life seems to be a series of people coming together and falling apart. intertwining and unraveling ( Read more... )

what a bizarre weekend. friday night i just slept. well after a few hours of torturing myself. weird paniky feelings that wouldn't subside. sitting all alone in my house and getting angry for no reason. i didn't want to go out. i didn't want to be alone. i didn't want to smoke. i didn't want to drink. i didn't want to play guitar. i didn't want to ( Read more... )

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so i haven't updated in a really long time. but this whole thing with my face has me feeling pretty reflective, or perhaps it's the pain pills. anyway, my face is almost back to normal. just a black eye and some scratches, and a big gross hole inside my lip that's all festered and yellow looking. all the swelling is pretty much gone as of this ( Read more... )

i have a very unfamiliar face. it's strange to look absolutely different. i bet if i put on a wig i could walk past my friends and they wouldn't know me. i want my old face back. i never realized how much i liked it until now.

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i just had the thought that maybe people are no more than thier actions as far as everyday life is concerned... your motivations matter, but they aren't as telling as your actions. anywho so i started thinking that perhaps if i studied my actions as much as my thoughts i'd gain some insight to myself ( Read more... )

wow. saturday night was a really, really, really good thing. forget cassettes was absolutely amazing. it was almost as though they were too big for the room. i had chills the whole time... i just watched back the tape and salena did such a great job with it. there are some really cool parts on there, ecspecially the back and forth "ball of ( Read more... )

things i should remember about churchill ( Read more... )