i can breath again days seem easyer now and life is alot more fun to be in. the light when i walk outside no longer has a wrathful hurt to my eyes but now has more of a hugging warmth on my face. And the lonlyness that once hung over my head like the clouds on a cludy day has been broken too reveal a single ray of sunlight eluminating my world...

alrighty, its five in the mornin` and im not asleep sadly. for some reason i cannot fall asleep beacse when ever i close my eyes i think of tomarrow and how soon it will be until i see you, err today rather. Anyway its driving me fucking nuts i cant wait. so i figure ill lay awake write on my lj and lusten to postal service until i pass out due ( Read more... )

i cant stop
thinking of you
im only happy
when i dream aboout you
and when i wake up
ur the first thing on my mind
and when i sleep
ur last thought in my head
without you
im abanded in my darkness
and with you
ur light keeps my world lit

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Mother Fuck i wanted to go do somthing today but nooooooo.... My dad wants to "see" me, lol!! since when did he ever give a fuck about me let alone want to "see" me. I bet its some sorry attempt to patch our relationship together but it isnt going to work cause i bet he gets me into some heated conversation about morals and ends up yelling at me ( Read more... )

Zero explains me all to well
i think i should change my name to zero

sleep deprivation
AND IM STILLL RUNNING
nothing can stop me
im inFUCKINGvicible
ill take you all
i scream minlessly
figures form from the shadows around me
i am scared what to do
i think i will write
life is like a dream
and dreams are a distant thing
but tonight ill dream for you and only you

wondering....
looking at the ground
the machine passes me by
my dream fades away
and so does my mind
neral receptorcites decaying
only to be replaced with space
nothing to my life anymore
memories rememberd in discrace
say fuckit three times at the first day of every moth
and only one thing is correct i will be alone in my world forever