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yesterday after i updated about dance
i went over to mariah's at like 9
i fixed her dvd player and her tv
then julie and amanda came over
we made chocolate lates. which ended up being an adventure
then we sat around the kitchen table and drank our lates.. discussing politics. haha
we went on mariah's roof and layed out blankets
we WERE going to stargaze and enjoy nature
but then we brought out her laptop and started watching princess diaries
amanda had to leave
then me and julie and mariah just stayed on the roof
julie's feet were reaching over the gutter.. and she kicked a like wind chime or somtehing and it started going really loud and it scared us.. me and mariah thought someone was climbing up the house to get us. so we went inside at like 12
my dad came and picked me up
i came home then went over to someones house for a while. dont remember much. came home and went to sleep.
ive got soo many bruises from dance.. this one roll thing we do on our shoulder like a back somersault but your legs are straight and you end on your stomach. yea it hurts. i have like 10 bruises from it.. on my leg, hip, butt, shoulder, and neck
so today at church. i saw joe from the balcony.. and i went down to the gathering area to check the eucharistic minister schedule for next week.. the table with that schedule is about hmm.. 15 feet away from where he was sitting with his family. and i knew he was watching me.. and then i looked at him for like .5 seconds and he was starring at me. ahhh it really messed me up. i miss him so bad. but i cant just randomly start talking to him again.. we've been through a ton of shit and saying we hate eachother and we're done with eachother but i dont know. ever since he got back from church his away message has been "dont feel like talking much today" and i dont know if i should talk to him cuz 1. he doesnt feel like it 2. what am i supposed to say and 3. do i really wanna get dragged into that again? im so confused. adviiceee?