Comments | eyefloss: meet me in the summer time.

eyefloss

meet me in the summer time.

Oct 06, 2009 01:15

Have a meme.

Tell me something. Post it anonymously.

A story, a secret, a confession, a fear, a love: anything you want.
Something about you, something about me, anything at all.

Be sure to post honestly. Post as many times as you want.

Comments 20

anonymous October 6 2009, 05:39:48 UTC

I have to sleep on the side of the bed closest to the door every time. I like to have an easy getaway.

eyefloss October 6 2009, 05:43:26 UTC

From what?

anonymous October 6 2009, 05:47:53 UTC

When I was younger, I'd have hallucinations. My parents always said the bruises were just from falling as I ran out of the room, but when I got away I felt safe again, so I like to be sure that if it happens again I'll be able to escape. It's why I get nervous about falling asleep around other people because if it does happen again I don't want them to think I'm nuts.

eyefloss October 6 2009, 05:55:06 UTC

If you explained it beforehand they might understand. Or they might be jackasses about it. You can never really tell with people.

Thread 6

anonymous October 6 2009, 05:52:08 UTC

I wonder what it's all for all too often.

eyefloss October 6 2009, 06:00:21 UTC

By "it" I assume you mean life, which I honestly can't say. I'm just along for the ride.

anonymous October 6 2009, 06:08:44 UTC

Yeah, that is what I meant. But I guess we all are, in the end.

eyefloss October 6 2009, 06:47:02 UTC

Pretty much.

anonymous October 6 2009, 06:19:15 UTC

I have about fifty million different things in my head that I want to say just to get them out, but I never can. Even under anon, I can never bring myself to say them. I'm probably scared of being found out or something, but I wish I could get over it. But I'm very sorry for the things I probably should say but never have the courage to say. It might make me a shitty friend, but I'm trying to get better about it, I really am.

eyefloss October 6 2009, 06:42:53 UTC

I'm usually pretty bad at guessing at who people are but... Thanks. I wish you could find the courage to say them for yourself more than anything, since I can imagine bottling that up must hurt. And it's okay, really. I know I'm not always the best friend a person could have.

anonymous October 6 2009, 06:57:14 UTC

I don't know, I think you're a better friend than you give yourself credit for. I wish you wouldn't get down on yourself. You've been pretty amazing to me. And I'm torn on the bottling stuff up. I used to get beaten down pretty good by someone when I tried opening up. After a while your brain just learns not to do it anymore. So I don't know what's worse, locking it up or risking the old consequences.

eyefloss October 6 2009, 07:24:41 UTC

I've done it forever so it's sort of a hard habit to break. My humor tends to be self-deprecating anyway. I can't really make any promises regarding one choice or the other, but if that person isn't in your life anymore, it might be worth the risk.

Thread 7

anonymous October 6 2009, 13:20:57 UTC

I've never been in a relationship (the girlfriend/boyfriend kind) and I've always viewed them as tricky, unpredictable, and usually more harmful than good as well as short-lived, especially if you're still young (which I am). No one had ever wanted a relationship with me in high school, so they were easy to avoid. But some months ago, a good internet friend who was visiting told me they liked me in that way. We didn't talk about it any more after that, but I've been thinking about it ever since. Sometimes I think I should go ahead and ask them if they want to be more than friends, but other times I think about all the ways something like that can ruin the relationship between two people and it scares me. I really don't know what I'd be getting into. I like the friendship we have now, and I feel like we wouldn't be able to go back to that if a closer relationship didn't work out. The worst part is that I don't know if I love them. How do you know something like that? And the fact that I don't know if I feel anything for them makes me ( ... )

this is kind of rambly but i'm really tired so i apologize eyefloss October 7 2009, 02:53:25 UTC

I wouldn't say they're tricky or harmful, but I do think that they tend to be unpredictable. But friendships and life tend to be that way as well.

Regarding love, I don't think it's something you always feel right away. I see it as something that develops over time. And I don't really think love at first sight happens very often. More often then not, dating doesn't really start off about love. It's more of a "I like you and you like me so we should date and see if this goes anywhere." And yeah, people get hurt and fucked over sometimes, and sometimes you break up, but sometimes they stay together.

I'm not saying you should do one or the other because I don't pretend to know the entire situation, and I feel it's not my business to be telling people what they should or should not do. But I hope whatever you decide is the choice that makes you happiest.

anonymous October 7 2009, 05:41:44 UTC

I still think about people from my past. The people who I shouldn't be thinking about, and the people who I try to tell myself I don't miss. And honestly, I don't miss them at all... but that doesn't matter. I keep having dreams about them. All of them. Constantly, and it doesn't go away. And this makes me think about these people.

The worst part is, I am so paranoid over it that I feel like it's building up to something. That I'm being prepared in all of these dreams for something to happen and my world gets flipped and I'm stuck in these situations.

I'm terrified. I know it's paranoid. The way I was raised taught me to be nothing but paranoid. I've had so many things happen to me throughout my life and so many people turn on me when I least expect it that I constantly expect it all the time. And the people I call my friends hate me a little more every day for it.

I don't know what else to do. And I'm starting to feel like something's wrong with me. Not just because of the paranoia, but because something has to be wrong for all ( ... )