dad told me that I wasn't getting a convertible anymore, bummer. Then we go to a couple dealerships and look at possible new cars. Lookin around, lookin around, wow, this really cool car pops up, I'd never really heard of it before. So I'm getting a Suzuki Forenza. It's ( Read more... )

FlyingLemur17: alan, one day i hope i can find the words to explain all of this to you. it's just this is something i need to do. it's like a test for myself. I need to know how strong i am i need to know i can make it. i need to feel strong by myself because when i do, i'lll be a better person but in the mean time, please know that i love you ( Read more... )

Tonight. Well, I guess you could say it was quite possibly the worst night of my entire life thus far. I've never before given of myself what I gave to Joslyn. She was my everything. It's all gone. This time it's gone for good. I don't even know what to think. I think back on everything and...I can't it hurts too much. All the borring ( Read more... )

Well, last night was fun. Hang out at Amanda's, play DDR, euchre, Walleyball, Megan's house, then spent the night at Amanda's. I don't think i got to sleep till like 6:30am last night and i got woken up at like 12!!! I probably need more sleep. Doubtful I'll get it. 2 Bottles of Green Apple Jones last night, Jones Soda makes me happy. I hope ( Read more... )