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today we got out at 11:54
got ready for pictures
then it was about 3 oclock (my first pic was at 3:40) and my mom came home suddenly and yelled at me for being ready and not having lizzie ready (her first pic wasnt till 4:30) and i tried to explain that she could get her ready there for about an hour before her picture and my picture was first and umm she said we arent leaving til lizzies ready or else i can walk. and i started screaming at her annddd i supposedly got grounded but what can i be grounded from? i have dance all day tomorrow and sunday i have to go to church and shit. whatever
pictures went alright.. there was a lot of schedule changing because mariah, grace, and theresa had to be at pius cuz theyre in the musical.
i forgot my shirt for hip hop lol so debbie was looking for a shirt that was the same colors as the others and she saw that Mariah's mom shirt was blue like the hip hop shirts so so made me wear that.. lol it was like a long sleeve sweater from chicos! lol i had to like roll up the sleeves and tie the back cuz it was huge. so i like hung on lirds back in the picture so you couldn't see that my shirt wasn't the same as everyone elses but so you could still see i was wearing blue and you could see my face. lol oh well even if it looks bad.. its good memories.
came home and my parents went to the appreciation dinner at matthias
talked to laura and we decided we were going to do something
james went over to justin's and they wanted to meet up with me and laura
laura came over
my mom was liek youre grounded you cant go to a boys house. but we went anyway
we walked to alcott then we hung out there with Justin, James, and Andy
rode justins scooter and dropped my cell phone 039203 times
then we went to justins house and i saw gracie!! aww shes so adorable. im so glad she remembers me lol cuz i havent seen her in so long
we watched movies and stuff.... ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh........ confusing shit...
i was really tired.. i had a red blanket rapped around me and a red sweatshirt on with my hood up and james said i looked like little red riding hood
i wrestled justin anddd james picked me up and threw me at a couch
umm idk.. joey came home from a dance and he was bored and he was online looking at "stupid things to do with a stun gun" lol..
umm justin has the cutest siblings ever
gracie.. aww she made me this liek card. on the front it says "Ilen I have ben you ilen". in the inside it says "for yoim, ylotim. farm grace" then theres a picture of a big tall person and it says "ilen" over me and then a little girl and it says "grace" over her. lol and then on the back theres a giant heart. awww i love her.
liz grams came over to justins.. i missed her
we finished watching meet the fockers......... ahhhhhhhh
justin's dad gave me and laura a ride back here
laura left.
now im here.
tomorrow
hip hop 1-2
coming home and getting ready and packed for the wave game
us cellular arena by 6
practicing and getting ready
game starts at 730
broadcasted live on espn. we perform sometime between the quarters. idk when. . i think between 1st and 2nd
then staying and hanging out with the girls.. me val and emily are getting refills for our tiki cups!! watching shock perform
wont be home till late
im sooo fucking tired. i kept falling asleep at justins then justin would wake me up.. or james would throw something at me. i got no sleep this week and im so stressed out. this week so so fucking slow. i have no energy left for anything, but tomorrow's another huge huge huge huge day. i need a break from everything, i need time to catch my breath before i jump into the next huge event. im burning myself down and draining myself and pretty soon im gonna like die out. next weekend i guess im chaperoning the matthias jr high dance? i didnt know that.
i can't get him off my mind
and if youre bored too..
Your gender:: female
Straight/Gay/Bi:: straight
Single?: yeah
If not, do you want to be?: -
Birthdate:: December 31, 1989
Your age:: 15 1/2
Age you act:: Usually younger
Your height:: 5'1"
Eye color:: green hazel
Happy with it?: yeah
Hair color:: brown
Happy with it?: i love my hair long.. but i need a new like hair style. umm the colors okay but i kinda wanna dye it all to my natural hair color again czu right now its like 3 different colors.
Do You...
Smoke?: no
Do drugs?: yeaaa :-\
Read the newspaper?: not unless its something i want to know about
Pray?: yea
Go to church?: yea
Talk to strangers who IM you?: sometimes
Sleep with stuffed animals?: yea
Take walks in the rain?: yea
Talk to people even though you hate them?: only if its in person and i like pretend to be nice then turn around and gag
Drive?: no
Like to drive fast?: i will
Would or Have You Ever?
Liked your voice?: sure?
Hurt yourself?: yea, depending on what you consider hurting yourself
Been out of the country?: yes. canada, mexico, grand cayman, belize
Eaten something that made other people sick?: yea
Been in love?: yea
Done drugs?: yea
Gone skinny dipping?: yea
Had a medical emergency?: yea
Had surgery?: no
Ran away from home?: yea
Played strip poker?: yea
Gotten beaten up?: yea
Beaten someone up?: yea
Been picked on?: yea
Been on stage?: a lot lot lot
Thought about suicide?: yea
Pulled an all nighter?: yea
If yes, what is your record?: ive gone like 4 days straight without sleep
Gone one day without food?: yea
Talked on the phone all night?: yea
Slept together with the opposite sex w/o actually having sex?: yea
Slept all day?: yea, but not recently cuz i dont have time for that, too busy
Killed someone?: no
Made out with a stranger?: not exactly
Had sex with a stranger?: no
Thought you're going crazy?: yea and i was
Kissed the same sex?: not like that
Done anything sexual with the same sex?: no
Been betrayed?: yea
Broken the law?: yea
Met a famous person?: yea
Have you ever killed an animal by accident?: yea
Told a secret you swore you wouldn't tell?: yea
Been on radio/tv?: yea i have before, AND TOMORROW NIGHT IM DANCING ON ESPN. THE GAME STARTS AT 730-WATCH
Been in a mosh-pit?: no
Had a nervous breakdown?: yea
Had a dream that kept coming back?: yea
Beliefs
Belive in life on other planets?: its possible
Miracles?: yea
Astrology?: i don't know much about it
God?: yea
Satan?: yea and these days he's in the body of elton john.
Ghosts?: i think so
Luck?: yea. good luck, and bad
Love at first sight?: no. but if there is, i haven't experienced it
Yin and yang (that good cant exist w/o bad)?: yea
Witches?: if ms fruhbauer counts
Easter bunny?: HELL YEA
Believe its possible to remain faithful forever?: yea
Believe theres a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow?: in some shape or form
Do you wish on stars?: no, damnit ive never seen a shooting star
Friends
Do you have any gay/lesbian friends?: yea
Who is your best friend?: mariah, brinney, julie, jessie, misty, samm, sam, veronica, laura, joshV, justin, ari, emily svehlek, val, paul, kevin, shayne. man i dont know how to put them amazing people in an order so ignore the order
Who's the one person that knows most about you?: maria
Your favourite inside joke?: a lot
Who's your longest known friend?: mariah... ive known her since i was 4
Newest?: amanda i think
Shyest?: none really
Funniest?: all of them
Sweetest?: most of them
Closest?: all the ones i said were my best friends
Friends you miss being close to the most?: laura, emily k, brittany p, derek, ericka, eric, kenny, kirchner, rebecca
Last person you talked to online?: joe
Who do you talk to most online?: umm.. i barely talk online anymore. im always away. buttt idk .. my best friends?
Who do you trust most?: my best friends.
Who listens to your problems?: mariah, brinney, julie, jessie, veronica, misty, samm, laura, joshV, ari, paul, kevin
Who do you fight most with?: jay
Who's the nicest?: all my best friends
Who's the most outgoing?: all of them
Who's the best singer?: grace omg she got 2nd on the apollo. shes going to be so famous. she goes to nyc every other week cuz thats where her record deal is and she's working on her album now
Who's on your shit-list?: saralyn, anna meer
Have you ever thought of having sex with a friend?: idk sure
who's your second family?: mariah and her family. hell i wore her moms shirt today lol
Do you always feel understood?: all my best friends
Who's the loudest friend?: all of us damnit
Do you trust others easily?: idk
Who's house were you last at?: justins
Name one person who's arms you feel safe in: ............ i shouldn't say
Do your friends know you?: yea for the most part
Friend that lives farthest away: misty, josh, mike, sean, alex, cole
Who Was the Last Person...
That haunted you?: my mom
You wanted to kill?: my mom
That you laughed at?: james
That laughed at you?: justins dad
That turned you on?: justin
You went shopping with?: my dad
That broke your heart?: probably josh. man i dont know anymore.
To disappoint you?: justin
To ask you out?: umm complicated
To make you cry?: idk.. i havent cried lately but i think it was cause i was really stressed out
To brighten up your day?: today my day was brightened up by val, emily, ari, mariah, lirds, gina, grace, brinney, samm, laura, james, gracie, joey, and justin
That you thought about?: ...... you dont want to know
You saw a movie with?: watched a movie with- justin, laura, james, and andy. went to a movie with- julie & veronica in big dresses hahha after senior prom fundraiser
You talked to on the phone?: my dad
You talked to through IM/ICQ?: joe
You saw?: my dad