What I wanted to say is that I'm just so confused about what I should do. I'm paralyzed. Interested in everything, committed to nothing. Photography? Psychology? Brains? Beer? Eyes? Words? All the options All the choices All the opportunities start to seem the same start to seem all together the same seam here as at the start of that ( Read more... )

Certain sacrifices, compulsory conformities and scheduled concessions must be made in search of success ( Read more... )

First there's the gentle whir, often only imagined...A flight from Honolulu into Oakland, little more than six years ago. They asked us to play cards and later the younger one kissed me as we descended, chaste lips tightly closed even in the face of her own action and my pursuant passion. She wrote her phone number and email carefully in my ( Read more... )

So now I sit here and talk to myself about the fallen gods and rising demons. Is there even a difference? Think about it. Down in the subways everything eventually becomes the same color of grey-brown, everything becomes the same color when it disintegrates into dust. Outside, the sounds that people make are low and high and short and long, ( Read more... )

When I started writing my book, I didn't really have any idea how to get the words far enough outside my own mouth that they'd resemble anything other than my own thoughts. I didn't realize until later that thoughts come in such incredible variety that all I had to do was scoop out every last little spoonful of synaptic soup and no distance would ( Read more... )

Not sticky enough, we're all frozen and dancing. Write hard and slow, no free flow, no quotes or sugar coats or easy alliterative rhyming when there's real timing meaning to be eaten.

It warms me from such a distance and leaves me feeling cold in the shadows. My life like a tube of toothpaste, I squeeze it out onto a piece of foil and it is less than nothing, something so small ( Read more... )

Premise: Any given stimulus applied to a human to a great enough degree will eventually have a physical manifestion in their body. Hypothesis: Any given stimulus applied to any perceptible degree to a human will have a physical manifestation in their body. Have you ever met someone and thought them flat and mannequin-like, only to witness ( Read more... )

It's not quite what I imagined it would be, it's exactly what I knew it would be. What I will never be. Oppositional charges perpetuate polarity, but the attraction is undeniable.

Started taking pictures again just a little, and I can feel a lot more coming. Eventually you will see. You will all see.

Every other breath a sigh, this morning. Once again I find myself trying to forget instead of remember, and it seems like regression. Not sure anymore that I can maintain the overwhelming good will and love that I once felt glowing everlasting in my core. But even now, we both know that's just talk. Just the melodramatic words of a broken heart ( Read more... )