everything has been very strange as of late. i can't concentrate. on ANYTHING. my relationships with everyone i know are changing. some for the better, some not. my brain is just a big swirling mess of confusion. i don't know what is going on anymore. maybe it's better that way. life is more interesting when it's full of suprises ( Read more... )

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i long for serious, intimate, intellectual conversation. i used to have it often. now, not so much. it makes me sad. maybe it's my fault. maybe most of it is that i'm not keeping up on my end of keeping my brain active. i tire of boring every day trite nonsense. i want someone to challenge what i know...and what i don't know as well...

i'm beginning to get frustrated with the qualities of the individuals that i have met recently. how hard is it to meet a guy who isn't self absorbed, superficial, or a flat out idiot?

somebody find me a nice boy.

i had a dream about donovan last night...it's made me very upset all day.
also, i'm just showing off with the spanish. i dont REALLY know it that well...

everything is wrong.... i don't know why it has to be so. it just is.....

soy tan infeliz. me siento como un más flojo. he pasado mi día que dormía y que bebía en vez del trabajo en escuela. tengo dos bosquejos ásperos debidos esta semana. ¿por qué no puedo conseguir motivado?
pozo del oh. supongo que realizaré algún día que estoy perdiendo mi vida. pero para hoy, continuaré siguiendo los mismos patrones.
cómo es triste

i need to have more friends that i like. or that like me. at least donovan would come over and just hang out. no one likes to do that anymore... movie nights are SO underappriciated....

these are the cutest pumpkins i've made so far... yay bev!


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i want to be in a band again. reeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaally badly. i miss it. it makes me sad.