thank you(!) i'm glad you like it and also i'm secretly delighted that someone (more particularly: you) reads this anymore. i am just going to take this opportunity to say to you that i recently read an entry of yours which struck a chord with me - for i think you are lovely and i hope someday - despite all this continual emptiness, the glaring sense of deprivation - we'll both be at the very least approaching okay.
it was written on may 29th, 2013, frank and bare with that sort of sorrowful beautiful quality that such topics sometimes almost inherently carry. ah, yes - the Bangs. i think everyone at least once in their life should try a) shaving their head and b) cut bangs. it took me a while before i truly adjusted as bangs with my currently long flowing hair are so Feminine compared to my previous androgynous take, but now i'm wild for it. though everyone here keeps mistaking me for our eurovision phenomenon loreen; it happens so often i've considered learning her coordinated dance repertoire so i can deliver both visually and musically whenever someone approaches me with this inquiry. i'll be doing some Librarian Work this summer so if anything, i hope at least one person will come quizzical upon me whilst i'm - for example - stacking books, simply for the personal pleasure of being able to deadpan "this is my day job".
anyway - housecleaning calls(!) i hope today offers you beauty and peace, however fleeting it may be. x
wonderful that you took time to comment, wonderful that you're still here - it makes me realize that i too not only have missed writing, i've also missed this particular sphere and all the astonishingly lovely individuals with whom i've connected. so thank you for appearing here, i've certainly Missed You Too. xo
I thought about you last night. I was listening to a audiobook biography of Cohen as I was chainsawing trees and branches fallen from a storm into pieces that can be disposed of or used for firewood. There was a reference to Patti Smith, so when I went inside, I decided to listen to the ethereal cover of "Dancing Barefoot" by First Aid Kit. Struck by how many layers the song has, how much I missed the first 100+ times I listened. Like Plath, it's clear: the simplicity was so artistically, deliberately, painstakingly assembled. The song precariously balanced on the edge of joy and pain, life and death, suicide and NOT-suicide. Herione, Heroin--what's the difference. At least for the song, Jeanne Hébuterne was an inspiration to Smith not unlike Lorca to Cohen. Another interesting gem from the book was a mention of Keroauc digging a hole in the Earth and fucking it to some how bring good luck to a impending publication. I wrote a poem off that--I mean how much more comically and defiantly symbolic can you be than to lay down on
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what a lovely little message to receive and read, accidentally on the last day of the year. i only regret i did not see this sooner(!) whoever you are : thank you, i'm glad. & happy new year.
ah, please know that i am still Here. still occasionally writing however just not publishing it anywhere (yet), still voraciously reading (my most recent interest for example: random facts about space travel. a new thing i learned is those recommended astronaut tributes include 'Ability to Function Despite Imminent Catastrophe'. based upon this i conclude myself worthless in space). i was in fact just in san francisco (can you believe!) which has inspired me to perhaps do a write-up on one of my encounters there, if only just so i will always remember it, for it was.. a meeting of unexpected candor, truly something to treasure. if i ever get to it, i promise i shall make it appear here.
What a wonderful surprise to hear from you! I think we are always just adjacent to imminent catastrophe, but survive through the miracle of compartmentalization. The last fun space book I read was "Death By Black Hole" which informs you that the process of falling into one feet first causes you to be stretched apart by the gravity gradient between head and toe like a cosmic version of a medieval rack and is known affectionately as spaghettification
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anyway - housecleaning calls(!) i hope today offers you beauty and peace, however fleeting it may be. x
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and you too, are missed. x
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