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She's not dead. She can't be dead. Because if Greta's dead, then...
But she wouldn't be! Because that wouldn't work! But it's been so long now, if this was a prank she'd be back by now and I don't know and--
Greta if you can read this which you can't because it's private and you're gone but please, please don't be dead because I don't think I can deal with this again, I'm not dealing with it now and I'm tired and scared and unhappy and I want to--
I want this all to go away.
Even though I'm being selfish because I'm sure Greta feels much worse being dead than I do being here, but no because death is painless after a while but this, this...
I hate you, Greta. I never wanted to go through this again and I hate you. Are you reading this?
I BLOODY HATE YOU.
Not again...
But she wouldn't be! Because that wouldn't work! But it's been so long now, if this was a prank she'd be back by now and I don't know and--
Greta if you can read this which you can't because it's private and you're gone but please, please don't be dead because I don't think I can deal with this again, I'm not dealing with it now and I'm tired and scared and unhappy and I want to--
I want this all to go away.
Even though I'm being selfish because I'm sure Greta feels much worse being dead than I do being here, but no because death is painless after a while but this, this...
I hate you, Greta. I never wanted to go through this again and I hate you. Are you reading this?
I BLOODY HATE YOU.
Not again...