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i face a screaming sky.
long live the black.
the sweeping waves neverending.
steady my hands reach out for you.
but you're never there.
closer to nowhere.
it's a figment of a lie...
this is pretention.
look at me.
as my heart engulfs in a searing flame.
i'll throw it to the sky for all to see it ablaze.
The guilty sun recends into twilight.
for every breath i breathe,
all the false hopes and expressions.
all exhaled.
to awaken once again,
to feel those tender limbs.
i just think it.
it's in my mind.
if you were to think of me as a saint,
would you let me die a martyr?
if you were to see me as a sinner,
would you let me lie another?
you will see.
all these dreams, all the weights are the same.
i don't want an apology.
just want you to explain.
as you lay your head on mine..
can you tell me why it can feel so right,
and so fake.
i hold this in deep.
far from this.
i'll break into tommorrow.
i will break into what i see in the truth.
keeping from breathing yet again...
as tommorrow dies.
if i see your face...
i'll either tear it apart, as i seethe.
or shudder at how it makes me weak.
so how was that? considering i haven't wrote in months...