the crying of the rain

[eyelineryou]

So i tunneled myself into depressed thoughts again. I hate that feeling: your lungs are crushed in, the world becomes a swimming, blurring, hurricane to only get trapped in, there are so many people. but your so utterly alone. that was the feeling

Comments

[anonymous]

jason?

woa like a longass

[eyelineryou]

jason. longest story of my life....
whoever this is, maybe some cold winter day well share eachothers shit and no doubt he'll come up.
xo

SWEETY!

[isntitlovely]

Don't doubt the way you act. I love your the way you are upbeat and smiling most of the time. But along with being a fun happy teen also comes the sadness. Don't ever feel bad because you think you should be somebody else, you are perfect the way you are and trying to be what other people want you to be will only make you doubt yourself more. I wouldn't have you any other way...and I realize that I don't know you as well as most people might, but the way you are has only made me want to be a part of your life and changing you never crossed my mind. Be happy, you deserve it.

Re: SWEETY!

[eyelineryou]

aw that was such a sweet thing to say especially since were not close. u seem really cool iv gained more respect for u now that i no u can be really fun...AND supportive.
u dont no how much what u said means to me i realize all that stuff on my own but it never really sinks in untill someone takes the time to tell me. its hard to conqure up every once n awhile. ya no?
anyways...thanks again~xoxox~

[anonymous]

hey monika..hmm, i dont really know you well, but someone put your live journal icon thingie in my IM... i had no idea you were so.. sad? you always seem so happy. dont be sad! -taylor

happay happay joy joy

[eyelineryou]

ya im really not a sad person. i think im a really happy person. thats the problem, people dont like who i am so it kinda stings, i dont care what people think, only when its cool people, um to make a story one of my close friends gets me down alot...thats basically it.
anyways thank u so much for caring!
muaw.

look to the cat who is sneaky

[anonymous]

OK FIRST OF ALL I LOVE EVERYTHING ABOUT U IF U CARE OR NOT

bottom line: u have enough ppl who totally love u to ride off those that dont with dignity and grace
sneaky cat: hes laid back and is always strollin but hes still smiling...ponder that (love that word!)
current ponder: "was that really drool on the desk or was it tears?..."
current fear: i wont be able to say the right thing and make u happy

they say giving makes one happier than receiving so u definately deserve to be happy,
chad

some song refrences...BOOOYA

[eyelineryou]

chad...
ill reply laturrr. were about to get kicked out of computer lab.
xoxox
so check back

Re: look to the cat who is sneaky

[eyelineryou]

wow ya.
i totally love myself now.
but um. ya i toally care
what you say means a lot to me
you make me sooo happy and its awesome, how i can kinda be myself around you.
MUAW!
xox

i lov ya!!

[anonymous]

monika i lov u soooo fuckin much our PE dance wudnt b the same!!! ur sooo cool no matter if ur happy or sad ur personality rox and u haev the best combination of both, i hella mist u today me n vern were jc but it wasnt the same w/ out u! (i lov u vern!) u have sooooo much personality its amazing!! dont b sad!!! i'm glad u feel better now tho xoxoxox
micki PADILLA BABY!!!

Re: i lov ya!!

[eyelineryou]

ill reply laturrr. im about to get kicked out of computer lab.
check baaaack.

Re: i lov ya!!

[eyelineryou]

aw u rock micki
padilla- RPERESENT!
wow, our dance didnt go so well. but we selled it, huh?
MUAW!!!