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[expectremorse]

[When the feed clicks on there's a pair of hands on the camera. He's wearing a very baggy white undershirt with mussed up hair. All of his clothes are too big after all. He Got what was coming to him. after picking on small children

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[expectremorse]

This big guy with a big nose and black hair and a black graduation robe jumped me! He tied me up and made me drink something and now I'm...I'm...

You've got to do something! You've gotta find the guy!

[thegooddrjones]

[Oh damn it.]

It's going to be alright, Hoffman. I'll request you some clothes.

[expectremorse]

[sniffle]

[more sniffle]

So I was a jerk. So I was a jerk. So what? How come everybody else gets to be a jerk and not me? What makes everyone else special?

[He wraps himself deeper in his blanket. Then.]

[Private]

You see how I look? You see how I was picked on? And it wasn't just cause of that. The kids picked on me and my dad picked on me. Then he hit me and hit my mother and...

And you know what? I'm fucking fine see? Just fucking fine!

[translation: He has just as many issues as everybody else so people should feel sorry for him.]

[Then a horrible thought occurs to him and his eyes go wide] Oh no. I got so panicked that everybody saw. Everybody saw!

[thegooddrjones]

Hoffman, you attacked a child, that's not fair. I'm sorry, but it's not. I know you did it, because I treated him afterwards.

[Private]

Hoffman, take a deep breath. You need to calm down. In through your nose and out through your mouth.

I've asked the Admiral for clothing, you should have it shortly.

[expectremorse]

He attacked. me. first. And then got off with what? Another slap on the wrist like Amanda? [His voice rises] That's not fair!

[Private]

[sniffling. on the verge of sobbing]

No. No that's not-that's not going to work because-because people saw and now they're going to come after me.

I'm going to die. I'm going to die! and other people saw. People saw. S-

People saw [then he starts to sob. After a minute or so he snarls] I hate this! I was a whiny kid, I never did anything valuable!

[thegooddrjones]

No, Mark, he was punished. He was punished for what he did. He was punished, and just because you didn't see it doesn't mean it didn't happen.

[Private]
They're not coming after you because you're weak, they're coming after you because of the things that you did because you can't control your temper and attacked people. People aren't going to forget that simply because you were angry.

Mark, has anyone ever put you on antidepressants?

[expectremorse]

[How the hell is he going to explain that he needs people to suffer just as much as he has for everything he's ever done? His looks a little ashamed.]

[Private]

...I..

[He flinches at that] What? ....no. Why?

Private.

[thegooddrjones]

Because I think it may help with some of the anger issues.

Private.

[expectremorse]

[He looks ready to cry. Then he growls] I don't need anything. You hear me? I don't. 'M fine.

[He breathes deep] ...Look. I will explain okay? I can explain why I got so mad! Just-

You really think I need that stuff?

Private.

[thegooddrjones]

Mark, you're not fine. Clearly you're not fine. You threatened children. I don't think you'd normally have done that. I saw what you did to a skinny and underweight twelve year old's arms and throat.

You need a tool, something to help you when you get so angry. I think you need several tools in your belt.

Re: Private.

[expectremorse]

[He swallows] ...I never needed them before. They would have kept me out of the academy. They tried to give them to me when I was a kid-at least something to keep me from crying. I...went to therapy instead.

[He's thinking of a lot then. Paul. In his trap. Paul in his trap after he slit his wrists. He shivered.]

I was angry. I was really mad.

Private.

[thegooddrjones]

Mark, you've undergone loads more stressors here than you had at the academy, and you need some additional help. What these things are, really, is additional help.

I know you were angry, everyone can see you were angry, but what you need is some control over your temper.

Private.

[expectremorse]

[It's a bit too much. After months of stressors and taunting. Things he'd learned and things he didn't want to learn Then this he starts to cry.]

I-I don't w-want to hurt kids! My dad was a hor-hor-horrible drunk and h-he hi-hit my mother and he-he hu-urt me and then one day he-he go-got drunk and he killed her. He hit her and hit her and he killed her and then my sister died and now I'm here on this stupid boat with n-no-nobody!

I did everything I was t-told to do and everybody still h-hates m-me and S-S- doesn't li-like me and Am-manda's crazy and I d-did everything I was supposed to do and...and...

I'm not my dad! I'm not my dad! I would n-never...

[And he bursts into tears. Loud, spoiled, tears.]

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Private.

[thegooddrjones]

Mark, you need to take several deep breaths and calm down, yeah? You're not alone here, but you need to do some serious looking into your behavior.

You hurt Mozenrath. I treated him after you hurt him. You were worried that he wasn't being punished enough, and you were angry. When you're angry you do things you don't mean.

But you still did them.

Re: Private.

[expectremorse]

[Deep shuddering sob. Then he takes a deep breath and another.]

He was a fucking jerk! What did he have to do? How was he punished? "It's okay to pick on the serial killer who gives a shit?"

It's not just that, it's every single flood I'm the bad guy. I'm the one who gets hurt and the one who gets punished. Amanda took out my eye and what she just...I don't even know what happened to her! And then I was in that damn wild west port and I was a criminal and nobody cared! Everybody else got to have a choice and I was left in the lurch.

And now this.

[He wipes at his eyes] And you want me to take drugs.

[His lip trembles] I don't want to take drugs. That's Amanda that's not me.

Private.

[thegooddrjones]

What he had to do is between him and his warden. He was given punishment, I assure you. He provoked you and was punished for it.

Mark, you were the one who let your tempter get away from you during this flood. You were younger, and you were the one who threatened children. The flood changed your age, not your personality.

I don't know what happened with Amanda, that's not my job and I don't know what Sarah did. I'm sure she did something.

I was in a coma in that breach, so I don't know what happened, honestly.

Do you have a problem with a diabetic taking insulin?