AUGUST TENTH
Following my rejection of your invitation to begin a relationship, many of our friends attempted to solicit advice on the situation. They proposed a variety of reasons for why I would turn you down, ranging from my fear of the unknown to my inability to pursue a mystery that had already been solved. You yourself brought to my attention the possibility that in several years a baby would ruin my career and therefore shaped my answer. I cannot say any of these were the sole reason I passed on your request. Yet following my reply, I've noticed striking similarities in each hypothesis; their foundations were build upon my own selfish desires and none of them involved any lack of interest in you. Finding this odd, I resolved to spend the weekend investigating this issue- however, as we both know, this place had plans otherwise.
Now that I have thankfully returned to my normal state I would like to share some of my still early analysis with you. There is no current outbreak of mandatory honesty, however be assured what I have to tell you is the truth.
I told you from the beginning that I have very little idea how to be a 'girlfriend', or how to accept any variety of confessions. Certainly I already broke a rule regarding time constraints based on an answer. Also some people have made it clear to me with their disdain and disappointment that a rejection was fundamentally the 'wrong' answer in our scenario. I also accused you of only wishing to hear an affirmative response, prompting an escalation of our disagreement last week. I would like to apologize for my earlier behavior and for the difficulties such an argument has caused.
Let me stress- These cases are difficult, and life in this place often makes our time in Inaba look like days of leisure. Undoubtedly our final year in school will prove additional hurtles for us to surmount as well, so it is unlikely I will have much time in the future for a relationship of any kind.
But the truth is I find my earlier rejection of you entirely abhorrent and feel as though the time since then has been a thousand times more frustrating and painful for me than the month I spent debating an answer. I have no intention of retracting my word as it would make me appear fickle and in-genuine, however if you would ever be interested in seeing someone in a setting other than a platonic relationship I would like to ask you to consider me again at that time. Until then I will maintain a low profile regarding my feelings as to not cause you any more inconveniences than I already have.
Please feel free to take your time with your response as I did.